arh...why my siblings all call me a study freak?? haha. oh well. jus laughing away anyway. for those who know me well n for myself, i know wad i'm lyk...tat's all tat matters. haha. n i'm NOT a study freak..not v nerdy!

watched the free esp show today at lunch hr. shirlyn tan and her band. awesome! her band and herself are totally talented and wonderful! played really well! was thanking God while listenin to them! right on! and i'm surprised tat jeremy and i have similar music sense..felt tat the fast songs were a bit rock but the slow songs were nice and we enjoyed it! =) ate in pastamania too. haha. n jeremy commented tat meals wid me are all the ex ones. haha. lyk in vivo thai express and now in PS pastamania. haha. well, was justifying saying tat i hardly see him so muz eat nice. haha. i think tat's crap. lol.

after tat, went to esp lib to study. surprised to see several JC1 SAJC boys. incl my fren. so hardworking. but it's time to be so since promos are nxt week. and surprised to see them studying in ESPLANADE! well. had a good time revising mostly alone since jeremy went nearby to make his specs. did maths paper 1. good job. but also tire me out. but it pointed out several concepts n formulas tat haven't gone into my head. so gonna work on them. muz reach a point where the formulas and concepts stay in my head non-momentarily.

jeremy met his fren there too. his name was reuben. so old frens catching up. happy for them. but they also got shush by a lady sitting beside us. dun lyk her. i think she's bias. lyk only shush at the students and not other ppl. bleah. then, jeremy n i were also toking abt scholarships and uni applications and SAT test!!!

yes! i haven't taken it! n i jus heard frm jeremy tat i nid to take SAT test in order to apply for scholarship. i dunno how true tat is but i'm goin to check wid cher tml. but craps la! missed the chance in june cos i tot i wun be able to do well enough for prelims and A's to apply for scholarship. ha. din trust in the Lord. boo. my desserts then. sigh. so yar. was trying to rush to apply for SAT now but, as usual, my mum was making noise and discouraging me. say tat in reality, i can't make it for scholarships. sigh. why can't she see tat one of the main reasons why i want the scholarships or bursaries is so tat my parents dun nid to pay so much for my fees. esp since i'm their first child. they still have another 2 kids and 6 ppl under one roof to feed...i mean, tot of jus doing my part. sigh. oh well. but i'm still going to be optimistic and dream and work towards it instead of being pessimistic lyk my mum. i mean, after all, these dreams will be placed in God's hands and whatever He wills it to be done will be done to completion.

HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL! saw the moon today already. bright. round. nice. lovely. and had a great QT downstairs near the moon too! one of the passages were good. totally led me to jus praise and adore Him. actually, it's God's Word tat had tat great impact! awesome! you are indeed worthy of all praises, invincible God! hallelujah!

to my boy. although u din do as well as u expected and u may still be upset by the time u read this, but i wanna tell u to press on and not give up. it's not the end. there's still a last lap to go. and i know u can make it. your sis know and believe firmly tat u can make it and do well. i know u have the potential. i nid u work harder k? really understand wad's being taught and to spend more time practising. of course, play a bit to destress but dun play until neglect studies k? and dun get distracted by wadever it is. focus and discipline. tat's wad my DP said to us a few weeks back =) finally, continue to pray and trust God alright? He knows wad u are going thru and He will see u thru this period. when u are weary and tired, turn and go to Him and He'll give u rest and peace lyk u never experience it b4. always submit all your plans n ways to Him. dun forget He is God! keep the faith and hope going! finally, a verse for you:

to end it off, khalis have been noticing tat i've been blogging alot lately. almost one for everyday. there is a reason. but i think it's not justificable. so i'm going to blog less now. gotta focus more on my studies. everytime i blog, i'll jus keep blabbering. there seems to be lyk SOOO much to tok abt. and everytime it takes up 45mins-1hour of my time and often more. n tat's bad. spending too much time on com. so i think i'm going to cut down alot and pretty drastically. i'll still be checking emails but perhaps not blogging...so to "someone", i guess u wun read things v often n wun have a good update here. tat's why i also tot of email-ing you cos i believe i have time to write emails. wun be blabbering in the emails lyk wad i'll do on blogs. and wun write so much but rather go to main point. plus, it's more personal and no one else reads wad i wanna say but u. besides, i always have to be careful of what i write on blogs...

on the last note, wad God taught me ytday was so relevant to me today. curiously compassionate. as christians, dun be so anxious (in the good sense) to know details of wad happen to ppl but also be anxious to show comfort and compassion to the person. dun jus want details but learn to comfort to reflect God's glory...