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Friday, May 23, 2008 @ 1:27 pm


Welcome to the BATTLE OF THE D'S!

(facing the crowd and reporting live at 2.30pm)
Host: Hello, everyone! I am Mr Mind. Right now, in the Sharon's Mind Stadium, a whole crowd of spectators have come to watch this final showdown! Loud cheers and signboards are everywhere as everyone awaits for the match to start! And this particular match is expected to last for a few days. So gear up and buy your sandwiches, guys!

(turning towards to arena)
Host: Right now, behind me on the arena, preparing themselves for the fight are...Dreams and Duties! On the left, Dreams is that guy that is very built and set. Even though he has lost several matches against getting into NJC and getting a diploma for piano, he has won many others such as triple science class (cheers from crowd) and the ever-famous H3 Maths! (even louder cheers from supporters)

Host: And now, on the right is Duties! A new fresh-bie to the wrestling game. But he did boasted to me that he had been training hard for this match. With the increasing gym responsibities to tuition and friends, not forgetting popping those vitamins of destress and arts, he says he is all set for the match against Dreams!

Host: Bear in mind guys, the trophy is BIG!!! That is to control and be the manager of Sharon's Mind Stadium in the light of the recent issue of Australian Universities!

(after several minutes) Ding! Ding! Ding!
Host: On right! So the match has finally started! Here goes!

(at the arena)
Dreams: Get set to go down man!
Duties: I think you had better watch your back instead!

(inching closer, suddenly, Dreams made the first move and stirked Duties at the side of his chest! Ouch!)
Dreams: Take that! I have been training so hard! Getting all the necessary results in school! That's how I can come this far! That's how Sharon can come this far!
Duties: Ahh! Why...sure you work hard! But I work hard too! Fulfilling all my responsibilities to the best I can though not perfect! And I did well! That's how I become confident of fighting against you! And I'm sure Sharon acknowledges and appreciates it!

(getting up on his feet, Duties suddenly stikes Dreams on the left leg and Dreams fell!)
Duties: And, recently, I have been training ever harder! Having just taken on new students to teach too! Want me to name them? Leo, Yuan Ru, Augustine, Bosyln and Hao An! And 3 of them are having their major exam this year! How do you think Sharon will answer them if she left them just like that?
Dreams: I don't care! You took them on at the last minute! You made a stupid and wrong move! You very well know that it has been a dream since young to go overseas to study! That is a part of me already! My own flesh! How can you bear to let Sharon part with this part of me?!

(Dreams made another move and smacked Duties on the head)
Dreams: Now you see how strong I am! I achieve so many results. The recent one being a good set of results to get into the Australian Universities! And hey, mind you, I got 3 offers! And even one from the university I had wanted! Not to forget, the course I wanted too! And Singapore can't offer it to me! So that makes the move to go Australia fulfilling 2 dreams! Boy! Sharon will earn lah!
Duties: Sure, it's a great earn! A great profit gained! But is being fulfilling your needs more important than the responsibility towards the parents? Will Sharon be able to live and study there for 4 years without ever feeling guilty? That she had to give up seeing and helping them in their education for the sake of her own? I DEFINITELY WON'T!!

(A final blow from Duties! Woah! Sent Dreams to the side of the ring!)
Duties: And do you think that satisfying your own selfish needs is a good thing? There is joy in satisfying mine! Inner joy and many bright challenges! Going to Australia can train her academically and in terms of independence. But I can train her in terms of character and to prepare her for the future to teach! More than that, it circles around the issue of responsibility and integrity! AND NOT TO FORGET FRIENDS! What do you have to say?

HALF-TIME! DING DING DING!
Host: Okay! So there we have it! A half-time break. I wonder what will happen in the second-half and the days ahead. Will Dreams win and take control of Sharon's Mind Stadium? Or is it Duties? Stay around and don't go anywhere! We'll be right back!

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okay. i know it's a bit funny and different from the usual way I write my entries. i dunno if it's entertaining but it's very true. will I give up the dreams i have been holding on to since young jus for the sake of my tuition, my friendships, follow-ups/bible studies (present n future) and my service in church. I wonder...until now, i don't have an answer. but i always shiver whenever my parents talk about this issue. it seems like they are finally willing to send me there. yet, am i willing to go there? that's another issue and a very important one. i must be sure that i want to go there. only then, will i enjoy and make th full use of my education there. sigh.

like wad Dreams said, the course they offer me there is good. i feel that the prospects for chem engine is better than material engine. is it true? i wonder. but chem engine has been my dream in the recent years. do i want to graduate with that? or settle for material engine...

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008 @ 11:10 pm


[loved]

An entry from my diary:

Today, I received 3 touches of love from God! 3 reminders of His love! First, through the follow-up I'd with Shu Hui today. A reminder of how terrible the world and we are but how God loves us so much to come to our rescue and gives us His Son to die on the cross! Second, through today's reading during QT. 3 times the writer emphasizes that "because God loves you" that He did not spare His Son Jesus from humilation, degradation and crucifixion! Thirdly, a reminder through Day 2 of Purpose Driven Life when I'm doign with Zhiwen. How much God loves us and it is on this truth we build our life on. How important it is to build our lives on this truth. And also that because He loves us and is love, we are created! Praise God and thank God for His LOVE! And I believe that God touches me and reminds me of His love as an answer to my prayer to mend and restore the relationship I have with God. In the light of the Bible studies I'm handling, it's very impt to keep a close walk with God and He showed me again that to restore the relationship is to go back ot hte truth of love--God loves you. So love Hium back, Sharon! Renew your love! That's the 1st step!

Thank you Lord! =)

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Saturday, May 17, 2008 @ 10:19 pm


[australia unis, sadden]

well, was talking to my parents about the australian universities i was being offered over dinner. first, i talked to my mum. then my dad joined in later. my mum was very frank. questioning me on why i want to go, if i really want the course i was offered etc. one thing she said made me really sad. i'm very upset that i have to suffer for what he is doing. it's totally unfair and upsetting. why should i reap what he sow? it denies me of my dreams, my chances, my goals. i worked hard for it. he isn't doing so currently. so why should i let him? sometimes, i end up questioning myself why am i in this position. many times, i wish i never am. the amount of sacrifices, the responsibilities i have to fulfill, do they ever take note nor know? and i can't believe that the chinese traditional mindset of "investing in a girl is a waste" would ever befall on my mum =(

and it really doesn't help that a particular love song keeps playing in my head.

i wish things will be as i wished

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Friday, May 16, 2008 @ 4:05 pm


[driving]

right. so I got the same instructor for 3 straight days this week. And that makes it 5 times throughout my entire course! And mind you, it isn't the very nice and encouraging instructor. Many times, I get demoralised while driving that I just feel like giving up. and i'm serious about that. sigh. it's so sad. but thank God Zhiwen and Alvin are always there to support me and tell me to press on. Thank God that God is there to comfort me too. was talking to mum jus now and she was also telling me to pray. Haha. Yar. as small as this matter may seem to me, nothing's ever small in God's eyes. So i'm very definite and certain that He'll hear and answer it in His own way! *Thank you Lord!*

well, driving been going okay. progressing well today. parallel parking and driving on slope. well, in one way that it's good i'd this instructor the past 3 days cos he knows i'm weak at S course, crank course and directional change. so he allowed me to practise and revise them everytime. yes. i still hit kerbs the very first time i do these courses but after a while, things start to get better. but one thing i got annoyed at and must get it off my chest is that whenever i feel the car's not straight, he'll think otherwise! So when i do correction and adjust the car again, he'll start to question me. this made me so irritated! Why..the car really isn't straight..

man. driving in gear 1 is really tiring on the feet. not only that, it's tiring on the mind too. whenever i start to look outside the window or simply pause and not do anything, i feel as if i'm still in the car, inching backwards and forward slowly. so dizzy!!! grr. and the ball of my foot really hurts! :( ouch. i wish i can quickly get this over and done with!

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008 @ 9:40 pm


[thoughts]

right. been some time since i've blogged. many things happened to me. but i shan't say here. really isn't wad i wanna share on the blog. jus wanna see how things go and turn out to be..when things finally settled down..

anyway, been noticing a lot of ppl playing with their PSPs when i was taking public transport just yesterday. everywhere i turned and looked, there bound to be someone holding it and playing. be it a guy or a girl. i'm like "what?! is PSP really that nice? so popular? man..it's becoming like a necessity..like what hp are nowadays..." I started shaking my head. and the saddest scene i watched was when 2 girls were playing their PSPs. at first i thought they were not related until they started talking to each other abt the game they are playing. "oh..so they are frens". hmm. then, one of them started talking to the other girl. so that makes 3 of them. "right". and suddenly, a girl on the extreme right started asking them something. "so there are 4 of them!" it gave me a shock! All girls..dun they have stuffs to talk about? shouldn't they not play and listen to their own music when with frens? as a form of respect? if playing their PSP is more impt than meeting up, why bother to meet up in the first place? i really cannot understand their mind...

brings me back to my stand on sms-ing or having a long phone call when i'm out with frens. if the purpose of meeting my fren is to talk to him/her, then i should give the due respect and not talk to my other frens be it through a phone call or sms. i wonder what's with communication between ppl nowadays. have this part of technology made us ailenate from each other? it's quite sad that for some or most of the teenagers i see now, they are so absorbed in the virtual world that they don't pay much attention to their relations with ppl around them. and trust me, even working adults, especially young men who looks like fresh grads, are not spared.

well, i'm all set for teaching Leo with proper plan! actually, i've already started on it! yay! and it went smooth. at least it was targetted. but still can't complete one item. but the rest of the completed items were effective. at least in my opinion. hmm. now, it's jus wait and see if i've given him too much homework. still, it's ever a joy to teach him! and boslyn scored well in maths n eng! yay! haven't heard frm hao an nor leo nor yuan ru. hmm..

okay. i think that's all i gotta say now. hope that at his side, things are not too tense up. haven't heard frm him... =(

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Monday, May 05, 2008 @ 10:55 pm


[pen-ing a few thoughts]

cyclone hit Myanmar :( saw it in the news today. yangon was not spared. and i was filled with so much sorrow for this situation. i'm so sad lah..there was a picture of ruins and the report was all abt destructions, sorrow and frustrations. esp frustrations n upset at the soaring prices and no help frm the govt. man. makes me think of the orphanages that i'd visited last year. they are all located in villages which means the water-logging system isn't very efficient. the houses aren't really made of good solid brick materials. man. i wonder how they are doing now. with so many children to feed, i hope they are okay. well, i hope to hear news frm my leaders abt them soon! =( God, please watch over them and keep them, the adults and children, safe frm any diseases and harm that are prevalent during this time of recovery frm loss.

was looking at weiling's blog and boy! wasn't i filled with shame! her blog posts totally rocks! was so God-centered. and i suddenly felt that my life these days centers alot arnd me and my emotions. nothing very encouraging =( sigh. man. i must do something. no doubt, it's okay that i use this blog as an outlet to the talkative side of me..blah out all my events and happenings. but in the midst of them, in the midst of activities, where is God, Sharon? remember Him. and well, i'm glad to be able to hear frm weiling..hear how she's doing. and i'm glad she's reading and being touched by the same book i'd read: Captivating. hmm. and that reminds me that it's abt time i re-read the book already! had forgotten quite a bit of it...

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Sunday, May 04, 2008 @ 9:55 pm


[delighted]

today, i went over to zhiwen's house to watch...STARDUST! yay! one of my favourite movies. if you know me well, i only like movies that have meaning in it and stardust is one of them! though they can be a bit cliche, it is still good to be reminded of them..

so i rented it at video ezy jus now. then headed down to zw's house. his mum and sis watched too! so made my money more worth-it. and i'm glad both he and his sis enjoyed the movie! it brought back memories too..while watching the movie. and i finally got to see the front part that i missed in the cinema!

after the movie, i felt quite bad that i can't join the family for dinner. felt like i'm so using their place only. bleah. i hope there will be a chance nxt time! and his mum is really nice! can joke arnd (: oh..i must definitely comment on this! the house's view is fantastic! it's really great! the vast sky, the greens on the right, unblocked view by high-rise buildings...totally great! wad i love man! nature! haha. imagine if full-moon ever appears there! haha. great!

okay. apart frm that, wanna thank zw for letting me go over to his hse and to be able to watch the movie with him! loves!

on another note, wow! i was totally amazed at how the guy whom i hi-5ed found my blog. to you: thanks alot for tagging. do leave your email add behind on the tagboard k? got lots to ask you and say sorry to you...hope to hear frm you soon!

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Saturday, May 03, 2008 @ 5:37 pm


[wow-ed]

so now blogger has this future posting thing. where i can write a post now and then have it posted at the date and time i want it to be! cool? i think so! haha.

anyway, back-track a little. thanks alot to my frens who took time and effort to meet me and celebrate my bday! yam wenn, shu hui, khalis, conray, zhen guang, nigel teh, my ex-colleagues (zhiwen, jia wen, alvin and yi chen)! thanks to those who sent me their well-wishes esp to josiah, alison (for the ever-inspiring bday msg), kah hwee, evelyn...and many others. also got a few surprises frm ppl that i tot i've detached till they've forgotten my bday. haha. i feel very glad that i'm still remembered, or at least their HPs or reminders rmb me. haha.

the night before, i went out with sh and yw to eat at Marche! =) we only ate the food ppl recommended so the dinner wasn't too bad after all. thanks for taking time out to meet me, gals! love you all! =))

i still rmb the night before i turn 19, i was so filled with gratefulness towatds my parents! somehow, i feel a sense of thankfulness that they've cared and provided for me all these while. and i jus kept thanking God for them too. that night, i just laid in bed thinking of how to thank my parents the nxt morning. and he became my inspiration through his late-night sms. it gave me an idea and tat's precisely what i mentioned to my parents! jus a pity tat my dad's ever insistent on me not giving him a kiss. haha. well, i'm jus glad i din miss the chance!

that day, met khalis at CCK. had ya kun for breakfast. and catch up. it's great seeing and talking to him again! take care and hope to catch a movie with you soon! and i ate so much that i was pretty much full when i met the NS-pri sch guys for lunch. so we headed to the jap pasta restaurant and i ate....SALAD!! wad a let down!

go there suppose to try the pasta in jap style but ended up eating salad cos i was simply too full and din wanna bloat myself. zg slimmed down ALOT! was totally shocked! and i'm sad to see him like that..aiyo..i hope he's going good and okay! well, guys NS talks became the center of the conversations. bleah. but at least we also talked abt uni! and zg got shortlisted for medicine and law! Congrats!! =)) anyway, happy birthday zhen guang!

oh. at cine, cos we sit near the escalator, and it being a public holiday, i saw many of my frens! both frm sec sch and JC. like weiyan! (where she has kept her hair longer already) and Seng Loong, janson, ashiq, eugene, wei yu..and the other SJI guys. haha. was actually planning to go up to them and make them wish me a happy bday. haha. oh well. din get a chance too :P

after that, headed to Borders. been years since i've last went there. after spending abt 15mins there, i headed down to Raffles Place. and i'm glad it wasn't very awkward with my ex-colleagues. had great fun too! walked to Pitstop that was quite hard to find. and the hot weather din help much either. reached there, was greeted, got a seat and then, know wad? there was a stupid noisy bunch of gals beside us screaming and shouting so loudly!!

was super irritated and piss off by them! on top of that, i felt especially bad towards my frens cos i know that guys can't really take high-pitch screams of gals. sigh. the staff did reminded them to lower down their volume but they din really take heed. man. thinking back, i should have complained to the staff and made them do something abt it. or perhaps suggest that they sit outside! din noe there was an outside. and i almost wanted to suggest to them to sound-proof their walls! yeah man! the place is so small, every laughter can be echoed arnd the room! they ought to sound-proof it!!! okay..i wonder if i'll ever return there or at least, well, i'll think twice abt suggesting going there nxt time. sigh. so disappointed at this which i'd been looking fwd to...

well, headed down to Fish and Co glass house with him. ate dinner there. took a few shots too. was super bloated frm dinner. but hey, the fish was so interesting lah! got cheese inside wan. cool! and the "cup" of water was super big!! but the thing i dun really like is the live band. yes. it's suppose to be good..something tat differentiates this branch frm the others but hey, i do have difficulty talking to my fren! hello! in the end, i had to change places and sit nearer to him so i wun nid to speak across the table. i DEFINITELY dun want to have a quiet dinner which wld seem like i'm dining alone!

haha. and look at this! *esp to khalis..wad i did nxt is really random* there were quite a no of ppl's bday being celebrated that day. and there were bday songs being sung and cake being given. there was a guy that's not far frm me. and after a while, when the song has been sung, photos taken, woo-ha gone, i told him abt the challenge i gave to myself. and i really did take it up. guess wad? i went up and walked over to the bday boy's table. it took a while before i got his attention *dang* when i finally got it, i asked for a hi-5 frm him. he jus lifted his hand but din push it forward. so i jus smacked my hand against his then told him that he and i have the same bday. at that point, i was starting to get nervous. cos i tot that maybe they gave him a belated bday celebration and that he wasn't saying much. so i started twirling my necklace pendant. a few seconds later, he asked if i'm bryan's fren. now, that's a random and fast one frm him. yet, quite expected cos i did catch his eye a few times during dinner. hehe. well, i denied and when he pointed out to the area i was sitting, i figured he must have tot my fren i'm dining with is bryan. tat's certainly not so. so i quickly said no. the whole conversation ended off with us wishing each other happy bday. haha. well, not anything i was expecting. haha. was dreamin if he wld ask for my number or give me a piece of his cake or buy a slice of cake frm Fish and Co and offer to me. haha. oh well. nevertheless, it was an interesting dare that dared myself to do *funny eh?*

after that, he and i jus walked down all the way back to Orchard (that being my 3rd time in a day there). wanted to eat the free ice-cream at swensens! but i was still full and din wanna force myself. but thinking back, i really regret! bday only comes once a year! i shld have taken that chance! grr! so we walked to the bus stop at wisma and took a bus home. it's nice. thanks for your company throughout the night!

lastly, not to be forgotten..the tradition of a family bday cake celebration! =) and it's so nice to see SO many candles on the cake! so rare..all in all, i have 10 candles! 1 big one and 9 small ones. hey..the next time i'll have this many candles is when i'm 29 years old! haha. better cherish this once in every ten years scene!

well, am grateful for the card jia wen gave me. couldn't stop laughing when i was reading it. and to alvin, thanks for the nineteen roses for my nineteen bday! he drew it himself leh!! in 8 hours! it's totally awesome! thanks for the effort! and to sh, thanks for the mp3 speakers which you had to tell me. haha. and to yw, thanks for the corner protector! din noe this product exist (shows how little i've been shopping :P). it's really cute. and definitely, to my ex-colleagues, thanks for the heart-shaped necklace! finally, i got one nice good silver one! yay! THANKS! okay..and to zhiwen, whose present i haven't received, thanks still for the effort put in for the past few days! =D

okay. so it's already 2 days into my 20th year on earth. i know i'm supposed to reflect but there's nothing much though. much of wad is said. maybe next time. but well, one thing is that i'm really thankful that God has seen me through my 19 years on earth. and He has been very faithful to me and calls me back and loves me even though i stray from Him. thank you God!

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