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Saturday, November 24, 2007 @ 10:42 am [hurt, grateful, anticipation]
MY MUM BROKE HER TOE!!!! I'm serious. she has a crack on the bone of her 4th toe! she took an X-ray and can see the line...and it doesn't look lyk hair-line one. now it's bandage up. she'll be seein the specialist nxt mon. and last nite she cldn't slp cos it hurts :( she say may nid to go for surgery and put a wire inside to support it...it hurts me also to see her lyk tat...now she's being wheeled all arnd the hse on the roller chair. sigh. and 2 weeks later, we are going off to Hanoi for vacation. i hope she can make it..it jus pains me la. and besides, i'm flyin off today so can't take care of her. boo. i wun deny that i worry but i'm jus gonna pray everyday. but this morning feels good during breakfast. cos my mum's quite immobile, so she doesn't move abt v often. the entire breakfast time, i'd her to myself and can finally sit down and chat. else, she'll be running arnd the hse or outside doing i-dunno-wad-endless-tasks. lyk wad my mum says, perhaps, God wants her to rest. seriously, she's been helping out at the tuition centre alot. perhaps it's time..it's time.. I jus hope she'll be well soon! please pray! yup. am grateful to one of my classmates. gave me a post on her blog. it's really nice and wonderful and priviledged to hear your thoughts and wad you have to say to me. it's encouraging. i am thankful. i'll think about wad you say, alright? so i'm flying off soon. at 2.30pm. leaving the hse soon. dad's coming to pick me up (: but, guys, i wun be bringin my HP there! so pls dun try to contact me k? there isn't any connection for me in myanmar. so no point. u can still call thru and sms me cos i'll leave my phone on. will be coming back nxt sat! looking fwd to my trip. i hope it'll be a safe and fulfilling one too! oh. ytday, there was a pri 6 gathering! 10 of us! it's nice and wonderful! had steamboat. thanks zhen rong for always being the busy one getting the crabs and cutting it. then, getting prawns and cooking it! and also settling the bill and plates etc! although, it's suppose to be my job. ha. but zg and i din forget u k? we gave u lots of cooked food on your plate for u when u come back! there were cherlynn, pei yi, wei ling, samuel, conray, bryan, zhen guang, zhen rong, nigel and myself. bryan shocked everyone with their hairstyle. but it wasn't the first time i see him lyk tat. and cherlynn keeps thinkin that he looks lyk a girl in the photo. zr changed a bit though not v tall. but i can't recognise him at the stn. and samuel...yes..definitely..he slim down alot! shocked me. and his voice is v v deep. haha. zg lose alot of weight! frm the last time i saw him early this yr! all the mugging muz have cost him to lose lots of weight! conray gained weight. cherlynn looks different without specs! but i'm glad i can still recognise her. pei yi's face din change. honestly. jus that, now, she has long hair. nigel and wei ling, dun nid to say la. see them in SA already thruout my 2 years. haha. steamboat cum BBQ was nice. wei ling's first time eating BBQ food. i'm glad she's full. cherlynn likes to eat crab! i noticed that. zg and conray like liver. haha. and me? the meat! the price went up to $13 per head. boo. the drinks were $1.50 per can. double boo. oh well. it was still nice. laughing and joking. some ppl cannot recognise each other when they meet. ha. over dinner, we were recalling the past. surprisingly, pei yi rmbs who sat beside who. and wei ling rmb zr is the monitor! haha. i wonder why i forget.... nigel joined us later but i'm glad there was some food left. samuel seems a bit bored though. hmm. i wonder..so dinner ended arnd 9pm. the guys got another drink. then they went out to play in town while the gals head home. i wld have gone out with the guys if i din have to come home to pack. haha. well, still, glad to see u people again! and conray! wad u mean by i took 6 years to plan this. haha. zr hit the right spot when i asked him if i'm wrong. haha. he asked if i felt guilty. but wei ling also helped me fight back. ha. but i think 6 years is a good timing. got more things to tok abt and it'll be more memorable. ha. conray, so smart go organise it la. haha. below is a rather not-so-nice pic. but the best i got. of the 10 of us and wei ling and I:
--------------------------------- Friday, November 23, 2007 @ 9:34 am [reflective, moody]
saw the wedding photos of my parents ytday! they are SO nice! esp my mum's wedding dresses and the many many photos....smiling faces and laughters..the marriage vows and the exchange of rings. and of course, the flower girls and page boys who are my cousins! and they din tell me!! haha. but, well, my parents did have a blissful marriage...for 20 years and counting. God Bless Them! a pity i wun be in spore to celebrate it with them..but i prepared a gift for them! I hope my wedding and marriage will be like theirs! forever tied to God too! went out with khalis last nite. met danny and ansley at orchard. saw danny wearing that headscaf for the first time. thankfully they din see khalis standing at the side when i was toking to them else tongues will wag. anyway, went far east. and my eyes...oh man..it's so nice to shop again! seriously! looking at so many clothes..it's so nice! but a pity that i din get anything. when i was supposed to be shopping, it ended up with khalis buying a $59 shirt!!! so ex la. but well, it does look nice on him..lyk wearing an SA tie too. ha. then, went upstairs to a muslim cafe to eat. got a spicy dish and had a hard time eating it. oh well. and the waitress thought that I'm a Jap!! shocking...cos i din tok to her and whenever she speaks to me in english, i got stunned. so fumbled with my words. guess that's why she thought i'm a jap? haha. went over to lido to buy the tickets to watch stardust. it's nice! the show! but i got a shock when i buy the tix...so many seats are occupied! had to sit 3 rows from the front. walau. haha. fallen star. romantic. reminded me of wad true love is. but too much fantasy. so the show ended at 11.40pm. shocked. din expect it to be so late. so walked orchard at near midnight! so rare! so took my time ot admire the christmas lightnings and the night scene of orchard..well, at least a part of it. thankfully, caught the bus 190 to bukit panjang. else i'll be stuck in orchard. but had to cab home from bukit panjang. boo. $5. sigh. wished i got a straight bus home. i actually asked my bro to go bp there and fetch me home..ie walk with me home. but he doesn't want. ha. oh well. it was a great nite-out man! thanks! it's fun and nice to be able to meet up with you again and tok to ya! sorry if i bore you out with all my shopping! haha. photos below! incl one from the last time at bugis... =) will always treasure these moments...
here's jus something i came up with last nite, randomly: All the memories, laughters, tears and joy,Is it they that I miss or is it you? But one thing's for sure: that my heart just pains Of which I do not know the reason why --------------------------------- Wednesday, November 21, 2007 @ 10:02 pm ytday marks the end of A's. and also wei hao's bday! *sorry i missed it* okay...back to the first sentence, so went our to celebrate. of course! being me. went out wid yh to town. wanted to watch a show in cine. reached there at 10.40am and it's NOT OPEN!! i was shocked! so late yet not opened. then, met several of our class guys too. and see so many other schs there. VJC and PJC and ACJC. and saw my VJ fren (: was half-expecting when we walked past them outside cine. so then, we started walking to the hello shop there where yh showed me where the cheap food is. since he missed the food there, we jus ate there for lunch. joined xw, jannah, ruth and alison for a while over at paragon afterwards. then, realised i'm in some kind of trouble for prom. felt cheated and betrayed too. wun elaborate here. well, i hv no choice but to go...unlike some ppl... after that, went home to shower then go out again. to meet yw and sh. din noe yw and i have the same phone! and i got a confirmation that the phone gives probs. sigh. oh well. it was a great meet-up. walked central but it was too boring. then, we walked thru clarke quay which was v quiet. then, we sat at the steps at the river there and chatted. but my legs and my back got so painful and tired! muz have not shopped for a long time... then, i had the busiest dinner! at hot stones! i recommended the restaurant..the same one where eleena gave a treat to le jing and i. but i forgot abt the cooking-your-own-meat part. so when dinner was served, raw meat was on the hot plate and we have to cook the food yrself. there was this one big chunk of raw meat! and that's the hardest cos meat have to be cooked in order to eat. so i was trying to cut into pieces. then, the waiter saw and offered his help to cut the pieces of meat for us. so nice! din pay service charge for nth. haha. then, took some photos at hot stones. look!
after that, went arnd clarke quat n walked until my legs ache again. then, was sittin down n askin them go company me for a drink (alcohol). so we went to check out the prices. they are so not cheap! then, we jus left lor. took photo under the sign: "hooters" too. we kept walkin arnd cq until i find it's pretty small...hmm
then, went over to PS with sh since yw had to return early and i wanted to stay out a bit more. ok lor. returned home. jus glad that i can meet up with them and catch up! [reflective]
today, saw a pair of lesbians on the bus, this tot came to my mind: love the sinner then, was reading a mag for ladies throughout my haircut today. was readin several articles. one on 7 things that gals do that shuns guys/bf off..some are quite true, others are not..another on cliques in offices and another on a person sharin his sex experience. no. it din write exactly wad they did..no details..jus that guy's thoughts and the writers reflections and comments. then, it brought me thinking: is sex becomin such a liberal issue here; in the outside world? that it jus seems lyk nth? and virginity doesn't really matter anymore? is that how the working world is really lyk now? i wonder...n the shaking-head thing is that the article concluded by encouragin the ladies to make at least one memorable sex night with yr bf?!?! does that really matter in a true relationship? i firmly say NO. yet, in reality, is this the world it's becoming? sigh...such sin... finally signed up for driving. but the earliest test date got pushed back so far! frm 26/11 to 18/12?!?! i'd better grab the date quickly!!! --------------------------------- Tuesday, November 20, 2007 @ 2:45 pm [223 post]
A's IS OVER!!! YES! finally! I can't believe it! time past so fast! i mean, PSLE then O's then A's. finally...it's over. thank you Lord! for seeing me through this! thinking back, the journey isn't easy. seriously. the past 1 year 10 months were so up and down both academically and non-academically. and lyk wad most of my adult-frens say, JC life is the toughest. uni will be easier. so i hope the next 3-4years will not be as tough as this. well, THANK GOD! --------------------------------- Sunday, November 18, 2007 @ 5:59 pm Five Loaves and Two Fishes by Corrine May
A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look Thousands were listening to the stories of one man He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand The hours passed so quickly the day turned to night Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had He wasn't sure what good it'd do there were thousands to be fed But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus the kindness in His smile and the boy cried out with the trust of a child he said: "Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as you will I surrender Take my fears and inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all to feed them all" I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small and I worry that the work I do means nothing at all But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands and every door that slams in my face I will offer up in prayer So I'll give you every breadth that I have Oh Lord, you can work miracles All that you need is my "Amen" Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as you will I surrender Take my fears and inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all I hope it's not too small I trust in you I trust in you Take my five loaves and two fishes Do with it as you will I surrender Take my fears and inhibitions All my burdens, my ambitions You can use it all no gift is too small --------------------------------- @ 4:10 pm i dunno why my website loads so slowly ever since i've changed my skin. oh well. if it's getting on your nerves and it doesn't respond aft a looooong wait, jus click the refresh button and it'll be on v fast. i believe it's the tagboard, not the new skin.
i'm always surprised yet grateful when i have frens who know me so well that even though i say i'm fine, they know i'm not. know me so well that without uttering anything abt the issues i'm facing, their encouragements are sent. and better still, when the encouragements were sent months ago and still effective right now. thank you God! and in one of the cards, of the things it's written, this is said: James 5:16b
toking about God, I'm Your Angel songs jus seems lyk a song frm God to me. if you look carefully at the words, it's everything that God wants to tell us. to cast our cares on Him, that He'll be watching over us, that He'll hear our every cries and wipe away our every tears and of course, most imptly, the feelings of emptiness can be gone when we believe in Him and put our trust in Him, when He shows us a better way... 1 peter 5:7
yes. i am studying for phys. looking thru the wksheets tat i did in tuition. many things to look at. and looking at them and my mistakes really reminds me of my clique. I REALLY MISS THEM LOTS! all the fun and laughter. all the jokes. and most definitely, helping each other in phys. teaching each other. i can still rmb which are the qns i taught and which are the qns they taught me. and of the 3 of them, i definitely miss Hui Ming the most. since she has been my fren ever since i've started this tuition. hope to see you all soon! i miss my sis alot. not tat she's away now. ha. but jus realised that it's v nice to have her in the hse. someone to tok to and so crappy. altho i do get jealous of her at times but i do LOVE her so! jus wanna pray that God will jus protect and watch over my boy. may he ever be so close to God and not lose sight of Him. may he not stray from your sight. i'm upset with my youths today. full stop. --------------------------------- Saturday, November 17, 2007 @ 4:48 pm [11 papers down! Thank God!]
yup! there's only ONE more paper left! =)) thank God for seeing me thru this A's man. it din start well. honestly. i started on a rough patch and felt lyk giving up. but towards the end, things start to get better :) with maths and chem and geog ending well. and the last one will be phys paper 1. i hope it'll mark a good ending to my A's as well as my phys journey here in JC. sigh. but one of the ways the paper will be easy is if i'm prepared for it. prepared and know my stuffs. then, the qns wun stumble one. hmm. but i SO don't feel lyk studying now. studying for phys. it's SO BORING! after the lesson i've learnt abt studying for chem p1! besides, phys is on tuesday!! boring. prob relax today or maybe study a bit. then tml i'll prob go a bit more full swing into rev. ha. well, jus lookin fwd to the hols after tat. had some of my plans laid out! and it feels and looks so much lyk after my promo last year! all the going-outs and partying and plannings and meeting-ups (: haha. so looking fwd man. well, i'll be travelling too. quite packed in fact. so dun think i'll work this year? i'm not really keen either. so travelling to myanmar nxt sat!! 24th nov!! so fast eh? for 7 days. jus hope to get the visa soon! it got rejected several times. and myanmar high com says IC isn't enough. nid my student pass! haha. well, that also means i nid to pack soon b4 all the going-outs will hinder my packing up. i hope i'll have a good and fulfilling time there! then, also travelling to hanoi, vietnam! for 7 days, i think =) nice. looking fwd. will be sight-seeing more than shopping. tower karst! i'm going to look at you and marvel!! then praise God! =)) i bet it'll be awesome. after learning it frm geog lessons (: nxt, another travelling is to johor for youth camp. 18-20dec. hope everything goes well! and so coincidental, khalis got 9am-5pm leadership "conference" at suntec frm wed to fri! so can meet him at nite! at town somemore (: before i leave for myanmar. i was jus thinking tat i can't meet him until a v long time later in dec. but thank God, when i was toking to him ytday, he told me this! so glad we cld meet up on one of the nights. looking fwd to it! a night-out! haha. although u wun go clubbing *aww*. haha. then, fri nite got a steamboat wid my pri6 pals!! =)) i hope many ppl will turn up. so far, the confirmation putting smiles on my face. i jus hope those tbc will confirm soon and not drag or be flickle-minded. mm. mum keeps saying tat we'll have nth to tok abt and that it'll be boring. wad a discouragement! but i'm still hopeful tat we'll chat. if can't, nvm lor. lame jokes tend to fill up silence quite well. tat is if any of us have any jokes. jus glad tat wei ling can make it instead of going back to msia! then she'll be so out-of-sight. i definitely have plans for tue, the day i end. i jus wonder if yh wants to go out. sigh. dun really lyk last-min planning but oh well. if tat's him, then tat's him lor. can't say much. jus play along. going to go out till night with my other gal frens at clarke quay!! i hope it's more of building up the frenships/catching ups then jus wanting company. yes. frens give company but i believe it shldn't be the focus..agree?? hmm. i so want to drink but sh was saying tat wed night is better...ladies nite: free entry and free flow of drinks. ha. okay. prob another wed night we'll go but i wonder which one. haha. but was thinking of pubs. wanna check out the ambience there and perhaps it'll be suitable to really catch up and stuffs but oh well. jus respect the "decisions" of my frens then. i jus figured out the notes of a song! took me 2hours! my longest! i tell you man, that song isn't easy. first, i tried to hit the notes and only got close to it. then, i hit several rough patches where i totally can't figure out the notes. so went on, and play a few notes here and there for chorus. then, it up-ped key to one tat's familiar. i hit most of the notes there. so then, using those notes i hit, i tried to figure out the notes for the lower key. then, to my shock, i noticed that all black keys are struck! then, only C and F notes are white!! then, i wonder, wad in the world cld that key be!! checked wid my bro and realised it's in D-flat major! wah! can u imagine tat?? a song tat starts in D-flat major? man! so tat means all the notes i figured out earlier on are wrong!! i din even hit a single black key previously. after tat, i realised i played a semi-tone higher! so had to transpose everything down. grr. so tat's why it took me so long. so the change of keys is frm D-flat major to D major. i wonder if i'm losing my touch of piano or is it really the song's hard to figure out. sigh. toking abt piano, after grade8, i did try diploma. seriously. learnt for 1 year but gave up. i had too much to juggle tat time. my JC1 life was a struggle for me. so i put down the piano. then, i hardly play anymore songs. boo. learning for dip really isn't easy. esp since my fundamentals are not strong. and even some technical stuffs i can't play. sigh. recently, under the influence of my bro and sis, i start to play the simple contemporary love songs. and i realised tat i can actually read notes wrongly! read D as B or B as G! then, not v familiar wid leger lines notes. man. i think i'm really losing my touch! sigh. is this wad i really want? am i really jus goin to stop piano and not pursue the dream of having a dip...a dream that i held on to since young?? i wonder. i dunno if i shld pick it up. but i wonder which teacher wld want me in the first place! my foundation is SO weak. besides, the last teacher i had? it wasn't me who quit frm piano but she "kick" me out cos i cannot meet her expectations...see...even teachers kick me out, so which teacher wld want me? sigh. --------------------------------- Thursday, November 15, 2007 @ 12:27 pm [10 papers down! Thank God!]
wow! great! there are 20 plus youths coming for my church's youth camp! haha. thank God! it may seems lyk a small no to you but it's rare that we have many frens coming along too =)) really lookin fwd to the camp and i hope the overcomers will be hospitable and there wun be so many cliques! and most imptly, tat God will be present and we'll have a great and SAFE time tgt! cheers! =)) --------------------------------- Wednesday, November 14, 2007 @ 6:57 pm [continuation]
When the sunshine of God's love meets the showers of our sorrow, a rainbow of hope appears awesome phrase ain't it? learnt it thru QT jus now. on another note, Private Emotion song kept ringing in my mind. so here it is! Private Emotion
--------------------------------- @ 10:06 am [continuation]
let's tok abt future. was talking to my mum last nite abt uni. i was telling her that when i send in my predicted grades to australian unis, there is high chances that i'll be accepted. cos the std isn't really high. and my mum say the most wow thing! she said that "there is no way u'll be rejected". haha. wow. tat's pretty strong. but of course la, i'll be holding on the scene where i receive a rejected letter. anyway, the thing is not jus getting accepted by the aus uni, but GETTING A SCHOLARSHIP!!! both my mum n i say tat unless i get a scholarship, i wun go overseas! and getting it is a hard part! seriously. look at the competition. well, yes, i got that h3. tat is if i pass it! then, i'll be eligible for some scholarships tat nid students to take h3. argh. but RJC, HCI, VJC, TJC...and i'm wad? SAJC! i seriously want tat scholarship man. i wanna go overseas. it's been my dream since young. mum say cannot take a loan. she say that it's no point paying for an education that is the same as that of NUS/NTU. well, i jus hope that if i dun get the scholarship yet accepted by aus uni, i'll be able to let go of that chance and move fwd. sigh. pray pray..not mainly that i'll get scholarship but that God's will will be done. let Him place me in a uni where i can really shine for Him. Amen! --------------------------------- @ 9:41 am [10 papers down! Thank God!]
It's SO UNFAIR la! my bro came home at 1am last nite!!! and i always get chased at 10pm! it's so not fair! I also wanna stay up till that late nxt time. i really dun care and dun think it's fair! tat is if i can find frens to hang out with. quite boring hanging out alone at midnight. ha. and i had some weird dreams last nite. first, i was screaming at the top of my lungs asking wad time my bro came out (at tt time i dunno yet). but of course my dream can't give me an ans cos it doesn't know. i tot he came home at 7.25am la! then, i dreamt tat there was a variety show and many ppl were running...in a competition, finding out places in spore. there was zhen tang, tai ming, shu hui, hilmi and my bro. ha. i dunno why these ppl surface. then, i dreamt tat i was with khalis walking to a construction site cos tat place used to be my house...then, there was this other small dream where i was buying toe ring for victor. but he din want it. it's crazy..toe ring..haha. i dun think, in reality, he wants it either. ha. funny dreams... okay. back to reality, jus wanna shout out thanks to WEI HAO! for helping me to edit my blog. well, he helped me enlarged the left column so that my playlist will fit nicely. but in the process, the pic also got larger. and a bit too pix-a-ted. so i decided not to use the new skin. but, still, thanks for helping me out!! stayed up till 1am plus to do it rite?? thanks! and din noe u r good at the html codes and stuffs lyk that! I'm so bored! i mean, dun feel lyk studying. jus feel lyk playing. i wanted to watch a movie last nite still! but my sis backed out. boo! aiyo. so slacker. i really dun feel lyk studying now...seriously..paper ones. i know. complacency had better not consume me. but...sigh. i'm jus bored. dun wanna study. i think, by the time 20th comes, can't feel much difference frm now and then. cos i'm too relaxed now! ha. --------------------------------- Tuesday, November 13, 2007 @ 5:48 pm [10 papers down! Thank God!]
Yay!! great! jus 2 more papers! paper 1s. and le jing called me jus now to say tat she's jealous of me! haha. i'm also jealous too...of reuben! he finished his O's today! haha. and going out later la. haha. nvm. i'll have mine in ONE WEEK'S TIME! man! din noe it's exactly one week b4 the end of my A's! =) glad i got the playlist up. but it's really small. and u can only see the first few words of the song title. oh well. as long as i know can already. acutally, having only paper ones left isn't a good thing. it can really get boring and monotonous. seriously. everyday will be lyk: A B C D or even E (for my old phys tys tat only has qns up to year 2000). tat's wad i was doing jus now in bpp lib. tat phys tys. and i regretted not bringing chem or even TIME mags to read! and it was so boring. wanted to go and watch a movie since i'm in that GV club. tues is $6.50 (: but my mum say no. so cannot lor. jus put my butt down in the lib and study. more lyk reading also. after lunch, grabbed a book off the shelves and read. after completing one topic in the phys tys then read lyk ALOT of pages. haha. back to the bookworm me! today i had chem paper 2. it wasn't too bad tho i wun say it's easy. i had time to check. checked until i fell aslp while doing so. and even dreamed! of yh. haha. and it was the 2nd time i dreamt of him. the first time was last nite. i dreamt that we were happily chattin at a foodcourt. then, we stopped a while to buy lunch. and i ordered duck rice. then, it stopped. i woke up. the dream i dreamed during exam was tat he wanted to tell me something special. he kept repeating that phrase but my dream nv really revealed it. haha. oh well. it's jus a dream.... but! last nite, i also had another dream. victor was in it. i've forgotten wad that dream was except it was abt frenship. the scene was hypothetical. and the strangest thing was that there was a conclusion to that dream. i dreamt that i heard God (or so it seems) speaking to me. telling me something abt the issue i'm facing. then, i opened my eyes (that i rmbed clearly). i stared into space for a while..thinking abt that voice i heard. i wanted to jot it down there and then but i found my eyelids fluttering and i went back to slp again. when i awoke, i still rmb the msg and the voice. but i dun rmb the dream. yet, i still dun wanna believe in myself, believe in it. for so long, i have dreams. every morning i can wake up knowing wad dream i dreamt last nite. but God nv spoke to me abt it and nv gave me any revelation. until last nite. i dun wanna make a mistake in this. dun wanna say it's God's voice when it really isn't. jus felt it strange and hope there can be another sign! a sure one! haha. but still, this one dream will be in my memory for a long time...at least i hope so! all the best for the H1 and H2 econs paper tml, guys! =)) --------------------------------- Monday, November 12, 2007 @ 7:33 pm [9 papers down! Thank God!]
Great! finally got my new blogskin up! yay!! took so long to edit it. cos i dun really lyk black background. then, aft changing the background, was trying to find the code that determines the colour of the body text. arh. glad i've finally found it. phys today was unexpected again. oh well. n i made several careless mistakes :( managed to bring back Geog and H3 maths A lvl paper! okay. get well soon, wh! tat's all. i wasted ALOT of time on this blogskin!! I hope my playlist will quickly work! grr...signing off! --------------------------------- Sunday, November 11, 2007 @ 5:14 pm [8 papers down! Thank God!]
Sometimes I wonder If I've made the right choice If I had made a decision That follows closely to His voice Is it just my desire My fears that overtake me That prompt me to make this-- This choice that came to be Was taught through King David About responding to past mistakes And then was reminded of The lesson learnt through my aches Is it time now To practise what He had taught And so to journey on a path-- A path that has no fraught I wonder, I simply wonder If I had made a choice of no regret Or was it just a delusion A running away from all the frets I wonder... --------------------------------- Saturday, November 10, 2007 @ 8:28 pm [8 papers down! Thank God!]
well, jus a reflective post. something i tot abt today, jus now: is it true tat one treasures the time with another if the time is limited and short? well, i certain;y believe it's not true in really true frens and frens whom one has known for a long time. cos meeting up often n spending seemingly endless time with each other jus leaves fond memories and an improved frenship. yet, i can still think of some cases whereby if i know i only have THAT amount of time with the person, i wld tok lyk there are endless topics to cover. but when time is made purposely like mtg up that someone, then, somehow it makes both party feel awkward when suddenly, there isn't much to tok abt. when missing someone for some time and exclaiming that it's been a while since we'd last seen, but when we really do see each other n set aside time to catch up, does it often end up awkward and funny? well, perhaps the answer to this is if it's a fren who really have the same frequency as you, really can clique well, then i guess it'll nv happen in that case mentioned above. yet, i wonder, how wld i know unless i purposely make that appt and meet up with the person? it's a risk, i guess? i wonder......... on another note. yes. readiness and willingness and time. i dunno how the journey will be like, wonder how the future will be like...this reminds me of corrine may's song "every beat of my heart". but, i can't echo the "but as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark". but i really wanna echo "'cause I don't know, where your journey goes, or how long it will take to unfold". well, so here's the song to u! n jus wanna say let it be...see how it goes and where this path will take us to.. Every Beat Of My Heart
--------------------------------- Friday, November 09, 2007 @ 9:14 pm [8 papers down! Thank God!]
Yup. 8 papers down! yes! thank God for seeing me thru my h3 maths journey today! i'm glad it's over and it ended not too bad. i'm glad i studied graph theory and pressed on even though it's against the norm, even though the sch din offer to teach it, even when it means putting extra effort reading the notes myself, consulting ms tay and mr koo abt it and taking up time for h2s. and indeed, graph theory is fun! the other side of maths! and thru it, i'm exposed to the kind of maths qns/syllabus in uni. and thank God that the qns that came out in h3 paper were kinda standard except for one or two. well, it isn't smooth sailing BUT they gave 6 FREE marks! that means $9 is saved (: each mark is $1.50 btw. ha. well, there were asking me for the chromatic no of certain types of graph, and even asked us to give an example of a simple graph! and i dun even nid to think so much. jus use 4 vertices! zac and i said the same thing! i heard that geometry was hard. hmm. well, if it's hard for my clique (that is good at h3), then, i believe i'll surely die if i did attempt it. so, well, i'm glad there's graph theory to back me up. all in all, it was a rushed paper. i'd to force myself to put DE aside in order to go on to the other sections because i was spending too much time on it. well, i'm glad i learnt my lesson frm chem p3! okay. enough of the paper. well, wanna say tat it was a great nite-out with Khalis on wed nite! saw him in the CD blue uniform! finally. haha. n i feel so bad later on. that he has to wear the cap all the way, even while eating cos it's part of his uniform. haha. well, we met at bugis junction! v happy for that. ate in terra cafe. saw one of our ctss fren workign as a waiter. so got 10% discount. and khalis ate 2 main course!!!! so much money spent la!!! i tot he'll order ala carte. ha. well, so in the end, there were 3 ice creams on our table. ha. and the total bill went up to $40 plus! wah! a pity we can't shop arnd at bugis as much as i want to! n i will reach home at normal time lor. den my mum was pretty upset when i was abt to make my way back. in the end, we both took cab. ha. and we took a really nice photo at the bus stop! but HE DON'T LET ME PUT ON MY BLOG!! haha. jk la. i know u are reading, khalis. it's fine by me. i know the reason of why u request so. n perhaps i'm really reading too much into things. oh well. okay. time to throw tat bad mindset aside! okay. my sis jus got a new violin!! n her first violin lesson under deborah! yay! thanks mum for letting her take the lesson after YEARS of begging!! haha.
Finally, thank God for Our Journey devotional book being sent to me recently! i was jus worried tat they din get my letter. ha. great! really looking forward to using it in dec! =) --------------------------------- Tuesday, November 06, 2007 @ 6:48 pm [7 papers down! Thank God!]
Yups. Thank God 7 papers are over! =) well, it didn't start well. for me. phys was unexpected. GP P1 qns were not easy...many qns had 2 contentions. but the P2 was on gender equality which was okay! then, there was maths p1 which was okay only. after the paper, i felt that i'll either scrap an A or high B. Chem p3 on mon was rushing for me. esp the stubborn-headed me spent about 40mins on one part of the first qn i attempted! then, I had arnd 45mins-1hr for the remaining 3 qns!!! plus, 10mins for the last qn! when i was doing the 2nd last qn, i tot i'll really lose the 20marks of the last qn. but, thank God, He helped me rush through and the qns were really easy towards the end!! =) I dun regret choosing that qn. but i dun think i'll score well. so that means i gotta work extra EXTRA hard for P2 and P1. besides, P2 will have the topics that I'm weak in :( so i gotta work doubly hard...yups! Well, aft chem p3, i hit an all-time low. and it was 3 hrs b4 the afternoon geog paper! so you can imagine the turmoil i'd to go thru. i kept falling and pulling myself up with the encouragements my dear frens sent me and with God's word...but it wasn't easy. when i called my mum lyk 40mins b4 the start of my geog paper, I almost cried over the phone. it was horrible. i was in a plight where i was totally unprepared for the geog paper! seriously! doing last min. first time in many weeks tat i touched hydrology tat day. tat was jus one of the scenerios. plus it was aft my chem p3. so morale wasn't good...then, things turned for the better..... REALLY WANNA GIVE GOD ALL THE GLORY AND THANKS!! in the end, the geog paper was easy for me to handle. the 2 essay qns that i chose were qns given to us for assignments and exams...plate tec and TNC case study. ha! imagine that! DRQ wasn't too bad. so overall, geog wasn't too bad. i cld do the paper based on wad i've prepared. well, but much of the syllabus din come out--Mass Movement and Weathering.... well, after the paper, the 3 of us commented that tat this is the only paper we were confident of scoring well. ha. well, me too. lyk an A (: but, the paper was easy..so perhaps the curve will shift and i'll get a high B? well, it's still within my expectation. well, come to think of it, perhaps a C looks probable..judging frm the little content i wrote compared to Ho Yun's. ha. Well, had maths paper 2 today. and that marks the end of my H2 Maths journey for now! =) thank God for seeing me thru this period of learning. all the confusion and clearing ups. yups. p2 was easy! wah! super shocked la. at first i wasn't on time with the amt of time i shld spent per qn. but in the end, i had arnd 45mins left. so checked thru every single qn. the qns that came out were so basic! tested such basic concept without twisting much of it when they can. at the end of the paper, i tot to myself: why did i learn so much maths, all the hard hard qns and confusing concepts, when in the end the qns that came out were so easy?? well, naturally, the ans is this: do you study maths for knowledge or study for the exams? it's rhetorical. so i'm sure u got the ans, Sharon! Okay! so fri i'll have h3 maths while many of my peers will have 6-days break. sigh. that also hinders my study for chem p2 and phys p2 cos i have to study for h3 maths the nxt 2 days. boo. well, it's the price i've to pay for taking h3 maths then. u know, aft taking the h2 maths, i think h3 maths may not be as tough as i tot. perhaps...jus having that hope (: okay! tat's all i gotta say.... Oh! HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, YONGHUI!! =)) --------------------------------- Thursday, November 01, 2007 @ 8:54 am [3 papers down! Thank God!]
wow! i called Yaz on class 95 ytday nite and i got thru! not for a competition but to make a dedication! a msg-dedication since song dedication is not possible...i dedicated a song to Khalis =) my bestest best fren. haha. so the whole conversation was lyk this: i was listening to radio and suddenly i hear Yaz picking up a phonecall on air. then, it made me think, why not i make a dedication thru a phonecall too? so i prepared the msg and then called her. prior to that, i made sure Khalis was listening to it also..which spoils the surprise a bit...then, i spoke to her, read out my dedication lyk from memory. got the usual taunting. n i'm sorry the DJ read your name wrongly! and when i mentioned senior bar, i had to explained to her cos she thought it's some bar tender thing. ha. so i hanged up thinking that she'll prob took down notes and will read the dedication on my behalf but no! she din! she actualy recorded the entire conversation i'd with her (with a little edit)! i made the call b4 midnight but it was only played slightly after midnight. i was waiting by the stereo cos i'd finish packing up already. so after 2 songs, 1 email and 1 sms dedication, 1 song, 1 short advertisement, i suddenly hear somebody called Yaz. it was a sharon. then, i tot "aiya. another sharon beat me to calling her". then, suddenly, i realised that the msg sounds familiar! oh! it was my dedication! haha. i couldn't recognise my voice on the air! haha. yay! it got read out and soon enough! thanks! the song is below, "I am your angel" by R Kelly and Celine Dion. wad a nice and beautiful song! not jus the music but the lyrics! they are so meaningful! got up-key somemore and they did it so well!! after the song, Khalis thanked me and told me all about how he felt! his response simply put a smile on my face! even after we hang up cos he needs to slp, i was still smiling to myself and thinking abt the dedication and the next dedication(s) i'm going to make to various people. first up, my family! man...it took me so long to go to slp la. i kept thinking about wad happened. haha. boy! it was such a nice experience! and wonderful and amazing too! haha. but right b4 i slp, i tot about this: if a dedication can put a smile so wide on both of our faces, imagine the smile on God's face whenever he hears a love song from us during worship! man! he muz have felt so happy whenever we sing to Him! wad's more, on class95, i can't choose the song, but during worship, i SING the song to Him! and lyk wad Khalis mentioned: SINCERITY is the key word. imagine, if we sing every song with sincerity! God will be so delighted! no wonder it says that God delight in the praises of His people. haha. i guess it takes a dedication to tell me jus how much each love song means to God and how i will now sing and worship Him in Spirit and in Truth =) okay! so here's the song to my v good fren: KHALIS! I Am Your Angel
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