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Wednesday, December 30, 2009 @ 12:20 am [results]
Okay. The results are out. And I shall look for comfort in God and in my previous post. I totally screw up this sem. It's my worst sem ever. And the results totally shocked and stunned me. Did I expect it? Kinda but not as bad as what reality now portrays. Am I worried? Nope. Not exactly worried but more of resignation and wondering if there is a glimpse of any hope (realistically). I don't know. It's really very bad until I just am stunned. I didn't cry but I didn't know what to do either. I'm so scared of telling my mum know cos I'm afraid she'll start nagging at me for my increased commitments this sem. Well, it's no doubt that more commitments = more balancing of time. And if time is not well-managed, there are consequences to bear. This is one of them. Sigh. I totally suck. Could have done so much more and did much better in managing time, resources and focus. Sigh. Now, I just hope that there is still remaining sems to pull up my gpa and graduate with what I aim for or better. Many asked me to check after my taiwan trip but actually I'm quite thankful that I checked it now. At least I have something else, something more wonderful, something other than studies, something that shows me God is still God, that can take my mind off the results. Well, God, I will still say thank you cos at least I didn't fail any modules. But, help me to find more things to thank YOU about even through this stunning and saddening time. --------------------------------- Tuesday, December 29, 2009 @ 11:34 pm [meta conference day 1]
I managed to attend meta conference for 1 day. Went for the leaders track in the morning. Glad to have met a few people from other unis like Andrew (NUS) and Lujia (SMU), Carrisa (SIM), Joanne (NUS)...and many others! At least I know them by name but just a pity that I didn't get a chance to know them more since I'm only there for one day :( I really wish I didn't have to leave for this taiwan trip :( seriously and honestly. I really had a good time at the conference! God was there! He was present. His presence was real and with us. Went down on my knees and pray. He is there (: The sermon was good. So was the workshop. And the group was great too! Got to know a new guy call qing xiang. And sweetly enough, my whole group is malaysians! Cool right? :) Oh well. I hoped tonight had been a good night for them where they truly meet God n hear a personal message from Him! :) --------------------------------- Saturday, December 26, 2009 @ 11:12 pm [updates]
Right. It's been another week or so since I last update on what I've been doing. Been quite bored and don't know what to write on my blog. Haha. Not many inspirational experiences to share but somehow, don't mind blurting out my life's events. Hmm. But i wonder if it'll bore you guys out. Oh well. Firstly, I wanna dedicate this paragraph to my friends who are freshman or who entered uni for the first sem. For NUS, results are out already. I know some did well and some didn't. For those who did well, jia you and keep it up ok? For those who are disappointed or missed your expectations, well, I wanna say that I understand how you feel. I totally hated my Year 1 Sem 1 results too. I was shocked and was totally telling myself, "This is NOT the result I'm going to graduate with at the end of the 4 years". So I evaluate myself and re-prioritise what's on my plate. Also, changing my study method. That's how I jumped 2 classes after that. With that, I wanna encourage you all to re-think and press on! If I can do it, so can you! And this message also goes out to my NTU frens who haven't collected the results yet and to myself too! Press on, no matter what the results, come 30th dec! Okay. So christmas is just over. Wanna wish all a Merry and Blessed Christmas! Not too late to say it right? Talking about that, I always like to ask my non-christian friends intriguing questions that make them think and where I can engage in a conversation or discussion especiially something along the lines of religion/christianity. So recently, I asked my friend, "What does Christmas mean to you?" After he replied and I heard his answer, he suddenly turned to me and asked what does christmas mean to me! I was totally stunned. I didn't expect that. I didn't expect him to throw the question back at me. No non-christian has ever asked the exact same question to me. I was stumped. I didn't know how to answer. Yeah. I know that it's easy for some to answer but not me. And it's not cos I don't know the answer but I don't know how to say the answer. In a split second, my mind was filled with answers such as "fulfillment of prophecy", "birth of Jesus Christ", "part of a redemptive plan", "God with us", "God has come", "salvation", "gathering", "reminder"...my mind was in a whirl. I don't know which words to use, I don't know what aspect to point out. All were true. If you look at those thoughts above, none of them are wrong. It's a matter of saying the right aspect of this wonderful event for that particular situation. And I am stumped. I don't know what to say. Plus I wasn't given much time. And right before I leave, I chose these 2 key aspects: "reminder" and "part of a plan". I didn't want to leave him saying a typical answer; a shallow answer. But rather, I wanted to leave with him something to think about; something for him to reflect and a message to tell. It's the "plan" that I want him to realise. Christmas is something greater. Much greater. It's part of a very BIG plan! That's what Christmas is to me! That's what Christmas is to all of us! =) May it be a good reminder to all Christians! That Christmas is celebrated together with Good Friday and Easter. If any one of these is missing, everything would lose it's meaning. And to my non-christian readers, hope this spark some thought in your minds (: Yet, through this whole incident of being stumped, I felt utterly ashamed. A verse in 1 Peter 3:15 came to my mind: "Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect" I finally understand this verse and experience the strong warning & command that comes from it. I pray that I'll always be prepared to give that answer; any answer that God wants me to give. With gentelness and respect. Okay. Besides this learning point, well I wanna say that this week has been another good and enjoyable week meeting up with friends. First, I met up with my clique on Monday and Eugene got super high. Such that he throw the pictionary counter instead of the dice. I was so scared I have to carry him home or send him home! But it was a very good and fun steamboat and hot-plate session! =) I'm really glad to see all of my friends again ever since ths school close! Had such great fun! Here is a pic of us!
On Tue, I had band prac and watched "Frog and the Princess" with Sarah. It was a good movie. Had a twisted ending. Well, it's nice to be entertained by disney and fairy tales again. Isn't it, ladies? I'm sure we all love fairy tales! And I like this particular quote from the movie, "You just kissed yourself a princess!" Boy! It totally melt my heart! Though it's meant to be taken literally but when taken figuratively, it is so beautiful and heart-warming. Imagine your husband say that to you! Changing the "you" to "I"! How sweet! On Wed, I spent a whole day with my JC buddy! Was so happy to see him and shopped like crazy that day! Went to doulos first. Hope I didn't bore him out while I shopped at the ship. They opened the lower deck and it brought back so much memories of the youth service I attended there on the ship. Nice to see the pics and explain abt the ministry of the ship to yonghui too! Took some photos there! =) And had a good time shopping and buying gifts! I always like to shop at doulus! To me, buying things there is something I would gladly do and don't mind spending any amount of money there! That is cos it's for the ministry! For God's work! Any amount, I'm willing to give! So on that day, I spent the next day's pay! Can you believe it? I spent one whole day's pay of $80 at doulus! I was totally shocked and couldn't believe it but oh well. Just give. Haha. I didn't regret! =)
After that, we went to watch Avatar at GV Max! =) Great show! Good storyline! Any show that is close to 3 horus must be really good cos they got time to build up to climax and show the climax real well! So I think that's how it garner alot of good reviews! =) I don't know how to appreciate the digital animation but at least I enjoyed the story alot! =) And that night ended off with shopping at Giant! And after the movie, I also go shopping somemore before dinner time! Lol. So the whole time was just shopping! It's fun to shop and just talk with yh! Feels so great! And also had a really good catch-up with him! =) Glad we manage to keep in contact with him! His friendship was the 2nd best thing that happened to me in my JC life! The 1st is Morning Worship! =) I totally love and miss morning worship! Hmm..suddenly mentioned this cos he was asking me this question that night! =) Okay. Christmas eve was spent rather quietly. I didn't do much. Had to work till 4pm plus and it's really scary running the company on my own, when my boss isn't arnd. Scared quote wrong price or ask the workers to do wrongly. Oh well. See how it goes lor. After that, I did some last min shopping and wrapping up presents for xmas day! Christmas service the next day was good. Served by playing the keyboard. Samuel played bass for the closing song. Glad to see Melissa again and congrats to Elsie and Anastasia on their baptism that day! Nice to see so many of their family members witnessing this baptism. And somehow, when Elsie said her testimony in Cantonese, I was close to tearing. Cantonese is such a gentle dialect. I was so touched. Praise God. Oh well, as the years goes by, I get fewer and fewer presents though I still give presents to the same few people. To be very honest, it's quite sad that the people to whom I give the presents to, I don't receive any in return. Makes me feel like not giving presents to them the following year but I just can't bring myself to it. Oh well. That's just honest thought because I know that the bottom line is to give without expecting any return. Well, I guess the only "return" I get is when the people thanked me for the gifts I give them. In that, I take my sole comfort. And I think that's enough. I must learn how to take delight in simple gestures and to give generously. Well, if you ask me what's the best christmas gift I received this christmas (literally and tangibly), it'll be the pair of earrings that my sister made and gave me! Look:
Lovely isn't it? So christmas-y right? She made it herself! Together with the help of my friend! So sweet and nice of her! Love her lots! Makes me feel bad for not giving her anything! Well, I'll try to finish up the cross-stich that is half-done for her before the new sem starts! =) Haha! Thanks Sarah! Okay. And lastly, today I went to Wanting's cell party near my house! Was nice and fun! Small group. But I was so surprised that one guy looks like Mr Michael Chan and another looks like Dennis! Lol. It was so scary to have 2 ppl in the room who are look-alikes to my friends! Haha. Oh well. Had a good dinner, discussion and chats. nice to catch-up with Yuan Zhe and Wanting! =) Thanks Wanting for the invite! On the last LAST note, I'm heading off to taiwan next tue till 5 Jan! So please don't call me and I'm sorry if I didn't reply you happy new year on 1st Jan! And sorry if I don't reply you with my exam results! I'll try to email you guys! Have a happy new year! *in advance* --------------------------------- Saturday, December 19, 2009 @ 1:05 am When I meditated on the word GUIDANCE,
I kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word. I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing. When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesn't flow with the music, And everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky. When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead, Both bodies begin to flow with the music. One gives genle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back Or by pressing lightly in one direction or another. It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness And attentiveness from one person And gentle guidance and skill from the other. My eyes drew back to the word GUIDANCE. When i saw "G": I thought of God, followed by "u" and "i". "God", "u" and "i" "dance". God, you and I dance. As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust That I would get guidance about my life. Once again, I became willing to let God lead. My prayer for you today is that God's blessings And mercies are upon you on this day and everyday. May you abide in God, as God abides in you. Dance together with God, trusting God to lead And to guide you through each season of your life. And I Hope You Dance! ~Written by an unknown author --------------------------------- @ 1:00 am [a happening week]
Finally I can squeeze in a time to blog about all my activities! Exams ended about a week ago! And I've been sooo packed ever since! But it was a good time of fun, laughter and learning! First, immediately after my paper ended, I had a 2-day conference. SMC. It was great! Especially on the 1st day where I learned much stuffs from the workshop and gain good insights--things I never knew nor thought hard about. And I'm glad I learned them. Thank God! Also, it was good to see the south side ppl again. Sigh. I'm like the only girl frm north again lah. Cos Lynn came only a while and XQ was in another workshop and with her bf? I guess so. But I'm glad I saw her and talked to her too! Catch up with my leader! =) The 2nd day was quite a something. Went to hortpark for the conference. And got SUN-BURN!! Ahh. I haven't had a sun-burn for a looong time lah. It was so hot but it was a good time still! =) After that, I had a day's break, which isn't really a break cos I was rushing to meet ppl. Everything got pushed back and rushed. So I was pretty late for just about everything! Gee. Feeling bad. Then comes Saturday to Monday where I had a youth camp to attend. Well, at least it showed me how different it is when the audience/target group is the younger youths. I learned that BBQ is a no-no cos they won't cook! End up all the older ones cooking. And X-box is definitely a distraction! But I also learned flexibility and I enjoyed myself still. At least I get to spend time with some of the older ones and really catch up! And hone my skills on Bridge!! =) When camp break that time, I deliberately not arranged anything then. And I'm glad for it. So I had time all to myself! Really needed that break man...cos after that, it was super pack! So tuesday, I had a volunteer service at esplanade! =) Visited the elderly at AMK there (near John's church! I still can rmb and recognise it!) and the children's home. But one of the child was so naughty and kick the ball that was in my hand such that the ball flew, hit the ceiling fan blade and tore. Well, it was fun interacting with the elderly and children and I'm glad Joanne went and enjoyed herself too (right?). I got to catch up with her too! The other girls that were there were also very friendly and nice people! =) Wednesday was volunteer service again. In the morning. Went with my siblings. And I coincidentally met my first 3-months SAJC friend! Was wondering why this guy was staring so hard at me when I was boarding the bus. When I came down, I realised that it was someone familiar! =) Cheers! Had a good catch-up and an unexpected friend/partner throughout! Went to 2 old folks home once again. At first, I had nothing much to say though. There were too many helpers and too few elderly. So time passed slowly. But we just ask them to draw on the ball since they can't write words. But of course, we also help them write their wishes on the spheres. All in all, it was good to be able to interact and mingle with the old folks. It's been such a loooong time since I last did this kinda work! After that, was the best time and a moment I'll treasure! My siblings and I left at bugis there (the last old folks home we went to) and headed to a hawker centre to eat. At bencoolen there. After that, we walked to Iluma. Made sarah take the long escalator up from 1st to 4th floor. So super scary! Then, we heard carolers singing and found out that they are doing some charity work too. So we decided to buy a cup of yoghurt to support the organisation and them. But we took such a long time to chooose the toppings!! It was like, we want nuts--but I don't want (Sarah and I versus Reuben). Then I want strawberry but we don't want (Sarah versus Reuben and I). Haha. And we had to discuss and talk about it for like 3 minutes with about 4-5 ideas being thrown away cos 1 of us or 2 of us doesn't like that topping. Haha. The fun and thrill of having 3 in the family and all sharing 1 cup of yoghurt with an insistence of only 1 topping! Lol. It was fun still. Turning right and left where my siblings are standing one on each side of me. Oh well. After that, I rushed to church (for a children's event) then went to meet Le Jing for dinner!!! =) Had a grrrreat catch-up and update! Quite happy for her too! =) And I did learn something from her and I re-confirms what I've been saying to myself. Also, I'm very grateful for the time we can have to share our prayer requests! Cheers! Miss you girl and I'm glad we can catch up! =) Next, on Thursday, had a good Bible Study session with Shuhui. Then headed down to meet up with the crusade freshie girls! Combined DG outing among the freshies! Glad all went well! Had so much fun, laughter and joy! Just talking, getting to know one another and enjoying the performances. Also to write on the spheres and makan! Showing the American friend around Esplanade and the local food! =) Had really a good time and I'm glad that this outing was a success! More interaction! That's the main aim! =) Where did we head to? Marina square, wanted to bowl but was too full. Then we headed to Gloria Jeans to drink and talk. After that, to Makan Sutra to makan. The wishing spheres--one sphere for all of us! And to concourse with front-row seats! Wah! And lastly, on friday, met up with 3 groups of people! First was lunch with Huang peng, Carine and Chin wee. Ate at the chinese restaurant for the 1st time at westmall. Was supposed to be the C4C group! Haha. Then I met up with Isaac for coffee before he flys off! And finally the p6 gathering which was great! We ate at cafe cartel and there were 8 of us! 4 guys and 4 girls! And hmm...come to think of it, we were sitting such that 1 row was guys and 1 row was girls! Lol. After that, 2 ppl left (1 guy and 1 girl) and we were left with 6 ppl. Headed down to Minds Cafe for 2 hours of gaming! The last game, Jungle Speed, was great fun and nice! So nice that I decided to forgo my last bus at bukit panjang and just walk back home. Had a really good time meeting up with them, catching-up and joking around (: Thanks guys for turning up! Next time, I'll call those I've missed out! And yeah. I know it's not exactly safe to walk back alone past midnight but oh well. I just don't wanna spend $6 on cab fare! And throughout the whole week of going out, I haven't stayed out till I had to catch my last bus! So it's quite a thrill! :P All in all, it was a really HAPPENING week and I really enjoyed every moment--whether it's a group of people or my individual friends! =) Cheers and thank God for friendships! Talking about that, thank God that Wanting arrived back safely! =) And I'm looking forward to the steamboat dinner on Monday! More interaction and catching-up! =) --------------------------------- Wednesday, December 09, 2009 @ 12:16 am [last day of exams aka start of holidays!]
Today was my last paper! Great! =) Super duper happy! But when 11am comes, I was like, hmm. Not exactly an excited feeling. But nevertheless, it is starting to come in now and I am starting to feel happy and all-high about dec hols! =) At least, to take a good break before I start sem 2 again! Let's not talk about the paper, shall we? But about after that! So we had lunch together at Pepper Lunch. The first time I'm eating that cos I've never dared to eat it since there's pepper in it. But Bethia was telling me that I can just tell them not to add pepper in it. So okay. But sadly, there are only 4 of us--peter, qiao yong, bethia and myself. Wish the others could join us. After lunch, the guys went to arcade, bethia went home to fix her double bass while I'm left alone. So I decided to go shopping around JP. At first, I was quite happy, but after a while, I was starting to feel real bored shopping ALONE! Though there's no pressure, but it feels so sad and lonely. And to add on to that, the blouses are all above $30 which was way above my budget. So I couldn't get anything though some designs were good and nice :( After shopping for 1 hour, my legs and back couldn't take it anymore. So I decided to head home. What a day man! At home, I watched the 2nd half of Fireproof with my bro (who already started watching) and the funny pranks. Had good laughs. Was supposed to head down to Bras Basah to get wires and 2nd hand books but was too lazy and tired to leave home 45mins after reaching back. So I just stayed on until it's time to meet the others again for dinner and drinks! =) And the fun began! So met up with Peter, Wanting, Eugene and Qiao Yong! Went to eat Astons at The Cathay! =) Glad we went early and didn't get a seat by the window so I'm not that pressurized! Had a good dinner! After that, headed down to Timbre @ Substation!!! It's awesome! Glad we made a reservation! But reached there super early! At 7pm! Live band starts at 9pm! So we took about 45mins to 1 hour choosing our drinks! Yes? No? Cos we were quite noob with the liqueur available. Ha. So Wanting and I started asking Peter about the different types of alcohol. Well, in the end, Wanting ordered wine, QY and I ordered cocktails and Eugene and Peter shared a jug of beer. Mm...beer is nice. Maybe nxt time I'll drink that! =) And funny, a fly went into QY's drink but the service was so good that he gets a change of drinks! =) Had a good chat over drinks for an hour plus! Getting to know one another, talking about everything, esp Eugene's gf, Irene, and their relationship! And also, adding a bit of humour of our studies inside. Lol. During our conversation, I was also telling Wanting that the waiter who had been serving us is quite handsome. Then Wanting dared me to ask for his number. Haha. After a while, Peter decided to take some food order on behalf of us. With that particular waiter standing beside me, the conversation goes like this: Peter: One calamari rings, one roast duck pizza (SUPER AWESOME! TRY IT ONE DAY!) and one timbre chicken wings
Haha. Yes! I did it! I really did the dare! Haha. I really asked for his number (which I know he will NEVER give). He was taken so much aback that he literally gave a shock face and stepped back quite a number of steps. I was also shocked at his reaction. Then I quickly say, nothing else already. Haha. But it sure is fun! Wanting also heard and saw that! Lol. But I think I frighten him. Lol. Later I told him I was just joking. But I kinda regretted saying so early...should have said later when he's handling the bill or something. Then it won't be so awkward and I can cast more glances at him. Lol. Anyway, company of friends are more important! So we had our fun and laughter and chats. And listened an hour of music! The band was great! Enigma! Can play any song on the spot wan! And the singers are great! Hmm..entertainers too. Elaborate actions and dancing. Haha. I like the dedication part. So Wanting chose the songs while I wrote the message! =) Dedicated to us and the other table of NTU MSE students who have finished our exams today! =) Yay! A great message and time of cheering! Yeah. Anyway, had great fun. The band's last song before the break was "I'm yours" by Jason Mraz. Now it's stuck in my head. Ha. Left the place at 10pm. And headed home after that. When I went back, I told my family about the dare thing but none of them laughed :( my dad even gave an angry look. Haha. So I was telling Peter about it and he also agreed with my dad that it's weird for a girl to do that. Haha. Oh well. Okay. Maybe next time I'll ask for the name or give a compliment instead of the number...hmmm...maybe I went overboard for a girl? But I must say that I like dares! Haha. Anything that is not overboard or against my values and ethics, I will challenge the dare! Hmm..but I must also say that this whole dare thing is putting me in a whirl now. Haha. But I guess it'll tone down soon! Soon I hope! =) Got more important things to focus on and people's relationships to look at rather than this fleeting one moment of fun! Nonetheless, it was a great night guys! Thanks for completing the first day of holidays with your presence, company, laughter, chats and friendship! Happy Holidays! --------------------------------- Tuesday, December 08, 2009 @ 12:17 am [the serenity prayer Part 2]
We are all too familiar with the serenity prayer. But I chanced upon the 2nd part and 1 statement (in bold) strikes me: Living one day at a time;
--------------------------------- @ 12:09 am [the final night]
Okay. This is the last night with my file and books. 11 more hours. And then it's over! It's done! And I can be free, without constraints (as quoted from my friend). Okay. I know this sounds very temporal. Afterall, the hols for us who ends on 8dec is only 4 weeks. Super duper short. But it's better than nothing. And I've soooo much planned! Besides all the meet-ups, conferences and meetings, it's really the meaning behind them that matter. The re-connection with people.
I miss my hall 11 freshies and peers. They are so super sweet! Cheer me on whenever on fb! And seeing their photos and outings just make me smile. I so wanna re-connect with them! I miss talking to my buddies: my sec sch frens, my JC frens, my NTU frens, my fren's frens...These are people that I treasure and whose friendship I gotta re-connect and keep it going... I can't wait. Seriously. I can't wait. And I hope that there will be time for all these talks. And that I would be sensitive to each and every one of them. And touch them at some point of time, in some way... And yes, I can't wait to focus once again on God and His work! =) --------------------------------- Friday, December 04, 2009 @ 5:31 pm [start]
Before I begin my intended blog entry, I wanna say thanks to 2 particular bloggers who have touched me with their entries as I read them today: Wanting and John (: Wanting on sovereignity and John on the *oh..now I know why [change of roles] Today, I became a mother. When I came home, I went to hand-wash clothes. Haha. Now that my grandma went to msia, I decided to share a bit of housework with my mum who's also working. So I hand-wash clothes! Ahh..normal lah. Done before. But just that it's been a long time since I last did it! And, as always, it's back-breaking. Thankfully I have a stool but given my previous medical condition :( Still painful but bearable... Oh well. After that, I went to...iron the clothes! Haha. So house-wife hor? Been a long time since I iron too but quite fun and nice! My dad wears so many shirts that need to be ironed! :( Thankfully they are not long-sleeve shirts, else it'll be more troublesome to iron! His jacket was also hard to iron too. Haha. Yet, throughout, I was quite scared of the iron. Keep thinking that my hand will kena the iron and get scalded. Again. I had it once. When I was much younger. I guess the scar is not just on my hand but in my heart and mind too :( Boo...oh well. I guess I just gotta be more careful next time! I still got many more years of ironing to do! In the future! Another reason why I say I'm a mother is cos my sister said so! She fell sick today and I was telling to take this and that medicine and eat this and that food before she leaves for work just now. Lol. Then she commented I'm so mother. Haha. I don't mind being called that actually! Just hope that I would one day really be a mother! Soon! Maybe in...5-6 years time? Oh boy! Can't wait! Lol. [yet enjoying my role now] ...and that is being a proud sister of my brother! =) Tonight is my bro's prom night. So he's all dressed up! Yesterday, he went to buy the clothes etc! Wah! Cost so much lah! But looks nice and smart! He turned from this:
Into this:
Cool right? So handsome eh? I'm so proud of him! =) Hope he'll have a good time! But stay safe too! :) Aye! It's been a long time too since I last went for a dinner and dress up until so nice! The last I went was for OCS coms ball. And the only one I can look forward to where I can stand a chance to dress up again is another coms ball nxt year. Oh well. Don't know if it'll come true in the end. But I do miss dressing up that nice! Haha. Okay..I'm going crazy. Bleah. [back to reality] Okay. Back to reality, I had a Maths paper today. Was really intending to score since Maths is my niche. But...the paper...well, it wasn't too difficult. But there were some qns that I couldn't do and some qns that I did wrongly. So, in the end, I lost quite a fair bit of marks. Quite worried that the bell curve will be to my disadvantage. Sigh. Actually, I was worried. Am still anxious. But what's done is done. There's really nothing I can do. At least, now, I know how to do the questions that I don't know. So I still gained knowledge :) Look on the brighter side, Sharon! Plus, just leave it in God's hands. Bell curve, results after the paper etc are things that you can't control. So just leave it alone. Don't worry nor be anxious! No point. Don't waste time and energy! Trust! It's a blessing! =) --------------------------------- Thursday, December 03, 2009 @ 1:13 am [an expected post but unexpected wonderful evening]
Yes. Okay. I said this post is expected cos John was saying that I would blog. Then it got stuck in my head until now. So, while going online to check some stuffs, I put an entry here. Well, I had a wonderful day today! Went for lunch with my sec sch buddy, Yam Wenn!! It's been ages since we last chat and talked and had a meal! Was glad to see her! A pity Shuhui can't join us :( Oh well. Ate at Swensons but the standard dropped quite badly. Sigh. Swens is going to be my lowest choice except for the desserts. Haha. Had a 2-hour lunch! Just chatting and talking and taking photo with her bear!! =) Talking about school, friends, her niece and work etc. I'm glad she's one of those friends that, you don't need to meet very frequently but when you do meet, you can just clique and connect! =) Cheers to this kinda friendship! Another cheers to another friendship that I have! With John! Boy! It's been sooo long since I last saw him! Since the Chem paper! Like 2 weeks! Wah! No wonder when I saw him today, I was also a bit stunned just as he is! Haha. Somehow I can never forget the facial expression John gave when he saw me at esplanade lib. Of course, Wanting was there too! =) Glad to see you too, girl! And cheers to our friendship! Yeah. I'm glad to meet John again and have dinner with him again. Brings back memories of the BSF times when I always (okay, most of the time. minus the times when I gotta usher, we want to eat at different places and we can't leave sch tgt cos he wanna hang arnd for a while more). Yeah. It's just so nice to just talk, joke arnd, share stuffs/updates and just laugh. Haha. Thank God for friends like this! =) On another note, I'm glad to be at esplanade again. Oh boy! I so miss that place! =) I miss the ambience and the arty-farty feel and studying in a library. Yeah. Just quite sad that the arty tables and chairs are gone. So sad. Well, in the end I didn't catch a free performance cos they weren't playing christmas songs and I thought they weren't that good. Oh well. Nvm. Headed home early and at least do 1 25-mark Maths qn! Oh well. Okay. On the way back, I saw a Big, Bright and Beautiful full moon! It was simply lovely and totally made my night! It was bigger than usual--much nearer to earth. It was awesome! And I was reminded once again of God and His love for me! Many other thoughts and reflections flow by too. And I know that God will make all things right in His time and melt things out for the good of us all! :) Cheers! --------------------------------- Tuesday, December 01, 2009 @ 8:06 pm [a verse]
"Seek the kingdom of God above all else and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need." The words in bold grabbed my attention as I read the cover of my devotional material because it tells me that I have to do things right. My lifestyle has to be right, true and authentic. I can certainly think of some things that I need to change and control! And as I think of these, it certainly does feel like there's restrictions. It won't be easy kicking off old and bad habits. Like suffocating. Okay. That's exaggeration. But it feels like there's a barrier, obstacle or stoppage. Especially knowing that I'm not in control. But I'm relying on God's strength and praying for help and dependence on Him. And I chance upon this statement: On our journey of faith, there are times when the “freedom” of sin that we left behind is more appealing than the restrictions of faith that lie ahead. We must trust the protective boundaries found in God’s Word as the only way to get to the place of ultimate freedom. Amen. --------------------------------- @ 8:01 pm [some videos to share]
Check these out: You are twice mine
Even if you feel far from God today,
The stool--Who's in control?
By nature we all have a desire to control our world. From infancy we turn to our own independent way, trying to control circumstances, the future, people—and even God if we could. Since we can’t, we end up frustrated, hostile, and critical. Our need to be in control is rooted in excessive self-love. For example, when people we love are sick, we often want them to get well so we can get some rest and not have to worry about them. “Boil it down to this,” a Bible teacher once said, “we are madly in love with ourselves!” In Romans 8, the apostle Paul called this self-centeredness “the flesh.” By nature we live as if we owe the flesh our obedience. Paul reminded us in verse 12 that this isn’t so. He then offered an effective alternative: We can be led and controlled by God’s Spirit (v.14). We may be afraid to give up control of our lives to God, but we needn’t be. Human control shackles us; God’s control gives us freedom. Human control insists on immediate results; God’s control allows for a lifelong process of change. Are you “madly in love” with yourself? Why not turn the controls of your life over to God. Ask Him to change you and help you to love Him and others. — Joanie Yoder (Article taken from Our Daily Bread) --------------------------------- @ 1:02 am [a pretty video]
Saw this artistic video on fb just now. Like it lots! =) Awesome! Enjoy and look at the art! I'm going to figure out the piano melody one day!!
Littlest things
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