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Wednesday, April 28, 2010 @ 12:26 am [my earliest 21st birthday celebration]
It started out with a msn convo asking when are my paper. Then he asked me out on wed for lunch as a celebration for my birthday. I was surprised. But was glad at the same time. Thought twice and decided to put it as a dinner before BSF instead. And so it was set. On the monday that just passed. So we met at tanjong pagar, walked around to see a few places but really couldn't decide between western or japanese. Stood in front of secret recipe and pushing the decision maker role to each other. And just when I decided to assume that role, he voiced his opinion too. Haha. And so we ended up at Sakae :) It was a good meal. A good time of catching up especially since I haven't had a decent and long conversation with him for a long time. Asked my questions, shared my concerns and was glad. He treated me to dinner that day too! That's present #2. Present #1 was when he said that super long birthday prayer for me while thanking God for the food. It was so super sweet of him! :) I was pretty touched as he prayed over my exams, my course, my life and my walk with God. I didn't expect that and it was very thoughtful of him. I glad he took that chance to thank say grace for us. Present #3 came when he suddenly gave me plastic bag. In it was an envelope and a present. I was pleasantly surprised at how quickly he prepared the present. Thought it might be rushed for him. Ha. And present #3 was the sweet poem he wrote for me. Not a love poem but a birthday wishes. Awesome! Actually, I kinda demanded it when he wrote a poem for our mutual friend. But cos of everything else, it slipped my mind. But I'm glad it didn't slipped his. And it was very nice and beautifully written. Rhymed well! And naturally, present #4 is that present he gave. The first present I received which I couldn't resist but to open it! It was certainly a night that is sweet and nice! It's a night that is thoughtful and brings smiles to my face. I thank God for this brother-in-Christ. And I thank God for his friendship :) Out of these 4 presents he gave, the best is the 1st. His prayer of blessing and wishes over me is something that I've never experienced before. Thank God! :) --------------------------------- Monday, April 19, 2010 @ 4:45 pm [planning brain at work]
It's really great to start planning things again! Boy! It sure had been a long time since I last planned for events! And starting again to plan for my bday party just make me thrilled! At first, I was super stressed up. I just had this nagging thing at the back of my head and was making me frustrated. After that, I suddenly had inspiration! Probably after I spoke to Grace, my choir friend, who had organised her bday party. Then, ideas start pouring in. Inspiration came as waves and waves of it. My mind was rushing and full of ideas! Cool! =) I had a lot of fun while planning and thinking about it! Good and bad. Bad while it's amid exam preparation. It literally took up alot of time and SLEEP as I lay in bed just thinking about what to do, how to deco etc. But it's good cos I finally got the real Sharon back! It's like it's been sooo long since I was last excited for something like this! Something that I'm passionate about and don't mind spending long hours on! Something that has been long forgotten and yet a dear part of me! So overall, I'm happy! I really like planning! But amid all these planning, I know that I got slow things down, spread things out cos I gotta make time for my studies. Oh boy. Kinda sad cos I'm afraid I'll lose that inspiration. But oh well. It needs to be done, so be it. A form of ground for training in discipline too! But this also makes me wonder if I should work in some event management/planning company like Pico instead of being an engineer. I wonder if this is really where my passion and interest and skills strength lie. I wish there was a course such as "event planning/management" for students to take in uni. I think that would be much more useful! Imagine me applying for that job. "Erm. Though I don't have the tertiary skills necessary for this job but..." Boy! It's so hard to complete that sentence! But still, the bottom line is: Should I just straightaway work in this kinda company? Apply for this job when I graduate? Is this my career? Is this meant for me? I wonder. It does make me excited when I think about it. I think I'll be much happier working in this company than at an engineering company. But it does make me upset that after 4 years of studying Materials Engine, I wouldn't be applying it in my job. Oh boy! I don't know. Ha. That's for 2 calendar years to decide! For now, let me just enjoy the process of planning my bday party! =)) Cheers! --------------------------------- Tuesday, April 13, 2010 @ 1:39 pm [Birthday]
For one of the rare years, I'm clueless as to how I wanna spent my birthday. The actual day. I think this time round, it's really tricky cos it's in the midst of the uni exam period and it's a Saturday. So I have a feeling that its' gonna be crowded everywhere and sat is a family time. Then again, it feels strange as to why I feel so cos every year on my birthday, it's always crowded since it's a public hol. And every year, my friends also spend time with their family since it's Labour Day! An off-day for all working adults. And every year since pri school, my birthday falls during the exam period or right before the exams start. Haha. I think it's funny. Oh well. It's quite sad that I can't realise those big dreams that I have. Of climbing Mount Kinabula and reaching the peak on my birthday! Of travelling around to msia or some other beach. To just spend time with God in a place that is different from Singapore and much quieter there. Oh well. No point thinking of "how I wish". Let's just look ahead and see how and what I can do to make this birthday interesting and memorable! =) --------------------------------- @ 1:37 pm [I am God's original masterpiece]
Take time to watch and let it speak to you! Let the verses quoted speak to you! --------------------------------- Sunday, April 11, 2010 @ 11:17 pm [He spoke, once again] As I went back home with unhappy and grumbling thoughts, I knew that somehow God will speak to me through the Bible later on. And sure enough, He did. Philippians 4:11, 12, 13 and 19 "...I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances...I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation...I can do everything through him who gives me strength...And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." Well, I must admit that these are words that is hard for me to swallow and take in. To be content. And in every situation. It's very hard. But nonetheless, it's a message that God wants me to take. It would do good to listen and respond appropriately. Just don't take too long to respond and be willing to do so. After all, it's your choice, Sharon. But always know there are unpleasant consequences when bad choices are made. --------------------------------- Saturday, April 10, 2010 @ 11:59 pm Excerpt from my diary:
I was reading John 8:31-58. A long passage. And it's filled with strong hard truth from Jesus. It's no wonder the Jews at that time were so upset and angry at His words. It was indeed claims that were beyond comprehension and seems absurd. Only to those who chose not to hear. Only to those who were not opened. Putting myself in their shoes, I can understand their frustrations and questions. Yet, this makes me appreciate faith more. Helps me understand it better. Well, though it's hard words to swallow, yet there were people who had believed Jesus then. There were people, the Jews and non-Jews. The Samaritans, woman at the well, Centurion soldier, paralysed man and friends, the 12 disciples...These people believed Jesus. There must be something that triggered them to believe. And it's
Indeed, it's both ways. I always believe it's both ways. God opening up the hearts and man responding to it in faith. And it sure is a big step of faith then1 And now too! For some, the atheist and the agnostic. They are big claims to swallow. I now understand, in part, why it's hard for them to accept. It's really something not rational to human mind. Faith. It sure is powerful. It can be as small as a mustard seed but it can move mountains! I pray that one day, my friends will take that step of faith in Jesus and God will open up their hearts. --------------------------------- @ 11:02 pm This Kingdom
--------------------------------- Friday, April 09, 2010 @ 12:55 am I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Particularly like this song when I heard it in the radio. The lyrics and the title so express my thoughts and feelings especially for the previous post. Like the music--cheerful and optimistic. It's nice. Something that's unique instead of the longing and sadness kinda mood. Well, I hope I'll be optimistic too and hope in God! --------------------------------- Thursday, April 08, 2010 @ 1:00 am [stress-thoughts]
Often, when I'm stressed up over studying, I always wish for 2 things: 1) Companionship 2) Days of old Companionship. I start to wish that I have a bf already. Someone I can talk to when I'm stressed out, to just pour out my feelings and thoughts. And to hear words of comfort. To know that someone else is also there, staying up with me late into the night and cheering me on. And subsequently, I'll start to think of all my girl friends who have bfs already. Boy! I sure think that they are very lucky! I wish mine will come soon too. I wish for companionship. A human companionship. Days of old. I really wish I can go back to the past--the primary school and secondary school days. Sorry, had to minus the JC days cos it was very stressful too. I wanna go back to those pri & sec sch days when I don't have much stress. When everything was systematic and rigid and routine. There isn't much worry. The only battle was my growing character and my weaknesses. Not a race again time or memory or the cohort. Everything then was really hard work/effort = results. But not so in uni. And it gets so tough. It gets so scary. Sigh. I want the days of old. I want that kinda life. I wish for time to turn back... [Birthday] On another note, my 21st birthday is coming! In about 3-4 weeks time! Boy! It sure is exciting! Birthdays are always a big thing to me, quite a contary to the perception of most people. I see birthdays as a time of celebration, a time of joy, a time of happiness, a time that is special and unique to me, a time to catch up with people, a time to smile and just be myself cos I'm the princess on that day! It's also a time for me to be grateful and thankful to God for sustaining me through that XX number of years. So birthdays are a big thing to me. They are special. So every year, on my birthday, it's packed back-to-back with meet-ups with people. From breakfast to lunch to tea to dinner and to supper. Yes. All 3 + 2 meals! Well, this year, coupling with the fact that I'm 21 years old, I suddenly feel a sense of disappointment and sadness about this. Cos I won't be able to celebrate this actual day with my best friends at this phrase of my life--my uni friends. All are mugging, all are studying and all just seems unwilling to come out with me. I did ask, I did hint, I did suggest, but it just failed. I got bombarded with responses like, "celebrate after exams lah", "what's the hurry?", "got long holiday mah". You never know but these words pierce me. Yet, I quietly took them in, knowing that nothing I say can make you change my mind. And that I shouldn't use anything--my sphere of influence & our friendship--to risk your revision and cheer along with me on my birthday. I shouldn't and I wouldn't. There's a free choice. And I'm clearly aware of the situation you are in. But still, it hurts not to spend a portion of that day with you. Well, I can only just pray and wish and hope that my sphere of influence will work on others who are not studying or whose exams are over by then. And I hope that that day will be something meaningful and special. And I hope it'll be something that's bustling with activities, fun, laughter and surprises! --------------------------------- Wednesday, April 07, 2010 @ 12:51 am [Quotes]
Today I was brought to read Obadiah. A small book of the Bible and it's interesting. From the first few verses, I figured out that the material would talk about pride and sure enough, it did! I found these 2 quotes interesting. Sharing with you here. From Charles Haddon Spurgeon in Sermons on Sovereignity, "There are 2 sins of man that are bred in the bone, and that continually come out in the flesh. One is self-dependence and the other is self-exaltation. It is very hard, even for the best of men, to keep themselves from the first error. The holiest of Christians, and those who understand best the gospel of Christ, find in themselves a constant inclination to look to the power of the creature, instead of looking to the power of God and the power of God alone." What God desires from His people is humility--an attitude of submission and obedience, grounded in the acknowledgment of our true needy status before Him. Amen. --------------------------------- |