well, today was crazy yet nice and sweet. the decision i made at the end of the day despite all these is one that made me cry, even on the bus (and you know how much i hate to cry in public. very embarrassing). but the decision had to be so. i wish that i din have to hurt you like that...i really dun want to..but... sigh. i'm so sorry for making you go thru this... well, was talking it out to my fren abt this and this was mentioned: there is a "should not" in this decision and to follow her is to gain benefit for long term. i dunno how you and i will handle this..i'm especially worried for you..but i do hope we'll both move on. and for me to be more disciplined. nevertheless, i will rmb this day...not jus wad happened but more on who you are--understanding, caring and mature.

[recounting]

today work at kallang office was *whee!* today's shifting day. and very soon, all the cabinets were moved and the office starts to get very spacious. zw and i then found a big shocking thing! that the registry looks so much smaller than when there were shelves! i was quite surprised by that! the registry will always be the place tat i rmb..playing pictionary, taboo, chats, making boxes, packing...it's where we all really work hand-in-hand, interacted, hide-out and have fun! esp the fun part. haha.

so it was back to some shredding work. then, after a while, since jia wen and yichen were at summit, alvin, zw and i got bored n sian of the work. then, today being the last day of work, we decided to celebrate and give each other a treat by going bugis junction! yay! we've never been there b4 to eat since it's pretty far. then, we decided on japanese food and took some time to find a suitable restaurant. in the end, we took 1 hour to walk there, find the restaurant and order the food. haha. the food was nice! not tat expensive for the meal i bought..and definitely worth my money. but i wished jia wen and yichen were here joining us. then, it would really be a good gathering together...our total bill ended up with $70 plus...wah...alvin...eat so much and so expensive. haha :P jus joking..

so by the time we walked back to office, it was 130pm. so our lunch break was frm 11am to 130pm. haha. shocking but interesting. sigh. but can't earn the money for that. then, there was really nth to do. so read the motherhood mags so i wun nid to bring them home. read the mags with zw too. also fell aslp on the sofa. all 3 of us at different corners of the 2 sets of sofa. of course, b4 alvin left early, we took a photo tgt. put my hp on self-timer =) after alot of self-shots failed..haha. not bad la. the best i can get...

well, after that, zw and i stayed back to read more mags lyk Her World! he was alright with it. however, we got chased outta the office at 5pm..boo..lost one hour of pay again. cos they are going to lock the office, we had to leave. then, i suggested going out tgt since i got BSF in the nite and nid to wait till 6.15pm comes. zw was nice. he decided to keep me company and was all for the idea of going out! =) thanks, pal!

so, while deciding on the place, i suddenly rmb khalis saying that he needed his SCDF officer rank. so since i'd the time, zw and i popped down to beach road to find it. and after such a long walk, we finally reached. and the crazy thing was that when we finally found a shop that sells the rank (which is hard to find), the aunty refuses to sell to us! saying that she has packed it into her closet and she was closing shop already! man! i was super...argh...we continued walking on but still can't find...why the aunty dun wanna sell after i begged her?!?! grr. okay. but anyway, took down the shop name and unit number. so khalis can go there himself to get it. sorry man! din manage to get it for you!

and along the way to beach road, was talking to zw abt the bmt stuffs...so scary and sad lah. really worried for my bro. i hope my bro dun nid to be takan-ed by the sgt until lyk tat or go thru such vigorous training! i hope my bro will be fine leh...really hoped so.

so i'd bsf jus now. first lesson. it was good. nice. met le jing for dinner. was so happy to see her! and catch up with her.then quickly got down to wad i wanna share and discuss with her...i was glad she was there to advise me and be there to listen to wad i have to say as well as my struggles. so i ate the dinner hurriedly in 20mins! shocking. and i also met juilian..the ACTS baptist chr guy tat le jing and i met at the youth camp last year! haha. quite cool!

so BSF first mtg was not too bad. hymns. awesome. then, separated into grps. my leader's name was geraldine. though the first lesson, intro class was a bit rigid and quiet, but when it's time to pack the chairs, it's when we start toking to each other on our own! and it's the really fun part cos it's spontaneous. and i realised tat i was the youngest there besides this other gal who's 19 years old too. all the rest are either uni year 1 or uni year 3. one of them is working too. haha. oh well. i volunteered to be an usher! yay! so did le jing! hopefully we'll be on duty on the same day so we can have dinner together still!

i was also thinking about playing the piano for BSF. i'm still thinking about it. on one hand, i wanna use this gift tat God has given me to serve Him in this area. on the other hand, i dunno if i'm up to it. i dunno the expectations and if i can meet them. looking at the current pianist jus wows me cos he plays really well! awesome-ly well! and i wondered if i nid to do so too. well, was toking to one of the gals in my grp cos she played the piano last year for BSF and she was saying that it isn't that tough. she was telling me not to be intimidated by that pianist cos he may be a professional *wow* Okay. so maybe i'll consider again...

today's lecture was intro to the bible, gospels and Matthew. and one thing that hit me most was that God does not make mistakes in His Word. that is to say tat wad was written on the book is true and not wrong. so...follow it, Sharon. tat was wad was whispered to me by the Holy Spirit there and then. and so it hit me quite hard esp in the situation i was caught in. guess tat's the big push to my decision....

okay. back-tracking a little, i met zw's sis today. 3 of us took the same bus. and she alighted at NJC. was glad to finally be able to see her and tok to her since zw mentions alot abt his sis. though she was a bit quiet but if i do get a chance to see her again n tok to her again, i have hopes that we'll be able to tok more! :)

going forward... tml reporting at summit..at JE there. finally somewhere near to my hse. hopefully can meet zw on the bus again! after tat, got band prac at nite. i hope i can get all the scores in time!!! okay. i'm tired and sleepy. shouldn't be sleeping too late either...nitez! i hope *you* will get a rest tonight too...