Yesterday, suddenly Khalis asked me out for dinner. was quite surprised yet happy. it has been some time since we last went out and some time since we last talked. i was just about to call him up too. so i'm glad we cld meet up that night for dinner!

And boy! I tell you! it was so fun hanging out with him...like the old days.. laming and joking around. teasing each other and the ppl arnd us. esp with the "am i suppose to eat the ice-cream with my finger" and the "hang-ten". lol. and until now, we still can't rmb the 2nd joke of the day.

well, we ate at Swensens since i didn't get a chance to eat it in the afternoon for lunch. i didn't know that Swensen's fish and chips were the same price as Fish and Co! and the size of fish at Fish n Co was much bigger! and worst of all, i din know that khalis wanted to eat at F&C. oops! so in the end, he ordered the fish meal on promo but he din eat the brocoli! and it was one of his first few times eating potato? i guess. so in the end, he was hungry still. make me feel very bad...so he ordered ice cream and fries. and he finished all of them! woohoo! well done! well, i didn't expect that dinner that night cost me $21. wow...very expensive...

over dinner, laughed, chatted, caught up. it was so nice..i totally enjoyed myself! was so myself that night and jus spent it without the word "work" in my mind. we were such lovers of tata sauce that all in all, we used 4 containers for our meal! haha. look at the picture below! if you can notice, there is a motorcycle helmet at the background! yups! he jus bought his helmet! suave! but of course, at the back of my mind, i knew there was something unsettled. and i need to settle that night.

after dinner, shopped around. and as usual, people shopping with me tend to get stuffs even though i was the one who dragged them out for shopping. so he bought a pair of jeans at a reasonable price and a chicken soup book (again) while i bought only a bookmark. but hey, i've been looking for a bookmark for a very long time..for Leo. anyway, i'd an enjoyable time that night. it's so fun and nice to catch up with frens. really had a good laugh amid all my gloomy days...

yes..recently, i keep getting hit by waves and waves of doubts. i was thinking if it's the devil's work or a cycle of depression or a test from God. but all i know is that to deal with this, i need to build a stronger spiritual pattern. i need to stand strong together with the Lord and fight this away. i can't keep crying every night, like wad i had been doing. nor can i keep feeling lousy and down and listless. i musn't feel inferior but stand up strong under this. Lord, i need your grace and mercy to lead me through this period of time. just as how you, in your mercy, led Lot and his family away from the destruction of Sodom in the past. learnt that today...

okay. anyway, here, i wanna say thanks to Khalis for your company yesterday! =) cheers!

i can't wait for *you* to return and have a day out with *you*..