almost broke down in tears last night. actually, i had a little tears in my eyes last night before i slp. i was really hurt and upset. on one hand i was afraid of losing it. on the other hand, i was reminding myself to give it up to God--that He has the total control over this part of my life. yet, i jus felt sad. immeasurable sorrow. whether it comes jus thinking abt the future or jus thinking abt it now. till now, i dun have an answer frm you. i dunno wad's going on your mind now, like right now. i jus hope it can be resolved. well, it wun be easy if the negative outcome happens. yet, if it does, i wun fight nor argue with you. i jus wanna let you know that it'll be like a part of me that's taken out. and wadever comes, you and the memories we hold will always be part of me...

stayed up with sarah last night to do maths. together with reuben. till 1230am. she was quite piss with maths. but i'm glad after cooling down, she's better. and both of us can coach and guide her in the maths assignment. i wun deny that it's really alot. but i've been thru this road b4. there's nth we can do if it's due. jus had to sit thru to do the assignment. and i really wanna say tt sarah's fortunate. last time when i was at her age and struggling, i dun have a single person to sit beside me to check thru my work nor help me when i'm stuck. i often did them in tears till late at night. and now, sarah has 2 ppl to help her. be thankful to God yea? okay. hang in there for maths k? it'll be easy once you get the hang of it! love ya!

4 more episodes for the korean drama! last disc! ok. hope can finish fast. glad yi xian got a job as an art teacher. not only is his pay superb but he'll learn lots too wrt his art. congrats! muz treat me to dinner hor! and learn as much as you can b4 you enlist! :)

a big assignment tml...i wonder if i'll have the courage and if it's the right time! i hope i can find a right time tml. well, i wun exactly pray the perfect situation or smooth; no-argument situation but rather jus an opportunity and courage to at least tell him and share that with him. let him know. even mum says so. plus sunday's sermon! lord, if it's your will, let your will be done...