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Thursday, August 26, 2010 @ 11:38 pm


[updates]

I've set up another blog. For me to use during the office since blogger isn't accessible at office. So here it is: timeinoffice@wordpress.com

But don't bang on it too much. It's prob alot of complains and I'll usually write there when I really have a strong urge to write or that I wanna complain about work etc. Haha.

[beautiful messages]

The past few nights have been AWESOME! Every day since Monday, I managed to do my QT! I was wow! Okay! I've finally got to do it! Yay! To be honest, the past 5 weeks have been a struggle. I know that 5 weeks is long to adapt and get into a routine but seriously, it has been so! I can't have a fixed routine and without it, I need more discipline to do my QT. Well, I guess it's cos I sent my ODJ back to spore and now am relying on the devotional material on my Bible. And I wanted to keep on track with the schedule. So I follow it closely according to the days.

And it has been beautiful and wonderful! God has been speaking to me through each and every one of them! I was touched by it! Right from the beginning in Gen and picking on several stories. Today, I was touched again and God spoke to me. It is amazing how God spoke to me through the time I had with Him just now.

First, He gave me really quiet time. I had time alone in the room. Just myself and Him. It was nice. Then, I flipped through my journal randomly and chanced upon an entry that I wrote before I left for GIP. An entry way earlier, dating back to 12 March. In it, I was writing my fears that I have. And a verse that I chanced upon in Isaiah that encourages me to look to Him.

As I look through the fears, I realised that it is happening now. They are still my present fears and concerns. That was before I read the Genesis passage. After reading, God was teaching me through Sarai to not do things my way. To not take matters into my own hands. To wait patiently. For His perfect intention and perfect plan to unfold. It can save me lots of heartache. It was clear. These fears and concerns have to be given and committed to God. To not take things on my own and do things based on my own wisdom. But to really follow His plan and will. And to wait patiently.

Thank God for teaching me through His Word. And thank God for speaking to me.

Indeed, the rain just now was a blessing in disguise. Though I didn't go to cell group eventually, I got to spend good time with God, in quietness and in prayer. In intercession too as I pray for Sarah and Aunty Cas. Yeah. I was reminded of Aunty Cas and her new baby as I read the write-up :) Will definitely drop her a mail soon!

[family]

It was nice talking to Sarah just now, again. As always. I always enjoy my conversations with her. But it's just a pity that it's a short conversation. I don't get to talk to her for long. Mostly cos I always call late. Sad. But at least we can talk a bit. Please, Sarah, let's talk longer k? I was really touched when she told me that she put my picture as the wallpaper on her hp. It was really sweet of her. I wish I can also have a picture of her or the family in my wallet. Oh well. But it's okay. Seeing Reuben's photo also reminds me of the family.

And everytime I see Reuben's photo and read his message behind, I tear. I miss Reuben alot. I haven't talked to him for a long time. But somehow, everytime we are on the phone, we don't talk much. Sigh. What do I miss about him? I guess it's not the conversations that we have, the past fun that we shared or the driving arounds that we do. I believe it's simply because of who he is. Simply because he's my brother. Despite the little talk, I feel connected to him. I miss him. And because of the little talk, I miss him too. Talk more to me, k, boy? I really want to know what's happening on your side.

Alright. Homesickness is settling in. But it's normal I guess. I am somehow surpressing it through the phone calls that I make often. Oh well. I'll see how and what I can do.

Okay. I miss my other family too. My church. Miss the cell group that I'll miss too. Hope they'll grow together through the meet-ups. And, well, I miss serving in church too. It's really different going to another church. There is no familarity, no grounding, no belonging, very different. Now, I miss church. I really miss church. And will appreciate church more. Now, I understand what Jeremy meant when he talked about church going in the inital parts of his UK and US trips. Oh well. I hope I'll settle in soon, somewhere!

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Friday, August 13, 2010 @ 1:09 am


For who You are



Standing here, in Your presence
Thinking of the good things You have done
Waiting here, patiently
Just to hear Your still small voice again
Holy, righteous, faithful to the end
Savior, healer, redeemer and friend

I will worship You for who You are
I will worship You for who You are
I will worship You for who You are Jesus

My soul secure, Your promise sure
Your love endures always
My soul secure, Your promise sure
Your love endures always
My soul secure, Your promise sure
Your love endures always

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Wednesday, August 11, 2010 @ 12:53 am


[Love]

An excerpt from my journal:

I've been struggling. Ever since last week. Battling with why I'm here in SH. It's really tough. Communication is hard. And I feel horrible. It makes me want to cry. I was so close to tears. I really felt like going back. Even talking to Owen about it makes me feel sad and quiet. I simply looked down.

But I looked up just now and saw the keychain that XQ and Julian gave me. "God Loves Sharon". I remember Julian's explanation. They hope that this will always remind me that no matter what happens, God loves me and will always be there for me. Then, it reminded me of what Marcus shared about God's love being the basis of Christianity. There's nothing more to rely on than His love. If this is missing, then Christianity, this relationship with God, is nothing.

Then, it all fell into place. That God loves me so much that putting me here in SH is by no mistake or chance. There's a purpose. He couldn't have simply missed out this detail of my life or make a mistake. He shows His great love for me even by putting me in this place. Despite my weaknesses and inadequacies which result in this struggle, God puts me here still. And His love will see me through.

It reminded me of His characters reflected in Hannah's prayer (1 Sam 2). Of His holiness, His knowledge and His power. This God is a great God that I serve. Believe it, Sharon! You can overcome your difficulties and struggles! Through Christ who gives you strength! Philippians 4:13.

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Saturday, August 07, 2010 @ 1:55 am


[thinking]

I think I should stop thinking too much. Maybe I'm reading too much into things. Cos I realised that it's eating into me. I seem to get jealous, just a tint, somehow. I should stop. Really just take things as it is. To trust in God. Though there seem to be sparkles in the eyes just now, but maybe it was just the environment, the place and the drinks. Hmm. Yeah. I should just stop. Stop. And just trust in God for His plan, providence and purpose.

Lord, when will it be? Who will it be? I'm confused and really don't know what to do. Can you guide me? Please, will you guide me? Help me through this emotional time. Please help me to control my thoughts and feelings and tune it to you. Help me to be close to your footsteps and atune to your words.

On another note, work here hasn't been too good (except for today). It was super boring cos I wasn't given much to do. It got me so irritated that I simply just wanna go home! I wanna go back to spore and work there! Though it can be stressful but at least there are things to do--even simple things. I really don't mind. At least nothing like this one! I really wanna go home. To do my IA in Spore. Back to where there's comfort, where there's friends, where it's home.

I miss my friends. I miss my family.

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Tuesday, August 03, 2010 @ 11:37 pm


I miss my friends. Every single one of them. From my christian clique to my church friend to my non-christian friends too. But to be honest, I miss my Christian friends more. I miss the support they give me. Looking at the sms they send to my spore number, it's filled with so much wisdom and encouragement. It's just what I needed. Exactly what is lacking in my life now. I need it. I need them.

I really wanna reconnect with them. I treasure every one of their sms. I'll read and re-read them, taking in everything that they say. It just brings me to tears that I'm so far away from them :( literally to tears. I wish I don't have to suspend my spore line. But I have to. I wonder if they'll send these encouraging and Biblical sms to my china number. Will you? Can you?

On another note, I'm glad Marcus is coming on the 15th :) I hope it'll be a good time for him and I. And perhaps, receive the Christian-ly encouragement that I'm so lacking in. Now, I know what is Christian community and the importance of it.

I miss you, Wanting, John, Peter and Bethia. I miss you all lots.

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@ 12:46 am


Be still my soul be still

This song had been playing in my mind since I came to SH. Popped into my mind several times. I wonder why. Well, I did listen to this song on the day that I left. At home. But it stuck on me pretty long. Hmm. I wonder if God has a message for me through this. To be still and wait for something? For His hand to work through me? Bringing to pass some of the things He had promised? For the things I'm struggling with? For the hopes that I have? For the current situation to turn better? I wonder. But it's a sweet song. I hope that God will teach me to wait patiently. I don't really need to know what is it exactly that He's referring to. Just lead me by the hand to that thing. And I know I'm safe. Safe in good hands. Bringing me to where He wants me to go and what He wants to show me. Sometimes, it's good. An exercise of faith, a guidance step-by-step, a wonderful journey with Him! =)



He is here for the broken and life to the one who is undone
He is peace to the wounded and hope for the helpless one
He is here, He is here

Be still my soul, be still
Be still my soul, be still
Wait patiently upon the Lord
Be still my soul, be still

When the waves rise against me and the wind tries to draw me away
I will stand on the mountain, safe in Your arms I will sing I will sing

Be still my soul, be still
Be still my soul, be still
Wait patiently upon the Lord
Be still my soul, be still

Be still I know He is God
He is here, He is here
Be still I know He is God
He is here, He is here

So be still my soul, be still
Be still my soul, be still
Wait patiently upon the Lord
Be still my soul, be still
Wait patiently upon the Lord
Be still my soul, be still

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