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Thursday, August 31, 2006 @ 11:55 pm hey...okay...jus realised tat the prev entry i said it'll be a quick one but i ended up typin a very long one. lol. n ytday's entry is the 123rd entry!! woohoo! okay. significant number. anyway, went back to ctss today. b4 tat, met anna on the way to sch. was toking to her. den it was drizzling. i should have opened the umbrella. asked her n she say it's okay. but i should have esp since i slept at 3am last nite. should have opened in case i fall sick. den in the cc it's super cold la. the whole time in the cc it was rainin outside. den have to use sufi's spare shirt to cover myself. but the concert was good! i lyk the awards though i find tat some of it are humilitating. i'm glad ms tan won the funky hair award n ms tsung won the congeniality award!! but i was think that ms tan li lian wld have won if ms tsung din enter sa. haha. oh well. they're both pretty in my eyes. the whole thing went well. glad wei ling played the piano beautifully. but the emcees not tat innovative enough...not lyk our nazri n celine the other time in RHD. oh well. nvm. aft tat met woen cheng n went down to ctss but sadly he din go to sch. went to meet frens at bb. but i had to wait super long for the bus la. grr. n i heard frm him tat the sfc have a keyboard!! yay! i wanna use tat nxt time for mornin worship! den perhaps, i'll have more confident of leading n singing too. reached there den saw lin kang. den saw others too. jeremy wong, n others la. met mr lee n ms koh n mrs chan. n of course my dearest yw n sh. yay! den went out n have lunch wid them n li yun too at a jap restaurant. oh ya. got confession. i almost forgotten some of my sch mates' name 0_0 anyway, aft tat company yw to big bookshop to buy things. yay. can shop wid her. glad abt it. haven't shop wid her for a loong time. was looking at the a level guide books. somehow i dun find the guidebooks appealing to me cos i think it'll be the same as lecture notes. seniors n frens, do u think i shld buy guide books? den aft tat passed by bossini shop. n a natural shopper lyk me is attracted to the "%" sign n "$" sign. n they were having a sale. saw a rack of shirts...$8 each la!! it's super nice. so was looking at the shirts n picking the colours n sizes. with the help frm yw. tried them on. showed it to her. got her comments. n yay! bought a pink sleeveless shirt! haha. yes! i'm smart to make use of the discount. it was slashed frm the initial price of $23 to $8. ahha. good buy uh? but came home n things ain't tat good. quarrel. but it's over. went downstairs n do qt. good time. learnt alot. heard alot. convicted. n yes. good time. quiet downstairs too since the weather is so cold. not many ppl swimming. n it drizzled halfway while i was downstairs. wet my books n bible a bit but it's okay. a good time wid the Lord is wad matters most. celebrated sarah's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAL!! haha. okay. hope u lyk the presents we gave u! n then, ya...did evaluation on WR too. must really thank God tat i can find the websites. found great websites to get information. thank you lord! u indeed hears me when i call upon you! amen! 2-3 websites. nice. thank you! =) --------------------------------- Tuesday, August 29, 2006 @ 11:49 pm hey hey. jus a quick one since it's so late now. first, really thank God tat i saw some WR materials behind the library counter. great materials! u guys shld also go check them out! the ppl in the grp all got Band 1 n band 2. at least 2 ppl in one group will get Band 1 wan. so went to read them, look particularly at the evaluation part since cher say our evaluation was super poor n shallow. really puzzled on how to improve so went to look at them. photocopied them too so can share wid the grp tml during PW. den wow...reading jus now n it really opened my eyes la. hgihlighted alot of stuffs n when i look at our own evaluation again, really find tat it's shallow. so did a draft for evaluation. so hope my grp will accept it n add on to it...esp aft all the effort i put in n money i spent in photocopying them. incl the rationale part
saw joel too. found out he got blog. wow. nice skin la. also on piano. so was showing him mine too. haha. den look at wad he writes for the frens etc tat column. wow. he use so chim words la tat i dun even know the meaning of them. perhaps they're technical terms. den was asking him how to memorise piano pieces n he say practise more. he said it so sternly la. frightened me a bit. but good. it's the same sentiments tat i have. okay. den muz put in more effort n time. sigh. more commitment. grr. commitments.....not say dun lyk but it's challenging. VERY challenging. but it's good in a way...push me to run to the River of Life where He'll provide me wid Living Water n grace for each new day as i go about wid my commitments. musn't forget tat. it may be crazy to think of my commitments i will have nxt year but it's the sad truth...i was jus thinkin abt it n asked for prayers too. it shakes me. right down to the core. but Lord, i dun want it to shake me anymore. i want to go forth in confidence n hope n FAITH!!! yes! so here's the list:
We live by faith, not by sight --------------------------------- Tuesday, August 22, 2006 @ 12:34 am please God, not please man
for God said in His Word to please Him only. besides, i was made for him (song: i was made for you). dun want my life to be totally dependent on someone else. for when i draw this kinda satisfaction from man, they'll fail me one day for they are humans still. but it's different with God. God is everlasting. He'll never fail us. He NEVER does. n i trust Him n claim on tat promise! He is tat faithful God who has brought the israelites outta egypt, outta salvary, outta the desert n frm the line of david comes the Son whom He promised. n He never fail us. His spirit was wid the apostles even when Jesus had left for the heavens. He was doing miracles thru their hands. His hands moved thruout tat time n even till present times. His spirit n His hands move. be it in great evangelists'/pastors' lives or even our daily lives. n i praise God for tat too! praise God tat i can count on Him! tat i can put my faith in Him! i want to do things tat please Him. tat please Him entirely. though it may seems wrong in the eyes of the world which may make them upset n hence may make me upset but as long as they are right in His eyes, it doesn't matter. besides, earth is a temporary home. the character tat we built here is wad will last n not the results/end product. I was made for you i was made love you
i was made to praise you
--------------------------------- Sunday, August 13, 2006 @ 4:53 pm hey...had a real nice dream last nite! dreamt of yw n sh n pei shan. dun ask me why i dreamt of pei shan but she was in the picture. leonard n tim n shi qing was in the picture. but basically it was a real nice dream. dreamt tat we went back to ctss for an event. den there was buffet too. but we din dress up. was in our uniform. which uniform? i can't rmb. but after tat, woke up feeling VERY happy! I MISS YOU GUYS ALOT!!!! glad i can see yw n sh soon on sat!! =) cheers! sigh. coming week will be really busy. many mtgs...den goin to stay in sch till dunno wad time, late in the nite. sucks la. den i stay so far away, travelling time so long. reach home will be super late la. sigh. oh well. my choice of sch. but at least the greatest pullin factor of tat sch is morning worship. jus love meeting God early in the morning. hmm...toking abt it reminds me of wad i learnt today in church.... pastor was referring to ex 19-31 but mainly on ex19. toking abt meeting God in mt sanai. she gave us 4 things required of us when we see God:
okay lor. tat's abt all i have to say. yup. hope ws send the latest WR over asap. see ya tml! --------------------------------- Monday, August 07, 2006 @ 10:48 pm hmm. u have no faith in me tat i'll change?? sigh. wad can i do? u'll see then
beauty. hmm. not trying to copy wad victor wrote but it was something tat i was learning for the past week? yea..arnd there cos reading a book now. but reading it jus makes me feel upset all over esp aft "tat" happened. but still wanna tok abt it. it's so wow la. learnin n discovering it. ain't goin to tell u everything tat was written abt it but rather wad i learnt. beauty invites, not demands. it's tough for me. they gave examples: askin good qns invites ppl to tok. but it's tough for me cos sometimes, i dunno, my qns jus seems demanding? to some it is, to others it isn't? in some situations it is, but not to other situations? i dunno but i wanna learn tat. i wanna learn how to show tat beauty---how to invite others n not demand. tough journey ahead. also learnt tat beauty is best seen when she is at rest. ah...a tough one for me but somehow, somewhere down my history lane n deep down inside i know it. i know tat when any woman is at rest, she is beautiful. i have a vivid memory of it too. lyk an experience. a touch. a glimpse of wad it means when the author say tat beauty is seen when she's at rest. n i want it. Lord, the world is competitve now. but teach me to be at rest at times so i can invite others to take a rest too. i know i haven't been doing so--pushing ppl n all but change me lord. i know i'm wrong. wad else abt beauty? tat it has always been in every woman's heart cos God put it there. n it's an image of God too. yeah. nice. comforting. sigh. beauty...behold God's great beauty is the best. show me everyday wad my beauty is Jesus! today, many gals din turn up. only she n i came to sch. well, some can say it's a good opportunity. tat's the first tot tat came to my mind n my mum's mind too but....well...things din turn out tat way. u cld say i was close-up. or u cld say she was close-up. but either way, i'll jus comment on my tots n her actions. well. greeted her n try to tok to her but she still lyk gave me tat look. i dunno wad look. she did look at me when she talks but cld sense a barrier. perhpas i'm thinking too much but i'm a gal u know, i can sense things. when i ask her qns, she jus gave me a one-word answer. is tat all? u used to tok alot to me. so can sense la tat she din wanna tok to me. thruout the entire day, jus sat beside the guys la. feel kinda flirt but wad can i do? he doesn't want me to sit beside him. early in the morning, when i ask politely whether i can sit beside him, he say no. i dun blame him or hold anything against him. it's his choice. his feelings. his opinion. his request n i respect it. den she kept taggin wid him so hardly get chance to tok to her la. so jus sat beside the guys. but had a good time. sat beside wei liang, joshua, sufi, ming xian n praveen. yeah. tat's all. it was nice la. can tok to them at times. was walking up to classroom wid adi n exclaiming to him tat he do his maths tut so fast la! haha. but i dunno. dun wanna be seen as a flirt. sigh. oh well. all to God's hands. jus wish things wld be back to normal? wad's normal anyway? hmm...back to...similar to last time where we jus talk n chat happily. but was thinking today if it's my part--tat it's me who's creating a barrier. somehow, dun feel lyk putting in the effort already..esp to tok to her. jus felt kinda disappointed. ain't telling why here. but well, told myself n the lord tat i dun wanna tok to her abt it. jus gonna put it in God's hands. yup. okay. gtg. see ya arnd --------------------------------- |