hey. many things happened. firstly, on tue, there was one free hour before the chem lecture, so i asked the class to sit together n chat or sumthing. wanted to go caf but it was too crowded. so we went to the gallery. but when we went there, tot the ppl will jus tok among ourselves but we din. still in cloques n pairs which i dun really lyk to see yet. so i discussed wid ruth, jannah, alison n xiao wei of various games. so in the end, during that one hour, we played several games. double wacko. the tapping hand games (which made our backs hurt) n the psyho game (played only 2 rnds). but nevertheless, i'm very very happy tat we know each other names n we were more bonded aft tat on tat day. n we began to sit together during breaks on tue. though it was separated. cos we cldn't find a table big enuff for all of us? or it jus so happen to split. was wid victor in the cc for a while b4 joinin them for lunch. yup.

today was much much better. dun nid to play games to break ice already. we tried to sit together during one of the early mornin lectures but can't. once again, there ain't enuff space. yes. it was maths. so sat beside yong hui n he started complainin abt me being too formal. haha. am i? i jus lyk to say please n thank you. it's polite wad. isn't it? but during phys lecture, we were made to sit together. but ruth, alison, darren n jordan sat on another side of the row. sad. nvm. the nxt time they sat wid us.

during break, during the geog lesson break, i was super happy la! my class sat together again. this time, we found a table big n n long enuff. met victor first n couldn't find him in the lib. had to msg him. aft which, we went downstairs n he joined my class to eat. it was nice. he can cliqued well wid my classmates. tat's good. but i got alot of tease. tat's bad. i'm telling u, i'm definitely not dating him now. yup. so no more tease k? please? thanks!

after tat, went to join the former s11 ppl at the band table. at first, they din want me n victor to go over wan but i insist. let wei qin copy the geog notes n play Bimbo which also means Bingo. nice game. chin pin jus learnt it. n alicia wrote in her blog tat victor was a non-s11er. ahha. tat's weird but i tot he was kinda a part of us cos he kept playing games wid us. pictionary too. but we were all very tired n got a bit bored of tat game. ended up toking abt yi mei's handwriting. indeed, her handwriting is interesting. esp the "w". okay.

presentation skills workshop was good. interesting way of learning stuff. n though i was emcee for many events, i was still nervous n heart thumpin mad before i went up. grr. n went home wid vic n xiao wei. nice chat. but was quite sleepy. was quite worried when vic fell sick n feel giddy n all. hope he's okay now n that feeling wun come back. anyway, it was a nice evening.

tat's all. jus tat many things have been goin on in my mind. waiting. qns. temptations. confused or rather contradiction within myself. it's jus the old saying tat i've been telling myself: the mind is willing but the heart is not. it's so difficult to control yrself. sumtimes, i jus feel tired n tot of jus letting the whole thing jus engulfed me n do wad my heart says. dun care wad the consequences will be. dun care wad God will say. dun care. jus dun care. i'm tired. i'm really tired of being tempted time n again. i nid rest. i think i nid a break. yet, my heart doesn't want it. yet, i fear it'll send out a wrong msg tat i'm dao-ing. tat's kinda bad. but i dunno. i'm jus tired. sigh. lord, help me. pls tell me wad's the rite thing to do....