met shirley. was happy to see her else i'll have to call/msg her. was asking her which class she's in. hmm. 06s09. not far frm mine! tat's good! den most prob she n i will be in the same house. so i hurriedly tell her wad victor told me. abt the alliance n all to get elected into hse council. she n i wants to go in. n she gladly n readily accept it. great! hope we'll be in the same house den we can support each other n "promote" each other within our own circle of frens. really hope to get into house council! n sports club too! but...there is always this little fear in me. having gone thru disappointments n rejections frm acjc during jae n the rejection frm the pre-u seminar which i so badly wanted to join plus the very recent one on the National Science Fair in which my grp's proj was rejected..i was afraid tat history will repeat itself... hey sharon!! cannot cannot! u'd already given all this to the Lord! rmb? in the camp? one msg touched u...it was the one on david! psalms 23! rmb? it taught u one thing tat the Lord is your shepherd! n tat he's in charge! n rmb the verse the Lord showed u ytday for u to carry out thruout the year? Romans 8:28-29: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers" Yes! so dun worry sharon. muzn't worry cos u'd already given all these to God! n He will be your shepherd n things will work out for the good though it may not seems so at tat point of time!! rmb dear!

Okay. gave victor a small gift which i prepared. n i din manage to find the verse to write it down before i see him early in the morning. so only checked it out in the library during my break n hurriedly write it down before handling it over to him. n showed him Joshua 1:9. it was the verse tat i carried wid me thruout last year. showed him using the bible in the library. n he asked this qn: so did the verse helped? hmm. i couldn't answer. cos in my mind, all that i rmb of last year was wid my ex. it was lyk honeymoon? all the months passed very fast esp when i was wid him. tat's why it was the only impression i'd of last year. n in the process, i'd also lost touch n contact wid God which was very very bad. i learnt my lesson. n aft the break, i went back to God n felt a great change! it was totally awesome to be back on track n wid God again! n so now, i treasure all the time i'd wid Him. tat were the only 2 things tat i rmb abt last year. n this made me feel very regretful n guilty. i din exactly let the verse speak to me thruout the year. yes, i memorised it n rmb the reference clearly but...well, was reflecting on it jus now. well, it did speak to me a little. helped me calm down before every paper. it was a promise to be claimed! n yes, it did help. but majority of the year? sigh....oh well. it's over. jus hope tat i'll bear in my mind n in my heart the verse tat the Lord has given me in Romans 8:28-29. yes Lord, i want to claim on yr promise n draw strength frm you always! n never be afraid cos i know tat this life of your child here is n will be safe in your arms forever!

Was at the canteen n sitting wid the former s11 ppl. was so happy to see them! yeah! had a great catch up n i felt so welcomed n comfortable wid them! missed them lotz! n then, they spotted an eye-candy. a j2. the gals were talking abt it n trying to act calm n all. but obviously they can't. he was not bad looking la. they spotted the right guy. but i was jus shrugging the whole tot off. when i asked them whose eye-candy it was, one of them said it's everybody's eye candy. den i was lyk, "no, it's not mine" den one of them teased me n asked if victor was my eye-candy. er...seriously, i never believe nor talked abt eye candy n stuff lyk tat. hmm. call me a gal?? :P haha. it's jus tat i dun lyk to spot guys base on wad they look lyk on the outside. it'll only begins when i start toking to him n know him better n formed a frenship wid him. there's no point when the guy is handsome but the character is not tat good. i certainly dun wanna be frens wid him much less spot him wid those eyes :P No offence to those who do eye-candying!

today, pon maths gc lecture. go n study wid victor. hmm. i dun have much to study but nvm. sat down in the classroom n read my time mag. a good way to discipline myself to read the mag! surprisingly, i was interested in tat article. as in the time i spent sitting down there jus disciplined me such tat i'd no choice but to be interested in the article in front of me in order for time to pass fast. yup. good good. good for him n good for me! =)

toady all the lectures are boring. esp GP. the teacher down there on my left la. keep looking arnd n staring at the students. scary la. den cannot tok to praveen n jordan who are sitting beside me. den have to resort to the pri sch way of toking by writing messages on the paper. sigh. pathetic. but interesting. n toked to praveen a bit too. today, at gp, sat on the same row wid sufi, danilah, praveen, jordan n kamalesh. nice. but a bit weird. i was hoping to sit wid the gals.

today, toked to several ppl. at least now i can match face wid name. been staring at the names in my contact list but can't find out how the face look lyk. toked to yong hui, jordan, praveen (of course, my partner cg rep!), danilah, ruth (she's real friendly la. toked a while. cos on fri we toked a bit too. n this morning while queing up too), ming xian (finally noe how he looked lyk. he certainly do look lyk his dad n he's tall!), sufi, kevin, desmond (match face wid name only), joshua, kuan wei (tell u later how i met him!), shoban (one of them has asked me how he looked lyk. ha. so finally recognise his face), jannah (she's such a sweet gal! can tok n clique. she's nice!), weng san (finally match face wid name. or can i still rmb his face? lol), xiao wei, kamalesh. ya. tat's abt all. i noe there are many guy names but i'm not a flirt. definitely not. it's jus tat my class got many guys la. only 7 gals. but in any case, i wanna noe the gals more!! i hope to sit wid them tml during lectures or anything lyk tat. yup yup. din raise the suggestion tat i'd been thinking abt during the hols. will do it tml.

okay. abt kaun wei. was telling jordan abt it. aft i went downstairs to pass ansley the new timetable n the gift, on my way up the stairs, suddenly, a guy wid 2 other guys behind him stop in his tracks. i was shocked n felt a bit freaky. lyk he purposely stopped in front of me. so i wanted to run up the remaining flight of stairs when he stretched out his hand a bit n looked at me. i stared n squint my eyes n then i asked if he was kuan wei. yes. he was. n relief flooded over me (haha. so eng rite?). i tot wad will happen la. so freaky. haha. den he din even identify himself. he wasn't carryin a brown bag then n i forgot to notice any of my classmates who carry a brown bag. n besides, i was tokin to him on msn last nite n he can't show me any photo of his. so i really can't match face to name den. passed n showed him my maths notes. yup. tat's all. interesting encounter. n this further eradicate my point tat i believe guys shld make the first move. lyk in this case la. kuan wei din even identify himself which freak me out. haha. tat was the qn victor asked me jus now. whether i prefer guys to make the first move. haha. yes!

okay. tat's abt all i have to say. glad his gp n phys paper was alright today. he said he can score A for phys. tat's good! keep up the good work n confidence! n all the best for the remaining papers! conc ar!