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Saturday, June 28, 2008 @ 9:09 pm "You are beautiful" "You are uniquely created" "You have a purpose" "You are given talents, personalities, trials, challenges, people to meet to shape you for that purpose" "So don't compare" "So don't look down on yourself. For when you do so, you are looking down on me too" "So, smile, because I love you" God Thanks for your words of comfort to me today, "God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God" 2 Cor 1:3c-4 I love you too! --------------------------------- Friday, June 27, 2008 @ 12:53 pm Love is more than...
a feeling, an expression through actions and gifts, an emotional high with butterflies in stomach, a nudging miss-you in the mind, a quick thump of your heart when you see the person, a nervousness of dressing up to look one's best, a companionship... No. Love is also...
Love is also...
--------------------------------- Thursday, June 26, 2008 @ 5:01 pm [sick yet encouraged]
yups. i fell sick with a bad throat. a few days back. a punishment? i dunno but i wun deny it's a possibility. i jus hope to recover soon b4 the camp and activities. to slp early and drink lots of water. plus, the weather these days have been so good...so good to exercise that i hope i recover fast to exercise too! i know it sounds weird. that one shld exercise while sick to build up the body immune system but i dun wanna run lest i get asthma. dun wanna swim after that horrible incident where water hurt my ears badly..at least not swim within a short period of time. oh well. jus wanna get well soon! was reading wei ling's blog and was very encouraged. glad to hear and see her growing in the Lord. it's comforting to know that. her entry was indeed a reminder to me..that God made each of us unique for a purpose. we jus need to trust him step by step and walk by faith. besides, rarely does that God reveal the whole entire plan to us. he wld want us to trust him along the way to increase our faith and edify others. so step on it, girl! =) another note, i'm desperately looking for a roommate. okay. i know the word "desperately" makes me sound like a despo but i really am looking hard. wanna find someone that i'm familiar with to bunk in. i really dun feel very comfortable bunking in with someone i dunno now. dunno her personality etc. well, if it was a scholar, i wld be very happy. me being me, i always like to play host and i wld gladly show that scholar arnd and help her in any way possible (or perhaps, she'll end up helping me in studies instead)..well, like wad ma has been saying: pray. pray for protection. yes. i do pray earnestly so. anyway, if you or you know of any frens who are planning to stay in hostel in NTU, do ring me up and tell me k? thanks lots! finally, i think i've been overspending. realised that my type of places i frequent to eat is either foodcourt or restaurants. not the in-between. and i think, nowadays i frequent restaurants more. i dunno. perhaps it's the mentality that meeting someone new or frens that i haven't met for a long time meant to eat at somewhere nice or a place i've never been to. ha. i think i muz really watch the places i choose to go and how much i spend on food. else, i'll not jus burn a hole in my pocket but also in my fren's pocket. esp zhiwen. we've only eaten at foodcourt twice! all the other times were in restaurants. aiyo *shakes head* feeling so guilty...bleah. ok. this is really the last note. my driving test is nxt monday!!! wish me all the best! and congrats to jieming whom i know had recently passed his test! =) cheers! --------------------------------- Sunday, June 22, 2008 @ 6:06 pm [night out]
so yesterday after band prac, went out with zhiwen for dinner. it was great being able to spend time with him after so many days of him in camp the past week. and he does look absolutely nice and handsome in that new black shirt! makes him look very smart and no doubt, slimmer/skinner, whichever word sounds nicer to hear. well, while waiting at the mrt stn, i do see so many NS boys...all their army haircut. glad they all have this weekend break..the april batch of boys jus POP-ed i heard. no wonder they are crowding that area. so zhiwen and i met at arnd 5.30pm. walked arnd at raffles city shopping center. boy! i liked cards and such there! not the usual design of shop..black but still, the things inside were nice! thereafter, went over to precious thoughts and saw the precious moments figurine. the new arrivals were fantastic and meaningful! never really checked the price but jus knowing the thought and effort these designers put inside were good enough for me. there was moses, daniel, joseph (in the OT), noah...tat's all i can rmb. i like joseph one the best. indeed, the story of Joseph is a fantastic one! one can learn much from it! after that, at arnd 6pm plus, we decided to head down to our dinner place. when i reached there, i got a shock! i din noe that at such an early time, there wax already a queue! and that is quite long! the place was shokudo japanese food bazaar. it's like jap mache. so we joined the queue and when we told one of the assistant that we need a table for 2, we jumped the queue and went in first. wow! there were quite a number of tables for 2 people. no wonder. one thing that i like about this marche is that they give us a card-plate for us to reserve our table while we walk arnd and order food! great! the choices there were great! we ordered omelette which was fantastic! absoultely! it was a big piece and there was the onion leaves! yay! then, we got the rosti which he liked it very much. we tried the mackerel fish soup. it was fantastic! the miso soup base was nice! not so salty for me. and the fish was delicious! i very much enjoyed that dish. i wanted very much to try the mushrooms one but sigh, it was slightly more expensive. anyway, me, wanting a balanced diet, we ordered veg too. and got bbq chicken and beef. the beef was very well done. wld very much liked to get the quail eggs..but i was thinking we had too many food that had alot of oil so don't wanna increase our cholestrol. haha. yar..the omelette, rosti and veg had quite alot of oil on it. oh. plus got california roll (which, come to think of it, it's overpriced) and a fruit juice. nevertheless, i very much loved dinner that day! it was a great first-time there! yay! oh! well, thankfully, we din over-spent. we each spend abt $21 which was expected for mache. ha. after that, we walked arnd the market place, headed to esplanade and got drawn to a free performance at the concourse. they sang very very well! not only did they sing but they entertain us by their spontaneous remarks while engaging the audience too. sang cartoon songs and some love songs. boy, captain planet and ulti-mus prime isn't in my era but in zhiwen's. haha. so shared a bit. funny that we are only 2 years apart yet his cartoon shows aren't in my era. haha. after the show, met bryan and greeted him a while. can't go rooftop which i very much liked to go there. it's been some time since i last went there. the library was closed too! so sad...so headed for a drink at harry's. heard a few songs from the live performer before heading home. it was too late to stay on. the performer was great too! sang very well! boy! 960 took so long to come that we decided to take another bus to PS there and take 190 home. sigh. in the end, i really reached home late. bleah. and i was super sleepy fromt eh drink. hangover? i wonder wad liquor was in my drink that made me soooo sleepy. i'm not going to drink that cocktail nor that liquor again! thankfully, i wasn't sleepy during sermon. but had to move abt to keep myself awake during sunday school. so after lunch, slept for 1 hour plus. ha. feels much better now... well, all in all, thanks Zhiwen for this night out! it was great! =) --------------------------------- Thursday, June 19, 2008 @ 8:55 pm [listless, exercised, ice-cream]
today, i was super down again. and it isn't really nice to be brought around the bush either. i was closed to crying (again) while having my lunch. it was horrible. after that, i still had to teach Leo. put on a front, a smile and a temporary concentration. after that, i felt a sudden urge to watch Incredible Hulk. a movie that i'd been wanting to watch since i saw its thriller. called several ppl but can't get anyone. was super disappointed :( so after that, i went home to swim! and i haven't done that for a looooong time! it felt great. swam when there was few ppl in the pool too. besides, the weather was too nice and good to not go exercising. i'll feel guilty if God gave me such a good weather and an abled-body and yet don't exercise. but well, my ears do hurt alot. i'd better bring ear plugs to the camp! dun wanna have water in my ears and then see a specialist again. boo.. but i'm glad i got a chance to swim! thank God for my condo! lastly, i'm being chased off to island creamy now! to treat my siblings! byeee... --------------------------------- @ 8:08 pm [chilled]
Yesterday, suddenly Khalis asked me out for dinner. was quite surprised yet happy. it has been some time since we last went out and some time since we last talked. i was just about to call him up too. so i'm glad we cld meet up that night for dinner! And boy! I tell you! it was so fun hanging out with him...like the old days.. laming and joking around. teasing each other and the ppl arnd us. esp with the "am i suppose to eat the ice-cream with my finger" and the "hang-ten". lol. and until now, we still can't rmb the 2nd joke of the day. well, we ate at Swensens since i didn't get a chance to eat it in the afternoon for lunch. i didn't know that Swensen's fish and chips were the same price as Fish and Co! and the size of fish at Fish n Co was much bigger! and worst of all, i din know that khalis wanted to eat at F&C. oops! so in the end, he ordered the fish meal on promo but he din eat the brocoli! and it was one of his first few times eating potato? i guess. so in the end, he was hungry still. make me feel very bad...so he ordered ice cream and fries. and he finished all of them! woohoo! well done! well, i didn't expect that dinner that night cost me $21. wow...very expensive... over dinner, laughed, chatted, caught up. it was so nice..i totally enjoyed myself! was so myself that night and jus spent it without the word "work" in my mind. we were such lovers of tata sauce that all in all, we used 4 containers for our meal! haha. look at the picture below! if you can notice, there is a motorcycle helmet at the background! yups! he jus bought his helmet! suave! but of course, at the back of my mind, i knew there was something unsettled. and i need to settle that night.
after dinner, shopped around. and as usual, people shopping with me tend to get stuffs even though i was the one who dragged them out for shopping. so he bought a pair of jeans at a reasonable price and a chicken soup book (again) while i bought only a bookmark. but hey, i've been looking for a bookmark for a very long time..for Leo. anyway, i'd an enjoyable time that night. it's so fun and nice to catch up with frens. really had a good laugh amid all my gloomy days... yes..recently, i keep getting hit by waves and waves of doubts. i was thinking if it's the devil's work or a cycle of depression or a test from God. but all i know is that to deal with this, i need to build a stronger spiritual pattern. i need to stand strong together with the Lord and fight this away. i can't keep crying every night, like wad i had been doing. nor can i keep feeling lousy and down and listless. i musn't feel inferior but stand up strong under this. Lord, i need your grace and mercy to lead me through this period of time. just as how you, in your mercy, led Lot and his family away from the destruction of Sodom in the past. learnt that today... okay. anyway, here, i wanna say thanks to Khalis for your company yesterday! =) cheers! i can't wait for *you* to return and have a day out with *you*.. --------------------------------- Tuesday, June 17, 2008 @ 9:28 pm [insight, comforting]
An excerpt from my diary Today, I saw a Christian encouragement card that reads, "You don't need one more person to say 'hang in there'. It's such a wow statement to me! I was surprised at the words and all the more at the idea! It's indeed a very good reminder! Suddenly, I felt a sense of honour and priviledge! What comfort for I and all of God's children to receive! What strong security that I know I'm always safe in God's loving arms despite trials, turbulence, difficulties and hurts. Thank you God! --------------------------------- Monday, June 16, 2008 @ 8:18 pm [recount]
so today i headed down to the medical center at NTU for the check-up. was msging wan ting (cherlynn's fren) until she called cos we sms too much and took too much time. haha. but i was glad she called. so i can hear how she really sounds! and it's great talking to her! she's really bubbly and cheerful. yet, the ironic thing to me is that she doesn't like camps. quite contray to wad i perceive of bubbly gals. so i was talking and telling her all the good points abt going to the FOC organised for us. was also trying to convince her to stay in hostel too. managed to get her a bit excited for it. also partly cos her cousin in ntu encouraged her to do so! :) hee. if she does stay in hostel and her parents allow it, i think i may bunk in with her! yay! i know, i dun really know her much yet. i haven't seen her b4. she's jus introduced to me by cherlynn yesterday. wan ting is in the same course as me. so tat's why i prefer to bunk in with her. thru our chats, i found some differences between the 2 of us. quite fast actually. din expect that. yet, one thing i'm thankful about is that despite our differences, our love for Christ, being part of Christ's body is the one that bonds us together. i really love the idea n thank God greatly for that! there is something tat holds us together..something much much greater. and i do pray that we'll be able to encourage each other and edify one another whether or not we are bunking in together... anyway, i made another fren too! On the bus on the way there, i jus said hi to a gal who's holding the ntu campus map and asked if i cld alight tgt with her since i'm quite lost already. and the careless thing was that we alighted at the wrong bus stop :S but i'm glad she's not afraid to ask ppl for directions and we got someone heading to the medical center direction to lead us there. yay! Thank you! So we hanged around each other throughout the whole time we were there! and mind you! it was a loooong wait! i spent about 1.5-1.75hours there! very long. too many ppl. and my check-up in the room with the doctor was only 2 mins. bleah. and i find that the ***** there isn't very good. it was a male doctor and yet, there wasn't any nurse in the room. the clinic can be short-handed but still, they should not compromise on this right? it's dangerous. anyway, i weigh 40.6kg. well, at least still in the 40s. eyesight wasn't too bad. x-ray was the one that worries me. i hope it doesn't get me into any trouble :S this gal that i jus made fren with, her name is nivedha. she's in computer science. she lives very near me too! in bukit panjang! yay! maybe can meet her up someday? :) and she's another one that i know who isn't very interested in the orientation camp. so me being me, i asked her to go and tell her the good points. haha. oh well. it's still her choice and i hope she goes! there may be a chance we are in the same og! yay! =)) okay. anyway, glad to have her company throughout and make frens with her! hi-5! =) thank you God too! past few nights, i have been attending the Basic Life Principles Seminar. Thank God I have the opportunity to invite Zhiwen to the free seminar on thurs night. it was a good msg and i'm glad he's learning and applying what he had heard! it's a great joy to hear that! =) thank God for uncle joseph and thank uncle joseph too for making zhiwen comfortable that night esp when we went out for supper. thank God for the big van tat helps to send myself, zw n suet mee home! =) oh ya! suet mee went that night too. yay! so nxt year, if she's interested, she'll sign up and be blessed too! =) the seminar was good. made several commitments. hope i can keep them. by God's grace and the Holy Spirit's power. erm. wad hit me the most was the Principle of Design cos i was facing problems accepting my birth order. thank God for revealing this to me. another one was on forgiveness/bitterness. mm. ~self control~
--------------------------------- Friday, June 13, 2008 @ 9:18 pm Friend of a wounded heart
Smile, make them think you're happy
I'll try to load the song soon...been trying at imeem but keep failing. I love this song alot! Esp the first few lines of the first verse. And even more so in the 2nd verse. Loved the intro rhythm. unique. but the chorus drums and melody should be improved (tat's how i personally feel) because suddenly, the dynamics dropped with the minum notes. hmm..a bit draggy but still, it's a great and nice song! =) --------------------------------- Saturday, June 07, 2008 @ 3:50 pm [reflecting]
as i mentioned previously, my aunt and uncle and cousin and cousin-in-law are here in my hse. they'll be leaving today. and i've been arnd them talking to them or listening to their conversations nonetheless. always conversing in cantonese, i started to envy (in not-so-bad sense) my cousin who's married. whenever she wanna mention my cousin-in-law to us, she'll say my "lou kuong". that's "husband" in cantonese. man. it's signifies a status and a bond that she shares with this man. and to tell everyone he's her husband is really something wow. i wonder when i'll have a chance to say that. to say "my husband" to those around me...man. wad honour God bestows on married couples. Was also hearing how my cousin-in-law calls my aunt "mum". so sun4 ko2 (words coming out from lips easily) and so nice to hear that. it's a sense of belonging. a reminder that a marriage is not jus a union of two people but two families... i wonder who will call my own mum his mum. and i wonder how it'll be like...to hear someone calling my mum so. and i will be calling his mum my mother too..one who takes care of both of us, cares and loves us. wow..so cool! i wonder when will be my turn...be patient, Sharon! --------------------------------- Friday, June 06, 2008 @ 7:54 pm [friend-li-over-ness?]
Today i was super friendly again. haha. i noticed this guy who was always at the 187 bus stop the past few days. the first time i almost trip and fall on him in the bus. so that's why i rmb the face quite clearly. subsequently, i see him there at the bus stop. it was so cool! i wanted to go up and greet him but was a bit afraid. afraid that i'll be too over-friendly and scare him or get myself in some trouble again. besides, he looked a bit like a PRC and i definitely dun wanna struggle thru speaking chinese! today, i saw him again. and i started debating within myself if i shld go up and say hi. i even formulated a starting qn and how to get out of the situation if i dun feel comfortable. but it never really took place. until here! i needed to go lunch at BPP so we boarded the same bus and started walking in the same direction. all along, i was behind him and i tot i saw him lookin at me thru the corner of his eye. then, suddenly, when we were going up the escalator, he turned his entire body around and looked at me and gave me a slight smile. man. then, i knew tt i had to go up. so i smiled and boldly walked up several steps. and those steps seemed eternity cos it's a bit embarrassing having a girl initiate a conversation. bleah. well, greeted him, talked a bit abt driving n wad's he doing there before introducing my name. his name? Alvin. i think it's spelt with an "A". then, once again, i boldly ask if i cld join him for lunch after finding out he'll be dining alone. haha. another bold step of mine. but it was nice! it was great to be able to talk to someone new and make new friends/acquaintances! found out he's an ORD-ed NSF, frm JJC, going into NTU's civil engineering! tat means i'll get to see him in the engine camp! haha. was quite happy. another cool thing? he stays at Cashew Heights. personality wise, he's the quiet type. so wad's up with me and quiet guys? i wonder...haha. he's also quite a handsome chap :) one cool thing we talked abt was this: when we were sharing wad we were doing during the hols, he asked if i was giving tuition. when i questioned him how he knows, he said he saw me doing maths qns! Boy! I was shocked and surprised! He actually noticed me? wow. tat's really something. haha. i didn't expect that. haha. but it does give me a good feeling. ahhhha. which gal won't? lol. haha. but still, he looks like an honest chap so nothing to set me worrying. anyway, had a rushed lunch cos i was late for my auto lesson. but still, me being me, i talked alot over lunch. ask qns like wad we are doing, wad's his army vocation like (combat engineer!), siblings, uni etc. he was nice. sent me to the bus stop to wait for bus to go BBDC. yay! =) his TPP is nxt tue! all the best and hopefully i'll see him again but not at the bus stop! :) oh oh..at least one thing to prove i'm not over-friendly is that i didn't get a single contact of his. no msn, no hp number, no email. nothing. jus pure hi-bye. haha. but thinking back, i wished i approach him earlier. then, can have more time chatting and talking and making friends. now, it's really clueless as to when we'll ever meet each other again...boo... --------------------------------- Thursday, June 05, 2008 @ 5:14 pm [tired]
yesterday, my aunt, uncle and cousin came from KL! bunking in here! later on, my cousin-in-law will be coming over here. they came to singapore for the GSS. really cheap to them? i wonder. but anyway, I love this family alot! My aunt was the one that helped my mum deliver me! And boy! she looks so like my mum! And i'm pretty close to her. okay. not that we talk every month but i'm extremely comfortable with her around (although she talks like my mum). so when she arrived yesterday, giving her a hug was as good as giving my mum a hug (which the latter always dun like me to do so. boo). i like my uncle too! he's extremely humourous yet full of wisdom! and he certainly looks like my camp speaker! my cousin? yeah! I love her too! she jus got married and i was pretty shock. at that time, i felt it was quite a something that the cousin i grew up with was getting married. haha. anyway, i had driving lesson this morning. and the lesson was horrible. i keep getting scolded. not really that harsh scolding but the tone and the choices of words the instructor used wasn't exactly encouraging. i felt very very discouraged and jus can't wait for this whole ordeal to be over. yes. an ordeal. literally. i had enough of discouraging lessons! everytime i jus feel like giving up after every lesson. very tired. mentally. so i was heading home and noticed my aunt's family coming towards the bus stop that i alighted from. so i waited for them a while to talk to them. and before my uncle left to go up on the bus, he turned to me and say "be patient". wow! wad a timely word. actually, it was a wrong time cos he thinks i'm heading for driving lesson. so he gave this advice. yet, it's still timely for me. why? cos it suddenly dawned on me that i have to be patient with my progress in driving. it's like a word from God. haha. patient with my progress...that i shouldn't get irritated so easily, rather, take time to rmb the mistakes pointed out and make the necessary ammendments. yar. i know that and will work on it... sigh. but still, i was down the whole day. i dun feel restless but rather, tired and emotionally down. i jus feel like slping my time away! i jus wanna see him. sigh. so tired. --------------------------------- Wednesday, June 04, 2008 @ 8:12 pm [recounting]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIWEN! Happy 21st birthday! you are 21 now!! an adult! keep smiling and stay cheerful yea? you have been such a grrrreat blessing to me (and your frens) and i hope you will continue to be so to many other ppl's lives! =) cheers! so i met him today. gave him a surprise at the playground behind my condo. set up the whole stage and just waited behind a tree for him to appear. so i didn't manage to see his expression of his face when he saw the set-up. but i'm glad he liked it! hope it'll be a memory to last for him. yay. i like making surprises. haha. like to bring joy and a memory to them! :) i wonder when it will be my turn..haha after that, we headed down to Beauty World to have lunch. I know. it's kinda a weird place to go for lunch but hey! there's a good western stall there! the lagsana is great! and indeed it was! cheesy...good for zw! and me too! haha. n yay! I managed to give him a treat! it's nice! oh! he received his fren's call frm NZ after rejecting so many times. all thanks to me! for reminding him that maybe that fren is calling him! *haha. okay. show-off* but it was nice of his fren to ask abt me! jus a pity i didn't get to talk to him yet. wld have loved to! speaking about talking to ppl you are not close with, i really wanna say thanks to my sis! she's such a lovely and amazing gal! she always makes my frens comfortable...always willing to talk to them and joke and laugh with them. though she may not seem the kind that goes forward and approach ppl to talk, she still can communicate well with my frens! really love you gal! =D and so that's why, she was very nice to zw and led him to the backgate. thanks! :) okay. back to the point, we then headed off to Kallang Leisure Park. it was a roller coaster ride but i'm glad he was ok after slping a while at starbucks. thanks for introducing me to iced blended mocha! so nxt time i know what to order already! it tastes okay. bearable. yay! and i lyk the ambience very much! sofa, comfortable seat, jus doing my work on the lap, having enough light so it wun spoil my eyes..great! leisure park isn't exactly a very nice place to shop either. not fully occupied. and nothing nice leh. alot of eateries. but at least there was a Christian shop! and i got my simple cross necklace! smiles! well, all in all, it was great having his company too! so it makes the walking trip there still good...but his family came so i shopped alone for the remaining 50mins before the free shuttle bus came. well, after having "trained" in JC, being alone doesn't really bother me already. sometimes, i feel it's good to be alone..at my own pace and own time. but the mall was soooo boring that i decided to spend 15mins b4 the bus arrives jus sitting at subway sofa.. and i muz say that it's truely relaxing! jus sit there, cross-legged, cross arms, listening to the songs being played on Gold90 on the radio, sing along since they are all familar ones and think about things..man..this is really a forced break but good. it's good to take these kind of breaks lest i break down under work. well, headed home about 1 hour plus later. din noe it took so long to go home..boo..haha. all in all, i enjoyed this day-off i have and the time i can spend with zhiwen to celebrate his birthday! once again, happy birthday! okay. that aside, i know the prev entries are really cheaters cos i changed the dates so as to keep a track record. haha. well, i got rejected by nus. was a big shock to me. i really didn't expect myself to be rejected by them. sigh. was quite sad. until i cried that night. but thank God He's there and reminded me through the Holy Spirit about what i've learned. and i must say it's really timely. or rather, i think it was an opportunity to put to the test whatever i've learned. thank God for such opportunities! and i mean it from the bottom of my heart! so my final choice is NTU's materials engine. and that's only for local uni. oh oh..i'm going to be course mates with yi chen and kok siong! but wld miss dearly to be in the same uni as zhiwen and alvin and jiawen. as for the australian ones, my parents are still thinking but i think chances are really really low. sigh. i'm very pretty much tied down with my tuition responsibilities. recently, hao an's mum even reminded me again to stay with him until end sept. oh oh! and i only have 17 more weeks to PSLE!! okay..sounds like i'm taking it but it's somewhat similar! cos that means i can only have 34 more lessons with hao an and only 17 more lessons with yuan ru and augustin! yikes! so few..i hope i'll do my all i can to help them within this period of time! and, like wad i was telling zhiwen today, tuition really helps me alot..teaches me to be more responsible in my work and to do my best! =) yay! thank you God! so, i'll have my driving test on 30th June! end of this month! and i hope i can pass! but the recent driving lesson i went to proved horrible. i din do well in many areas :( made me a bit worried. guess i have to really ammend and learn from my mistakes! can't jus let them go but rather make the effort to do something about it...jia you! PS: check out 21may entry! --------------------------------- |
