well, here's my plan for december:

8-11dec--youth leaders camp at Austin Hills, Malaysia
12-15dec--family vacation in Phuket, Thailand
18-20dec--youth camp 08 at Singapore Vision Farmstay (planning it as an overseer)
21dec--Christmas Service + Baptism (wonder if I'll be playing or not, if so, band prac has to factor in)
25dec--Christmas Day
29-30dec--2-day Campus Crusade North Ministry Event (helping out in planning prog)

well, also to factor in is My Hope Singapore which I hope I can make it though by the looks of the dates of my family hol, it seems like I wun be in Singapore. Hmm. But I really wanna be part of this nation-wide movement! Plus, to spread arnd, MEETING UP WITH FRIENDS! Events are events, it's my frens and spending time with them that matters the most! Esp those that I'm not going to meet during these events. Also to spread arnd is watching performances! I definitely dun wanna miss performances at esp during the dec hols! plus, i haven't write the IHG events plus Annual Camp.

to be honest, the AC and IHG are the lowest on my list. I mean, comparing hall and chr activities, chr takes more priority. What I'm afraid though, to be honest again, is that they dun crash with any of my activities. Then, I'll be in a dilemna if I should participate or not. If I do, it would mean i'm packed PACKED and health will be at risk. Well, I do want to go for AC cos it'll be like a hall camp--can know my hall mates better. And i do enjoy suppporting in games like IHG. But...sigh..I just don't want to get myself sick or stressed up...

super packed dec uh? And it's only October and I got my dec planned out! "good job", Sharon. Busy woman uh? don't really like the idea that things are so rigid and packed and planned. I mean, it's good to have my dates booked and marked out early. But i really want to spend this hol to do my own things--meeting up with frens, catching up on BSF...and i would need flexible time. Sigh. To my frens who have plans to ask me out, to meet me up to catch up, don't get frightened by this schedule of mine! you know my heart--i really want to spend time with you and just talk to you. so just ask. i'll be sure to find a time. and i'll definitely put in the effort and the initiative to ask you out!

well, the last activity on the list, 2-day event, was one that i took up recently. I got a phonecall this afternoon to be part of a 3-man team to plan the prog. I was surprised that I got the invitation. I told him, ee fai, that i wld consider. But I didn't take long. I felt a very strong impression from God to go for it--to serve Crusade in this area. From reading QT material to John 21 (the cell grp Word that I shared) to thinking and praying, I just felt God was asking me to go and have faith in Him to lead me through. Yes, indeed, it's a step of faith. Just look at the commitments that I have this dec frm all those activities! firstly, when I'm overseas, it wld mean i can't meet up with the team. secondly, i'm involved in planning for youth camp 08, hall FOC, prob CNY planning and christmas service...so many planning things...so taking this other one on was really mm-mm.

well, but i have faith. i believe that God has given me this opportunity. i was even talking to my mum abt it and she gave me her blessing and encouragement. well, i'm not very involved in crusade this year cos of my BSF that crashes with Crossroads. so i'm not tat close to the ppl. but i hope thru this event planning, i can know them better and it's just one way i can serve them. besides, i really do want to be involved in crusade. and hopefully, thru this event, i can assimlate better esp when i'll be joinin them at crossroads nxt year onwards! =) another thing that led me to believe that God is moving me in this direction is that it somehow seems like God planned it for me to be involved in planning. well, given all my experiences, planning is the area i can serve best in. and He gave me this opportunity. hmm. well, i did tell ee fai all this and hope he doesn't mind my pack schedule! hope wen chian will work alongside with us!

Well, to end this post, i just want to echo this prayer: Lord, please help me through December this year. It's really very packed. Can be quite stressful. And Lord, to be honest, just looking at it now really scares me. Really makes me afraid, weak. I want to depend on You, Lord. I pray that you'll grant me strength and good health and fight off any spiritual battles especially when I go for the leaders camp and the youth camp. May these events written down and those yet to be, be vessels for your love to spread. Use me during these events to reach out to people in any way you want me to. Help me to focus more on You and the people rather than the event. I pray that I'll still keep in contact with my friends during this period. But more importantly, I commit this December to You. Use me as You know best. Amen.