well, was talking to my parents about the australian universities i was being offered over dinner. first, i talked to my mum. then my dad joined in later. my mum was very frank. questioning me on why i want to go, if i really want the course i was offered etc. one thing she said made me really sad. i'm very upset that i have to suffer for what he is doing. it's totally unfair and upsetting. why should i reap what he sow? it denies me of my dreams, my chances, my goals. i worked hard for it. he isn't doing so currently. so why should i let him? sometimes, i end up questioning myself why am i in this position. many times, i wish i never am. the amount of sacrifices, the responsibilities i have to fulfill, do they ever take note nor know? and i can't believe that the chinese traditional mindset of "investing in a girl is a waste" would ever befall on my mum =(

and it really doesn't help that a particular love song keeps playing in my head.

i wish things will be as i wished