Another quarrel when things are going back on track from the previous setback? I dunno. Jus scolded him. Well, not really scold, or does he feel it tat way? but rather tell him? make him aware of my response to this? i dunno n i really wonder how he feels. in his reply he sounds sad, or maybe he is sad. n aware tat he was wrong. i trust him; believe in him; din doubt him. jus hope he'll not scold himself anymore.

But one thing tat trouble me is why i started this? i dun understand. is it cos i expect too much from him? jus spoke to ken n ask him wad advice he'll give to couples. he told me "dun quarrel". Adding on, he said tat quarrels make the 2 ppl awkward esp in class. he also told me tat initial quarrels last for one, two days but subsequently it'll last for weeks. man. tat's quite bad uh? can't imagine not toking to him for weeks. haha. But ken told me tat quarrels are common, lyk husband and wife do quarrel. Agreed. N he said tat it's also lyk guys haven't grow up yet. haha. dunno how true. dare not agree. Also, Ken said tat gals tend to pick the quarrel. Hmm.....dotz.

Anyway, I dunno how things will turn out now. I dunno if it'll be weird again. Lyk the last time. I dunno why I did this today. Make things so weird. So much fear n doubt in me. I dunno if he'll still tok to me...dunno if he'll still smile...dunno if he'll still hold my hand...dunno if.....so many tat I can't think of now. Why do I have to turn things sour when things are starting to pick up? He was jus so sweet ytday n I had to twist things around for the worst.... i_i

But I regret. Really regret. Shld have controlled myself. Patience? Is tat wad I lack in this situation? Patience to tell him nicely n wait for him to change? I noe I've always lacked tat, ever since young. I'm always impatient. But the virture of patience is hard to cultivate. So difficult. I struggled until I totally give it up. Is tat the consequence I suffer?

Dunno.....