sigh. looking at Khalis' post really makes me think of my feelings. it so reflects mine too. or at least similar. sigh. well, i must say that Khalis is good at writing this kind of poem style! Keep it up!

sigh. is this the end of everything? Must things end this way? Have I lost him completely and vice versa? I don't know. Someone said that it's better for him to have the float taken away and have him swim on his own than to give the float and let him hang on. But I don't know. He's not doing good. I know that. I really wish I can do something.. So is this the end?

And now, i'm faced with another prob. currently, mum doesn't want me to stay in hall next year. which is very sad cos i simply LOVE my hall mates! So that's why, I tot i had better give the JCRC post to someone who needs it more. cos being in JCRC meant a guaranteed place in hall or so I heard. But jus now, I hear many of my OG frens are signing up for the JCRC posts or at least block managers! It makes me excited too! Then, a thought came to me that I should sign up for the post not for the hall placing nxt year but out of passion and your ability to serve and lead a grp....wad do you think?

well, i don't want to be the head but i don't mind assisting the head. I jus don't wish to strain any relationships with ppl in my term of office (if I'm in). that's the last thing i want. well, i was VERY inspired by Kenny and wad he said. he's in JCRC as a social secretary. the roles and duties he did were great! similar to council. so i thought of using my experiences and skills as a hse com member to support my leader. and planning events is nice! My type and my style...I enjoy it...hmm. but campaigning will still be there. so i wonder how this will go... I just want to pray hard that I won't strain any relationships. I just don't want history to repeat. sigh. i'm confused now...

I really wonder how you are going on now. I haven't heard from you for the past 3-4 days. You were really serious and never contacted me. Neither have I. But everyday, I ended my diary entry with questions about you. Where are you? What are you thinking about? Do you really think you've lost me? Forever? I really wish I can say no but I don't know if saying so will give you any false hopes or make you even more upset and confused. Although we are not talking now, I do wonder about you. Sigh. Do you see this as a sign that I'm not lost forever? I don't know. Maybe the future will be different from wad we hope and dream of it to be. Whatever the case, the future isn't ours to worry and spend excessive thinking on. Present is what we should treasure now...