so i went to the library. actually, i din wanna borrow a book but i jus got attracted to the many titles laid before my eyes. so while browsing thru, i told myself tat if i wanna get a book, i muz get a thin book so i wun take long to finish them. hence, i chanced upon a book tittled "no missing parts". interesting. was abt princesses n all. so tot i'll jus allow myself to be a world of fantasy where romances n princes n all sweet things are present. sometimes, it jus brings u out of this world n into theirs which jus seems so perfect. in any case, i know there will be one such place waiting for me! yeah! but at the lib, i couldn't find any space so i followed one of the ppl n sat down on a floor. man. i was shivering badly. i was super cold la. freezing. was thinking it wld be nice if victor warmed me up. hee.

soon, he arrived n gave me a call. as i was in the lib, i din wanna tok very loudly for fear of getting caught. hung up the phone n msg him to meet me outside. ha. was feeling bad for making him go up the escalator only to go down again. anyway, brought him to the shop selling wallets n asked him to choose the design. initially, he wanted me to choose but i insisted on him telling me his preference of the front part of the wallet. as i'd seen the wallets previously, i roughly know which is the best one for him. so bought him the wallet n felt so happy. it is indeed nice to be generous n give someone something. comforting. glad it was of use to him. hmm. the purpose of giving him the wallet: to thank him for everything he has done! yup. thanks! n thank you Lord!

went to meet his cell grp frens n ate dinner. finally get to see how vanessa look lyk. elicia and damian was there. it was nice to see them. they are all nice ppl n they dun really mind me there. so friendly. but i dunno why i was quiet. not my usual self. i think it's cos i was scared. i had a bad experience last time wid valeria's frens. n so i was afraid this time round. sigh. now i regret not talking much to them. not being my usual self. i rmb last time when i meet new ppl lyk brandon n sylvester n pam's fren thru my inner circle of frens, i wld talk to the new ppl quite happily. hmm. i wonder wad's wrong wid me meeting new ppl who are not in my sch. shldn't be the case. cannot be lyk tat nxt time. i think the only barrier is dunno wad topic to tok abt. sigh. actually, it's more lyk an excuse. come on, sharon, u noe there are many things to tok abt. their cca, their sch, no of classes, teachers, sch building, subjs, their church...grr...these are the qns u used to ask them to start a conversation *sulk* regret... (sorry i was kinda toking to myself n replying my own qns in this para. i guess it muz have felt weird for u, readers)

anyway, he walked me out jus now when i have to return home. was telling him tat i so wished mum din give me a curfew. 830 leh. so early la. i would have loved to stay longer. his frens are so nice! n would love to play tat game wid them summore. but...grr. den when at the bus interchange there, saw ppl boarding the bus. so i tot of running aft it but not wid the big n heavy bag. wanted to go to the other bus stop, so victor n i walked a bit faster. i tot i cld catch it la. but i din. man. the bus moved so fast. so was also a bit worried tat i'll be late n tat i can't go out for dinner nxt time. tat was the punishment my mum set. but victor was nice. he waited wid me for the nxt bus to arrive. toked a bit there n was so tempted to take a taxi home. there was even a silver cab tat was parked in front of me for a while to count money or something. haha. anyway, bus came n reached home on time. yeah. but stupidly, mum's not home la. made me rush home till lyk tat. but my sis took timing. gave mum a call. so here i am.

oh! there was another thing tat happened today tat made me so so so happy. i was complimented by my piano teachers! steffanie said i played well. let me off on one piece though i din really expect to. i think i'm still gonna prac that piece n get my notes right. today, i played the 2 expressive pieces expressively! it was such a nice feeling! i flowed wid the music n allowed it to take me thru. er. more lyk "she". let me call the music a she. she was so nice la. i jus allowed my whole body to be massaged by her. let my body move together wid the music. was so nice. so long haven't had tat kinda feeling. it's one of the requirements for the dip exam anyway, body language. so learning learning.

but there was this one piece tat i still din play correctly. played so lousily. can't control my left hand. jus uncontrollable. so teacher taught me how to do it. play stacato but it's hard. sigh. tat piece will have to drag on for a while longer. i know.

as for the very very nice piece, i jus got a few touch-ups to do. the ornaments part. great! steffanie said she'll listen to it nxt lesson den it's off the file too! yeah! can't wait for tat to be off. den i'll feel a great sense of achievement! finally, i wld be able to master tat piece! i played tat piece expressively too. hmm. expressive is the only word i can think of now. let my feelings be led by the music. rubato n all. but overall tempo was slow. so i sped up n played tat piece for 3 times. but i find if i play the overall tempo faster, it's tough for me to be expressive. hmm. anyway, overall tempo fast isn't too bad. afterall, it's allegretto, which means slightly faster than allegro.

anyway, i was complimented by miss koh! i was super happy la! cos last time i went for the audition n she wasn't pleased with my performance. n when i see her after my lesson ended today, she said that i played one piece well. she almost thought that a teacher was playing tat piece! she said i'd improved too! wah! tat was a nice compliment! but it was also a bit too much a compliment! can't take it too seriously. if not i'll be proud n start to slack! muz strive for the better n the best! yeah! =) but she gave me 3 books. have to pay slightly over $100 for them! tat's super ex la! was so upset n so xin tong. the first thing tat came to my mind was i will share the price of the books. probably half. but jus rmb tat i run outta cash. grr. but still, i'll pay. can't have my parents paying them for me. n guess i'll jus have to work soon. perhaps i'll work at kumon. since they are advitising ppl to send their kids to the tuition centre, i'll jus volunteer myself to be markers. sigh. tat means extra work n less time to tok to frens n do own stuff. but wad to do? i really nid the money desperately. my piano fees are heavy. dip lessons plus the theory lessons that are goin to start soon! $100. grr. oh well. hope i can find a job soon!