quite an interesting set of emotions. don't u think so? well, that's what I am feeling now. been quite busy. have always wanted to blog but no time. though I have the laptop in my room and can access the internet better, i still din find the time to blog much less type emails to ppl. unless they are really urgent ones like my group project ones *leaves to send an impt email again*

phew. thankfully I remembered. well, yes. busy. REALLY busy. like seriously busy. got study but just meet the bare minimum. only on my study day, thursday, do i get to really go more in-depth and read textbooks and catch up with lectures. yeah. like the thur that jus passed was well-spent though i could have revised my maths instead. poor planning.

well, i have MANY tests coming up.in the span of 2 weeks, i have 5 tests. nxt mon--maths, nxt wed--sound, nxt nxt mon, tue and wed is management, life sciences(oh man! I'm so going to die! i'm only stuck in lecture 1 for revision :S) and phys respectively. I think i'm going to die in phys. i heard the lecturer sets the CA crazily. super hard one. but during exams, it's easier. oh well. so i dun want to let the phys CA discourage me! but still, don't worry, i'll still study. can't be getting zero for it rite? but at least try and give my best...

yes. i hope i can pass the sound one well too. but no doubt, it's phys again and i always have problem with concepts. hope i can do well though. that's the whole point on why i desperately took up this Sound elective.

time management. this 2 big words pops out to my head when i think about the coming 2 weeks. it won't be easy. if i pass my interview (which i wonder if they have) for the sub-comm in social events in hall, i'll be involved in the coming 2 weeks for the planning of a mid-autumn celebration. it'll be held in my hall. and wad do i have in the coming 2 weeks also? CA!!! and it's counted to my final grade. and in the meantime, within these 2 weeks, i have to study and revise for my tests. man. thinking about it makes me scared. on top of it, i have my other commitments. the usual, God, church, family, frens, tuition (put i don't feel so much pressure now compared to last time), BSF + DG, youth camp, leading cell in Word (this i gladly volunteered. i'll give my best. i'm not regretting taking it up). but i know that meetings for the MAf will take a lot of my time. well, at least my leader is someone who has been in social comm before (i guess). so i will be under a capable leader. i hope.

sigh. but still, i'm scared. afraid. i hope i can cope. somehow, i took these challenges upon myself. somehow, i began to like challenges. pushes me. but i really hope that when i fall, i won't be alone. i know the usual saying: frens are there. family is here. most imptly, God is Immanuel--God with us. But somehow, there's the weaker flesh in me that creates a sense of fear. i know to turn the Bible. I will do that alright. i still journal. so it guides me in my thinking and helps me communicate to God. besides, in my journal, verses are everywhere. so are past experiences.

well, for the physical aspect, i really hope my frens will be there for me when I'm down. I've told Cher Lin (my roomie) and Le Jing. They're such lovely ladies! And I'm glad Le Jing is there so i can share more and know I'll get godly counsel. I've only updated Jeremy. Yet to tell him my fears and for prayers. And yet to tell Khalis. Pal, if you are reading this, i'm sorry you have to know this before I tell you from my mouth. I'll be sure to elaborate more than wad I've written here and really go deep in telling you wad i'm thinking ok? you are definitely more privileged than my blog cos you are my trusted and beloved FRIEND!

oh well. plus on sat, 6 sept, which is today, i have D&D. My hall's one. i wonder if i shld stay on till late (midnight). cos i really do wanna hang out with my frens. but i think there's chr tml, so wun stay up till late. besides, i nid the energy and strength to study on sunday. mm. but i'm pretty excited! Theme: Pink. but i'm dressing in black and bought a pink shawl to wear. we also got zorro masks for all of us to wear tml! It's our identity to show we belonged to Zorro group! Way cool! =) i'm happy that i can dress glam again. haha. very happy. it's not all the time that i get to wear those nice dinner dresses that i bought. Well, hope i can post my pic up on the blog someday!

and i'm going for another glam dinner *YES* OCS social night dinner. thanks zhen guang for inviting me! Hope it wun be too awkward though! So, there you have it! Activities lined up! Now you know why I keep sighing, tired and stressed. yeah. thinking stress is building up. sigh. well, by God's grace I will survive. And doing the DG material (another Bible study), though it was back-to-basics again, i felt very much comforted by the fact that God will never leave me nor forsake me once I have Him in my life. Thank you Lord for reminding me again and giving me this assurance.

"God has said, 'Never will I leave you' never will I forsake you'" Hebrews 13:5b

and yes, thanks for letting me be able to join a DG grp finally. had a really hard time. though i can only stay for one hour now, but i was good. i get to meet more girls and share in the discussion and learn! Yes, i do learn. mm. but i muz learn to humble myself too and not think so highly of myself!

thank God for cell group today. bernice leading. either the 1st or 2nd time she's here in cell. yay. thank God. and thank God i had the chance to lead in the Word 2 weeks from now. and for Jeremy being newly appointed as the cell group leader. i really wanna commit him to God in prayers. I'll be here for you to help you out too, brother! though i wonder if he'll read this post. but never mind. a reminder to myself too.

oh yar. i just downloaded a daily Bible passage gadget to my laptop desktop! It's way cool! I even helepd Jeremy to download it jus down after cell! I felt it was very useful and helpful. It changes everyday and everyday, when i have internet access, i really look forward to seeing what God wants to speak to me through His Word. And the other cool thing is that there's even a small devotion section where a prayer is written. And on one occassion, it really speaks right into my heart. it totally reflects my situation and utters the prayer of my heart. way cool! So i hope it'll bless and encourage Jeremy! And maybe, if possible, I'll do it to my Christian fren's laptop too! Hee. Well, this is aother reminder then...of God's faithfulness and love and ever-presence!

okay. close to 2am already. I think I'd better go! Hope I'll have an enjoyable time tml in D&D! And studying in the day time too. sorry I can't watch movie with you Khalis! Gotta study. more impt. hope you'll understand. soon soon nxt week!