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Sunday, January 31, 2010 @ 12:19 am [updates]
Right. I guess when I'm not so occupied with things on my mind, I have the inspiration to blog. Hmm. Well, I think my studies are still going to suffer a bit. Gee. Gotta try to catch up last week's lectures! Was so scared just now when I couldn't access any lecture recording. Was drafting an email to send to CITS when I tried again and it worked! Phew! And I can watch my lectures already! =) Glad for it and I hope I can complete them soon! I've just completed the online application for GIP-Work & Study for Jul-Dec 2010. It was so hectic. Esp the unexpected section called "Work experience", "CCA" and "About myself". I didn't have much prepared. Well, I did have my resume soft-copy but it wasn't edited after I went for the workshop. And now, I'm really glad I did go for the worshop in week 2. Cos I applied the skills I learned! =) Yay! So wrote my work experiences short, sweet, precise and with alot of action words! That's the key! About myself was tricky. I had never written this part before. So I decided to pretend as if I'm in an interview. Stating my competencies at the end of the paragraph which is accompanied with an example! Sweet! Cool eh? (: I hope it points out clearly and it's something that the reader wants! Well, so this is it. I guess. I applied. Then will spend more time thinking about it. I might reject the offer for july. Cos honestly, it's so soon! So scary. I'm so not mentally prepared. Thus far, I'm only prepared for going in Jan, not July! So scary. Oh well. Will see how. I might go. Might not go. See how it goes. The only push factor that made me go this july is cos Owen is going. My fren from crusade. Was surprised to see him at the talk but also very glad. To hear his opinion and to see him! He's very keen in going in jul. Might go with him then at least I have a guy arnd me when I travel! =) Hopefully more guys and girls will join us in this trip! If you know of anyone who is interested to go in Jul-Dec/2010 or Jan-Jun/2011, please let me know! Urgent and important! =) Thanks! Well well. I guess I've nothing much to say already. CNY coming. At least V-day won't have a big impact on me this time round. Since I would be overseas in msia and it clashes with cny. But I wonder if I'll receive flowers! =) Will really make my day. Red roses always make my day! =) *winks* Talking about msia, I'm so going to be a Singapore citizen. I've started checking out the elgibility requirements already. Just sent an enquiry regarding my case. Going to settle once and for all if a SPR student can apply and not listening to hear-say! Man. After reading the recent headlines on the increasing gap of SPR and Singaporeans, it makes me wanna be a citizen even more! The gap is simply too big! Too big for me to handle if I were to continue to stay in Singapore! Well, if I can't apply by own merits as a student, I hope I will quickly get married to a Singaporean for at least 2 years! =) Or perhaps, have a good employer who's willing to sign the form for me! Oh well. That's for the future to think about. For now, I guess, it's studies, my duties and responsibility as Sharon :) --------------------------------- Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ 2:00 am [beautiful ending]
This evening, I had a beautiful ending to a tiresome week. The full moon was hung so low in the sky and it was so big. What's more, it wasn't even night time. It was only 7.18pm. The sky was still blue yet the moon was very visible and clear. Thank you God. Certainly a big reminder to me. Had a good QT too. At least I was doing it with more joy and more anticipation. Better than the past week which was hectic. Esp with the late nights, prep for the mac-in-tube and the selling itself. Through this selling, i really know which frens kept their words. Though i was disappointed in some of them, but oh well. perhaps they have their own difficulties. But also, there are some who are willing to buy from me even after the u-flea market and i'd remaining test-tubes! cool eh? (: thank God for friends like these! I hope they are blessed as they give this gift to their peers and loved ones arnd them! =) I would also like to take this chance to thank my team. Firstly, wanna thank Wanting and John who put in alot of effort and stayed up late nights with me. Thanks for helping me set-up the stalls, rushing down and hanging around at the stall to do the orders while I do the talking. Without your hands and your hearts, I certainly couldn't have done this. Also wanna thank Bethia, Peter, Wee Siang and Qiao Yong who have helped out in ways big and small. And making a big difference too! Thanks. Your presence means alot to me. It's already a support in itself, whether you buy the test-tubes or not. That said. I hope to close this soon, give the portion of money to Haiti victims and get on with my studies. Sure have lots to catch up on! --------------------------------- Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 1:15 am Mac-In-Tube!
Come by Booth 27 outside LT1A! From 5pm onwards! 27 Jan to 28 Jan (Wed & Thus). U-Flea market is giving out free B&J ice cream too! =) Be chilled, be cooled and be inspired to give a special gift to people you treasure around you! Your family and relatives when you see them on CNY? Your sweetheart? Your bestie? Your roomie? Your friends? Or even yourself! =) So let your words be spoken through macaroni when it meets the gel in a test-tube! =) Most of the proceeds go to Haiti victims too! See ya there! --------------------------------- Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 11:59 pm [fears]
Today, John reminded me time and again that it is tomorrow. Reality check. Yes. It really is tml. And, as exciting as this sounds, it really makes me scared. But I never really showed it. I am half-half about how things will go. Maybe cos the population is so big that I don't get a feedback or hear people talking about it. It makes me scared. Plus, publicity is quite limited. Its limitations on that day itself is also a constraint. So, I guess I have fears inside of me. I'm scared. Honestly. I really hope and pray that things will go smooth tomorrow and the day after. Lord, whatever it is, please let it be a good learning lesson to all of us. Good and bad, help me learn to let it go into your hands :) Another fear I have started tonight. When my sister left the room to sleep outside. I know I piss her off last night but I really am not doing it now. Not tonight. Despite me having to off the radio, switch off the ceiling lights, and having to deal with just the desk light, I would rather endure all these than have them. I really miss having my sis to sleep in the room that belongs to her too. Yeah. I will miss talking to her at nights and hearing her thoughts when she's on the bed and disturb her. Sigh. I think I made a stupid mistake. I'm sorry, girl. My fear? That this would go on and thereafter it'll be detrimental to the rs. And who knows, eventually we won't talk and things made worse when she/I leave for overseas. Besides, she never talk to me on phone calls. So this is the best way to talk to her--face to face. Sacrifice is necessary in everything. I hope she'll come back and be understanding too. --------------------------------- Sunday, January 24, 2010 @ 11:52 pm [healthy day]
Today, after chr service, headed out to jurong west sports complex for a 2-hour session of badminton with the young adults! Boy! It's been so long since I last played badminton. Okay..not too long since it was probably last year june when I went with my MSE clique to Tampines. Haha. But aching slightly now and tired! But it was good fun playing and exercising and doing some sports :) I got to meet Ken's sister too and chat with her. Esp since she did a course that my sis is going into. So can ask her for more information. Also, to know her job nature :) After that healthy exercise, went home to shower before heading out to Alexandra Food Center for dinner with my family. And boy! The Avocado drink is superb! It's the best I've drank! Plus milk somemore. It was a big cup for $2. And my family ordered 1 cup after another plus 1 sour-sop drink. Nice! Super healthy and very nice to drink! This is the first time my family ordered so many drinks! Haha. It goes to show how nice that avocado drink is! So friends, lovers of avocado, check out Mr Avocado stall at that place! Hope to bring my friends there one day! It's near IKEA too. But driving there was scary. I never like to drive so far, for the first time, and on expressway :S --------------------------------- Saturday, January 23, 2010 @ 11:55 pm [speed-dating]
Yesterday, I was hearing it on radio that there's a valentine's speed dating event organised by class 95. Normal. Been hearing that alot from everywhere. But what caught my attention is the last sentence: "Strictly for serious daters only". Interesting! Haha. I began to think myself: Got serious daters nowadays meh? And how do you know if the person who go is serious or not? And the more they mention it, it gives me shudders about who would be there. Not that I'm planning to go and wonder who I'll meet, but rather, I think that by mentioning that last sentence, it gives the people the idea to go there and play-play. Scary... Speed-dating. I think it'll be super scary. I wonder who usually goes. The bold ones eh? And recently, I saw one interesting one. At butterfactory. How the guys will book a table and treat girls to drinks. They will look at any of the girls who are there and get the staff (called cupids) to intro the girl he is interested in. Then the guy gotta buy a drink for her (alcohol or non-alcoholic). And chat for a while. I thought this idea is interesting but it sure will make the guy broke. Haha. But still, the same thing, I think it's scary *shrugs* Oh well. Mine is still wait :) --------------------------------- Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 11:59 pm [FRIDAY!]
TGIF! Thank God It's Friday!! =) I was super happy that it's friday today. After getting back home after a day's activity, I was glad to return home and chill. Watch shows, go jog, enjoy the good weather, talk to friends and drive out to have supper with my family! It was great! I feel so good, so liberated, so much at rest. I guess, this whole week was really tiring for me. Mentally, spiritually and physically. I was tired. Dead tired. And my thoughts go hay-wire. Self-talk that gone bad. Not entirely cos I sleep late but every night when I returned home, I'm just exhausted by all the hustle and bustle of the day. And today, when I know it's the coming of weekend, I feel good. Really good. I know it's a rest time. A time designated by God for me to rest. And I thank God for this feeling. I thank God for this time. Yeah. So today, after the Bible study session, came home to watch tv. Then went to jog. The evening sky was so good! Just a pity I missed the sunset. At least I jogged a certain distance though short. It's been so long since I last jogged! After that, had a late and long dinner while watching the last episode of my HK series. Then, did my QT before heading out to Bukit Timah Market to have supper with my family. Of course, I drove! =) Everything was good but dad still dun let me talk while I drive. bleah. Nvm. I'll still do that! I love to talk while I'm driving! =) Makes me pay more attention on the roads! Had a good supper and time with my family. I sure love my Friday! And on another note, I'm glad the U-Flea market thing went smooth! Yay! Setting up a stall soon! And guys, check it out next wed and thu k? Support me! I'll let you know more details next time! =D So excited about it. First time doing something like this in NTU. A biz-like thing. Nice! As a leader, it does make me excited. I hope peers are too! For those of you reading this post now, let's make this happen! =) Oh. As I was doing my QT today, I reflected upon this question that asks me to think of what small role am I playing now that can be big in the future. At first, I said none cos most of the small roles I have previously played have all grown up already. But, as I think further, I'm small in my service at crusade. Esp the booking rep too. Super challenging and making me worried etc. I guess this is the small role that God can use. I wonder what's the bigger plan but I just have to trust in His plan and sovereignity. For now, it's a challenge that I'll gladly take and let God work in me through this ! =)) --------------------------------- Wednesday, January 20, 2010 @ 2:31 pm [updates]
Hmm. I think jazz music makes me sleepy. lol. Just like Wanting's mum. Haha. I just went to watch a free jazz show with Wanting at LT19 there. Well, it was good. At least I get to hear and see the famous Jeremy Monterio (hmm. don't know if i spelled his name correctly). Well, though jazz isn't my type (unlike john n wanting),I'll still company her to watch any free jazz concerts. As a form of exposure and to spend time with my best buddy! =) cheers! Well, it was also nice to see my cousin's, Wendy, wedding photo. I didn't get to attend but it was good. I wonder if I should add her husband on fb since I know his wife. But oh well. Haven't seen him in person yet so maybe not. And they went to Hawaii for honeymoon! Wow! So lucky and good! I also wanna go there too! At least I get to see pics first! Haha. Wish them a blissful marriage! =) Today, was my first lab in this sem. At least the TA was nice but it feels so weird and sad that I am now in a different group compared to last sem. At least I had Peter (who was late), Owen and Serene. It was good to catch up with serene too. I enjoyed her company! =) Okay. On a last note, I'm quite looking forward to going China for my IA under GIP (: It would be something different, new and hopefully good as I travel and all. But more importantly, to follow the GC. I gotta be very careful with my words and I'd better ask her for more advice too! Well, I just pRy and hope that I would have the courage and be sensitive to the HS about this whole matter. But I sure am looking forward to it! Esp studying in the uni there! I'll get the experience and exposure to how the students study there, the school system, the school building itself, the culture...it's going to be such an eye-opener. Hope Wanting can see this point too even though, academically, there is no point going there. But hey! there's more to clearing AUs in this! There is so much more we can do! And just like what *you* say in the email, it can be done through this period of time! Join me in GIP lah :P On a PS note, I think I'm really geared to E these days. It first started off when I started uni. The reason why I chose local uni over australia uni. This was the main reason that God impressed upon my heart. And I want to do it. To fulfil it. And I believe that being in crusade, it has fueled and helped me in this area of my spiritual life. To serve Him and follow Him fully in obedience in this area. I pray that I would be courageous and not be consumed by fear when I do so. Amen. Thank you God for crusade too! =) --------------------------------- Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 12:05 am [stuffs i learn recently]
I just came back from a seminar at St Andrews Cathedral! On Elijah: An ordinary man in extraordinary times. It was held over 2 nights but I missed last night for xroads. But I never regretted even just coming for tonight! It was awesome! It was good! I learned much and gained new insights! Thank God for a great speaker and a providence of a place even though I had to sit in another room and watch the live-telecast of it. Oh well. It was better than nothing. And blame me for eating so slowly. Lol. At least I managed to reach there at 730pm :) Went there with Isaac. It was nice to see him once again and talk to him too! Thanks for your company man! =) Hope you learned much too! I also met several other people: my CTSS frens, my BSF frens, my church friend and my crusade staff. Cool right? Can really hello-world already! I like it! I'm starting to like that term and really look forward to meet frens in big events like this. This is social networking man! Really cool! And can catch-up and find out where each other are at etc. It's nice :) Haha. But I know that after saying this, my frens will start teasing me again. Lol. Anyway, back to the sermon, out of the many important lessons I learned, one thing that strike me is that I have to get out of that cave, fix my eyes on God, focus on people around me whose needs need to be met, and reach the Elisha's and disciple them. This especially speaks to me when I've just had the worst semester ever and now facing the new one. I realised that I'm only half-half in my faith in God. I'm only half-hearted that this sem will be great and that I'm only one foot in with hope. I gotta put my whole legs, my whole body, soul and mind into it and believe that God will see me through! I gotta get out of that cave, go out to meet God and do what He wants me to do! To meet the Elisha's. Be it the non-Christians or the Christians (like the next generation of SMs), I gotta G-O, go! Lord, increase my faith in You. Knowing and beliving in the hope that doesn't disappoint me because of the love you've poured out into my heart through the Holy Spirit. Amen. Another lesson I learned recently through my Bible study on Luke is that Obedience isn’t a matter of rule-keeping but of faithfulness. I felt that this was pretty insightful as I've never thought of it that way. But I'm glad for this insight and I do agree with it. Faithfulness--that's the key. Else, rule-keeping will just be dry and meaningless. This is so going to change my perspective! For long I hope! =) Hope it brings a new dimension to your thinking! Oh yes! I forgot to mention that I'm just amazed at how I can stay so widely awake for 1 hour plus without sleeping during the sermon just now but barely awake during lectures in school. Lol. --------------------------------- Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 11:59 pm [first post in 2010]
Hmm. Yeah. I realised that this is the first post that I'll be writing here on my blog in 2010. Been busy and away that I couldn't blog. Well, writing this on 10-01-10. I like this date! It's cool! =) Anyway, back from my Taiwan trip. Can blog more about it with pictures soon. But not now. I guess, many of my fellow bloggers had reflected on 2009. It's good to read about it and to hear how their life have been then. And how they look forward to 2010. Many are excited. Aniticipating new challenges and hopes and dreams. As for me? I don't know. I did do my own reflection. After much reading and self-persuasion. Did it on my journal. But here on the blog? I won't write much I guess cos 2009 was bittersweet. It was sweet in the 1st half of 2009--with the jump in grades and being able to handle things well. But in the 2nd half, it was horrible. Studies wise, it was horrible. My grades drop super alot. And I'm so shocked and disappointed. And I did have trouble balancing things out and had to cope with much. Well, it did have sweet moments and I acknowledge & thank God for each one of them. But the bad side is not to be neglected too. Sigh. Oh well. Overall 2009 has been a trying year, a year of adjustments and a year of learning. Thank you God. As 2010 comes now, I'm surprised at how fast God has given me a verse to hold throughout the year. At least I hope I didn't read too much into signs. I'll change it on my blog skin soon! And I hope to stick ever closer to the verse of the year. I've already written it down! =) Tml I'm starting school already. Hmm. I'm not exactly looking forward though. Not like some of my peers. I'm quite scared, to say honestly. I am at a loss. That's why I'm scared. I don't know what to do, how to improve, what I can do better, what I should do, what I should change...I really don't know man. I don't seem to have much hope for the new sem. God, please grant me hope and help me to see You in all this. Fall afresh on me once again and renew my mind & spirit. Help me to see the eternal and not on the short-terms. Help me to run after You instead of the temporals and what everyone else runs after. Help me to fix my eyes on You instead of devoting all my energy on things that are not necessary. Yet, God, help me to fulfil my duty as a student too. Amen. --------------------------------- |