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Friday, November 28, 2008 @ 11:17 pm [deprived]
today, my family went to haagen dazs for ice cream and i didn't get a chance to eat any! all because of my toothache!! it's so painful! ahh..n it's making me eat very slowly and i can't take too hot or too cold drinks/food :( so i'm stuck staring at the ice cream in front of me, trying a little here and there, that's all. can't try any :( and it doesn't help that I can't get a dental appt soon enough unless swelling appears or severe pain. the earliest is probably in janurary next year!! ahh!! i'm so "under-priviledged"! grr. heal me! and i want a dental appt soon pls? okay. this morning went for softball training and the soles of both of my shoes came out. bleah. quite sad and cui. well, but at least training today was something new and okay. but i jus felt my physical stamina isn't good. so i left the sport though. quite sorry to yik ying... so i rested for a while before heading home. went to help out at the Children's prog at Cashew Heights! it was nice! i'm glad i went to offer my help. i really enjoyed it. reminds me of the past, my childhood, who i used to be. the oh-so-familiar feeling is comforting. to be able to render my service and help. and i noticed i've changed too. instead of jus waiting to be instructed, i took the initiative to see the need and act upon. thank God for grooming me n helping me grow in this area! Managed to talk to Jun May and Citirine a bit. Also, helped the children in building the eagle woodcraft. it was fun...been some time since i've done such a job. well, not a wasted time (: toothache is still there and not getting any better :( HAPPY 21ST WEDDING ANNIVERSARY MUM AND DAD! YOU SURE COME A LONG WAY! GOD BLESS YOU! why do i have a difficulty in letting go? it's so hard to move on. it's so hard to put it behind me. very hard not to let my thoughts wonder and question myself. i'm no longer asking myself if i did the right thing but rather how's he doing and feeling...when will i move on? --------------------------------- Wednesday, November 26, 2008 @ 11:39 pm [Cinderella]
Today i was Cinderella. Not that I suddenly had a fairy godmother or had a pumpkin carriage, but I was scrubbing the kitchen with a sponge and cleaning all the dirty parts of it. cleaned the corners and was on all fours to scrub each tile on the floor. not to forget the cupboards. doesn't that remind you of Cinderella where she has to do these household chores? yeah. I felt so much like her. thankfully my mum recognises the work. oh. she was the one that told me to do so anyway. well, glad to complete it in 1.5hours. and mum said it's not bad. but it sure is back-breaking. makes me think if i shld do the same thing to my house nxt time. bleah. it sure is going to be tiring. to have to do it for the nxt half of my life. unless my husband puts in the effort to recognise my work, i think i'll prob hire a cleaner to clean the kitchen or paste some paper at the corners so i can jus take it off and throw it away when it's dirty. haha. some lazy man's idea but it sure is depressing doing it alone! looking at this thing in this perspective makes me think when I'm going to meet my prince. makes me sad too. making me more emo than i already was at the start of the day. yeah. this whole day i was super emo. i was very sad. i really felt like crying and crying my heart out. riding on the bike and spending time with khalis was nice nonetheless but it still made me sad. i din feel any better. i really din expect nor wish for things to turn out this way. i tot it wld be fun and nice. i tot we cld have a good celebration and a good christmas and a good closure to this year. but this year marks the start and end of it. why? why muz it be like that? i really dun understand and didn't expect so. i'm sad. and i'm guessing that he's probably not going to read this nor entertain anymore of me. and it sure didn't help that my tooth still aches. that it hurts even more though. even after i'd taken painkillers. it hurts alot. i went to see the dentist jus now and my mum who was present kept asking the doc abt root canal therapy and suggesting it. man. if only she doesn't mention it, then, perhaps there can be other treatment? the dentist was nice lah. he was gentle with me and assures me well. he said that my nerves are either dead or dying. so that's why it's painful. ahh. root canal therapy. did a bit of checking online jus now. below this para is a graphical explanation of the treatment. mum says it's going to be done over 3 appts! that means 3 injections! it sure is going to hurt and i totally dun like injections! I hate pain! hate injections...for now, i really hope the pain in my tooth will subside. it's really painful :(
As i was doing my QT jus now, one qn that was written in the material made me think: what attachment to this world do you struggle with the most? My answer: an attachment that I need to have a life partner. The text for this is Heb 11:8-16. The main focus is to remind us that we are pilgrims on the journey to Heaven. And in heaven, there is no husband and wife and that earth is not where you permanently reside. I am jus passing by, fulfilling the purpose God calls me to do whether I am to do it alone or with a partner. Yar. Eternity... --------------------------------- @ 12:10 am There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.
Proverbs 23:18 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways" declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."
--------------------------------- Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 9:35 pm [toothache]
AHH! I have a toothache!! So painful! jus now. now it's better. subsided. but dunno if i shld get it treated. the dentist did warn me on my previous visit that if i dun do anything about it, the tooth will die and it can cause toothache. so here it is! suffering the pain. but i really dun like the pain. i dun like the pain of the injection needle. it's very painful :( I really dunno wad to do. the worst thing is going to the dentist alone. sigh. i always have to go see the doc and dentist alone...wonder when will i have a company... on the other hand, i wonder if i made the right decision. never heard frm him since yesterday morning. i wonder if he's angry at me. i wonder if he's hating me for going against his request. and i wonder if i did wad was best for him and us. wondering... --------------------------------- Monday, November 24, 2008 @ 10:32 am [simple celebration]
so i went out with Khalis last night. quite unexpected and last minute. but anyway, I was free and wouldn't reject a ride on a bike! haha. dunno what's wrong with me and bikes. i kinda love riding on bikes and the thrill of it. nonetheless, the company is even better--to know that i'm with my good friend and can chat by meeting face-to-face instead of on the phone (cos i did have plans to give him a call if he doesn't ask me out). so he picked me up at 930pm and we headed out to Great World City while riding through Orchard because I told him I wanna see the christmas decos. Hmm. I was quite daring and took out my handphone camera and took photos of the decos while on the go. ha. he wasn't riding that fast. so took quite a number of shot you won't take when u are in the car or even walking along the streets. and suddenly i feel how the tv reporters and filming feels. nice. then headed down to Great World where we try to find a parking lot. all the carpark inside the shopping mall don't allow bikes. so had to park at the HDB there. free parking. thankfully. walked arnd to see what shops are still opened and in the end, chose to sat at Mcafe and drink our hot chocolate and eat brownie. so had a good chat over there. but sigh. my mood did get spoiled just minutes to sitting down. i wished it never happened though. i had so much to tell khalis and was on all-smiles. but some of these things jus got forgotten when the prob hit me. i'm not blamin the person. jus saying my opinion and feelings. don't confront me or approach me regarding the sentences i had jus said. nonetheless, managed to talk a bit n update a bit. and i realised it's a double celebration! one for my end-of-semester and the other for his passing of interview! the latter meant a secure job for 2 years after graduation frm uni, all tuition fees covered, allowance throughout the year and also no-failing of any modules. yay! so khalis will be a very hardworking and smart guy right? not failing any modules and keeping the spirit up! I'll be here to support you and make sure this becomes a reality! =) no worries! so reached home at arnd midnight. thanks for the ride and the night-out! =) i had fun! and a good catch-up! Well, I just want to say that it's time to move on. the current situation now is really not good for that person and i. a clean break is good. though it's sad but it muz be done. and i guess, through this, it goes to show jus how immature we both are. move on. let go. --------------------------------- Friday, November 21, 2008 @ 11:36 pm Two phrases to leave on my blog:
Don't bring the past into the future Effort does not co-relate to outcome. Physics doesn't apply to humans. Well, jus calculated my driving bill and it amounted to $3.8K. Now, that's ALOT. Sigh. Oh well. What a price to pay for getting a driving licence uh? Hopefully this skill will last forever in me! Went out today with peter, lester, jue xuan and wan ting. Later on, john joined us (more like the rest). Went to vivo city and shop. brought lester to a restaurant and he ordered oxtail stew! amazing! he let me try some too! nice. not bad. but i wld not order it on my own. but still, it's recommended since he really enjoyed himself and they give 3 LARGE pieces of meat! haha. Then jue xuan and peter came and join us towards the end of our lunch. so we walked arnd. went to the gift shops. look see. quite a unisex thing cos the concept of the shops were good and unique. we enjoyed ourselves and joke arnd. gotta know jue xuan more too! =) peter is really lame too. haha. then, wan ting joined us later. some interesting things that happened:
well, i wld say, THANK GOD for my uni frens that i made here! new frens that I made in this semester! =) they are really nice ppl and glad that i have a grp of christian frens too! namely john peter wan ting and myself. perfect 4. ha. thank God! =D i enjoyed those times when we prayed b4 our exam papers! =)) will do reflections on the semester another day. it's right and timely. since yesterday marks not only the end of exams but the end of my first semester in year one. well, sounds very serious but hey, i really do enjoy reflecting! and i think it's good to reflect and just give thanks to God for all that He has provided and seen me through :) till then, ciao! take care! --------------------------------- Wednesday, November 19, 2008 @ 12:13 am [God's Word the Bible]
Chanced upon these verses and the devotional write up on them about the Bible. So writing them down here. No offense to my non-Christian frens! I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.
The Bible will transform our lives
More precious than gold is God's Word to me
The treasures of truth in God's Word are best mined with the spade of meditation The Bible: Know it in your head, Stow it in your heart, Show it in your life, Sow it in the world --------------------------------- Saturday, November 15, 2008 @ 10:07 pm [in reply to my tags]
to Zhiwen and anonymous: haha. having a debate on my blog? nonetheless, thanks anonymous for your opinion! With regards to what you've said, I also noticed you used the word "should" and aptly so. "Should be happy" implies that it ought to be done. But in the matters of heart, I feel, it's easier said than done. I'm not denying that it can never be possible but it certainly takes time. I ought to be happy for that person, yes. but it'll take a while. Also, to me, I agree with the quote cos it's about letting go once the one I love starts to get attached/attracted to another. So the letting go part is hard in any love relationship...so it's the hardest thing in love or at least one of the hardest thing in love... [recount] studying today was okay. studied whole day at home alone. quite sad la. but no choice. didn't feel like going out to study. not too bad. took a 5-10 min break every hour so i didn't fall aslp. cooked my own lunch. i love cooking! it's fun! but i also made a mistake by cooking the carrot without peeling off the skin. ha. jus dump it into the pot of noodles. lol. nxt time i know wad to do. ha. but well, this time, really thank God for lunch! hope i'll have more chances to cook in the future! =) drove back home jus now at night. my first time driving at night. man. i'm really lousy at driving leh. i dunno why i anyhow drive when i'm driving my dad's car. din slow down enough, sharp turning, almost hit kerb, too near left/right side. bleah. i'm so bad lah. i wonder how i pass my driving test. ha. i guess i'm either nervous or too excited when i drive my dad's car. ha. i muz learn to stay calm and drive carefully!!! funny dream last night. dreamt that i taught Leo phase diagrams! haha. fyi, phase diagram is a topic in my Material Science module! funny lor. ha. teaching a P3 kid my uni module! lol. okay. had a mtg today. glad it went well and good. hope uncle clarence dun get so stress up. den had dinner at uncle joseph's hse with the whole family. gotta spend more time with the family, talking to uncle joseph, aunty may, ben and matthew. esp matthew who sent me out and had a good chat with him. been a long time since i last chatted with him. and was totally shocked and amazed at the workshop tat ben has in the hse! amazing! i love the way uncle jospeh taught ben something over dinner! he's such a role-model father! i wish my husband can be something like that too! haha. but i guess it muz really come frm the heart. can't be learned after watching good examples. ha. and aunty may is ever nice and encouraging. she served us apple tea in a delicate turkey cup she bought recently! i totally love it! so cute and pretty! nice! =) thanks hon-family for the dinner! =)) here is an image of the turkish cup i got from the net! :)
--------------------------------- Friday, November 14, 2008 @ 8:57 pm [reflection after 1st week of exams!]
okay. So my first week of exams has jus ended today. Today was physics. Wednesday was Maths. Well, was quite sad that Maths ended early. Despite the rushed preparation and a more in-depth study of the maths topics, I still love maths. I still enjoy the thrill of facing challenging qns and trying to solve them. It's quite sad that maths for this year has come to an end already. Well, Maths 2! Here I come! (in next semester). Phys today wasn't so good. I'm not that optimistic about it. I think, after moderation, I'll still be borderline :( and I hope I'll be on the other side of the borderline--the borderline pass! I really hope I pass this module and not repeat it...oh man..i can't imagine if I have to repeat this module..it's going to be extra load and I wonder how i'll cope and if i can pass even on the nxt try..oh no..please please let me pass...oh man..okay...my imagination running wild and i know wad zhiwen will say: don't think abt it tat way! haha. and khalis will say it too... (: thanks pals for sticking by me and being arnd last night when i was low and down and unmotivated. well, after the first week and reviewing the exams, I see the good and bad side of this kinda module system. Yes, it's very different from the normal exams that I had been trained for the past 6 + 4 + 2 = 12 years. And I take the stand that overall, it's a good thing. Well, having modular exam allows me to focus all my attention and do my very best at it and preparing for it. Cos I only have that one chance to score and do well in that subject. So I might as well do my best and get it over and done with. So it pushes me and leaves no room for procastination or the "score well in the nxt test/exam" mindset. The bad thing is that once the exam is over, it's really over. No point reflecting after the paper and telling yourself "I should have prepared better" cos there is no more chance. no more saying I should study certain topics. regretting is really sucky cos there's no 2nd chance. so to all my NUS frens out there, STUDY HARD, PREPARE WELL AND DON'T MAKE ANY REGRETS! well, that also applies to my NTU frens who have remaining papers and to myself! lol. okay. so my sis left for Cebu, the Philippines this morning. My grandma left for sabah this evening. thankfully I managed to make it back in time to talk to my grandma a bit. But not my sis. talked to her a little bit on the phone but she was too tired to talk to me also. ha. well, hope they have reached their destinations safely, be safe there and return safely! down here, wanna thank zhiwen for taking time off to meet me today and have a cup of mocha with me amid his studying! had a good chat though i was a bit quieter than usual. study hard! took a break today. Actually, I fell sick during the phys exams--caught a flu. So after lunch, I took med and slept for 2 hours. Then packed up and headed home. before that, went over to drink my fav coffee drink: Ice-blended Mocha at coffee bean and also bought the coffee bean card! Waited for Zhiwen and had a chat with him. Well, thank God that I've recovered much from my flu after the med and slp! =) but i took a long break. now also wishing to go out. quite a pity khalis can't ride out tonight cos his pizza is arriving so late!! haha. come on come on! I wanna go out! haha. go riding and see your "new" bike and go jalan jalan...lol... okay. tat's all I'm going to say then! I jus want to end off with this quote I heard on radio last night which got me thinking: the hardest thing in love is to watch someone you love love someone else --------------------------------- Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 8:19 pm [lost, sad]
sigh. i don't know why but I feel very lost and confused. I just feel pain and sorrow within me. I've no idea why I feel this way. After I parted with my frens, the veil jus came down--a veil i didn't know I had put on. I suddenly feel lost. Feeling a loss of identity. I know, in my head, that my identity is in Christ. But there's a battle within me. To go to the other side, be wild and crazy, experiment with crazy hair-do etc. Is it the growing up phase? the search of identity, in a spiritual sense, in every youth? a time when values and beliefs will be challenged? Is that why God warns and urges us to stay strong in the faith and in Him? Telling us again and again that we are not to be part of this world or follow the world; He hates the world's values. Sigh. I also don't want to be self-centered. I know I can never reach perfection of having no self-centeredness inside of me. But I want to, truly be less self-centered...to have God at the center of my heart. Wake up Sharon! --------------------------------- Sunday, November 09, 2008 @ 10:40 pm [recall and reflection]
haha. Okay. So my sis just blogged on my blog. the previous entry was written by none other than the one who pointed the "gun" at me: SARAH! haha. yar. put her name so small at the end of the post. ha. so now muz put captial letters! haha. just let her have fun lah. since she was using my laptop... so today i drove for the first time! to church and to SP! quite fun. exciting. my dad was a good guide. din stress me up alot. but my mum sitting at the back was making a bit of "ahh-ahh" shouts. ha. well, parking at chr was okay. but on the return trip from SP, parking at my condo was YIKES! i was too near the pillar. my side mirror almost hit it! and my mum was my guide. she din noe how to guide me to park the car properly. so, in the end, i came down, she took over the wheel and park the car for me. ha. aiyo. i sure got lots to learn! well, today's studying was so-so. thank God on Friday, i managed to finish revising all my maths topics--reading of notes. so yesterday, i managed to do some papers and practices. get a taste of uni exams. have to refer several times to the answers though. but thank God there were answers. so today was pretty much non-maths day. i studied phys and material science. and for once, i'm grateful for the little discipline that i have in the beginning in reading the textbook. so i dun nid to read them again to fully grasp the topic and there are notes and pointers written down on my notes which i copied frm the txtbook (: but i muz say tat i'm pretty naughty today and watched madagascar jus now. had a bit of good laugh. some parts are really funny and ironical. well, i muz also thank wan ting here though the event hasn't taken place. she's so accomodating to me. when i suddenly told her i have a craving to go esplanade lib, she said she doesn't mind going there to study too! haha. so nice. so tml will be goin marina square to study first till after lunch then head down to esp lib. man. i simply miss town. i've been stuck at home and in the west area for too long lah. je lib, west mall, dining table at home, clementi...i really miss the town/city area! let's hope the change of environment will aid me in studying! today, i was quite restless and losing concentration studying at home! talking abt clementi, i had quite a "nature" dinner yesterday! it was pretty cool! khalis picked me up at clementi, rode me to a food centre at west coast area. we were supposed to eat there then head back to our respective venues. since it was arnd 6pm when we reached the food centre, i suggested that we take away our food, ride to west coast park and eat dinner while watching the sunset! and ta-ta! tat's wad we did! and boy! i tell you tat i love it! i enjoy that moment! really! so nature-like! i'm glad we managed to catch the sunset! west coast park renovated already. quite nice. finally can see the sea. though it's against a back-drop of the jetty and cranes. but hey, at least they've opened up that area! and they made pavilions that faces the sea and stone slopes. so tat's where we sat and ate our dinner and chatted. beautiful. had a good chat and catch-up. thanks for listening to me pal! and yar...learn frm me to take nice shots! i always take nice shots of u lor..time for my turn! :P
okay. things happened through this weekend too. did alot of thinking and soul-searching. well, i'm thankful that he took it calmly. it was a change frm the last time. i can see it. n i thank God that it's His work in him too. well, through the weeks, there are no doubts that i see the effort put in and am touched to tears. but i guess, some things are better not to lead on and continue on in uncertainties, questions and doubts. well, i muz agree with him that it's really quite a pity it has to be like this. sometimes i wonder if it's the matter of perspective. when i'm in it, i think one way. when i'm out of it, i think another way. sigh. well, now, i can only hope for both of us to pull through this period of time, for him to be strong and for us to have a sustainable and good friendship after this...hmm..somehow, now, conversations with him feels more liberating. guess it's really the setting... --------------------------------- @ 6:20 pm  LOOK PEOPLE!! this is sharon sleeping with her MOUTH OPEN!! yup! and that's me pointing a gun at her!! muahaha.. just a conclusion:
don't sleep in public places.. cos u never know when someone might take some weird candid shots of u or do sth strange (like me) to u!!
that was total crap crap crap crap crabby paddy!!
written by: sarah
--------------------------------- Friday, November 07, 2008 @ 1:23 pm Faith, hope and love
There are 3 things that will remain
--------------------------------- @ 10:19 am [just 4 things]
From the last entry till now, many things happen. There are many things tat I wanna say here too! But time is short and I guess I'll jus mention 4 things here on this entry. Firstly, I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST! Finally! After 3 tries. Ha. I think the tester wants me to pass too. Thank God for letting me pass! Circuit was finally well done though my warm-up in circuit wasn't good. On the road, my route was cut short too. No need to by-pass any hazards (: and everything was smooth. Thank God! Mm. Yay. I can finally drive! Hopefully my dad will let me drive soon! Though it also means tat I need to find the time to drive in the day too. Ha. Secondly, I wanna thank God for BSF. Yesterday's BSF was grrrrreat! I was very much encouraged by all who shared. Sharing how God allows a way for them to go to BSF, how God see them thru this tough year (for the individual) of BSF, what was it that they learn through the study of Matthew. Thank God for speaking to each and every one of us through His Word and through the systematic study of the gospel. I also went out to share! =) Haha. It was really scary because it's standing in front of SO MANY ppl and sharing in front of many ppl--my age and older :S Was quite nervous initially. At first I wanna go up with just pointers in my head but I learned my lesson from the past experiences n went up prepared. Putting some pointers on a scrap paper that I had. So I shared about how I can use what I learn in follow-up, how the parable of the Sower spoke to me (Matt 13), how the Signs of the End of Age impress on me (Matt 24), application qns on amputations, reflection qns, thanking God for several things including a chance to serve in usher and I ended off with Matthew 13:23. "But the one who received the seed that fell on good soil is the man who hears the word and understands it. He produces a crop, yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown." I read it out loud and slowly, hoping to create an impact in all who listened. And after reading the verse, I said that I hope the study of Matthew and all that we learned wld fall on good soil in our hearts :) Well said? But it's also my true prayer. That as we reflect on what we've learned, I hope that we wld put it into action and yield a great crop of harvest =) I hope my message or rather the Holy Spirit's message through me wld have an impact on some ppl. And the nxt year's grand sharing, I'll be prepared for it! =) So here and now, jus wanna thank God for His faithfulness, guidance and speaking to me through the Word and the Holy Spirit as I went through 32 weeks of the study of Matthew! Thank you God! =) Thirdly, I just wanna say that there are 3 things of nature that always touches my heart so deeply: sunset, flowers, moon. Often, I'm jus so captured by sunsets. The different colours that are created, the clouds that reflect the last few rays of the setting sun, the pink/red/orange sky and not to forget, the incredibly fast speed of the sun setting below the horizon...it's just beautiful! flowers, especially roses, captures my heart too. Having always loved flowers, it's needless to say that flowers touches my heart too. Yesterday, my DL gave each of us a stalk of carnation. Man. I can't stop looking at it and touching it throughout my MRT trip home. Ha. Lastly, the moon. I know it sounds strange but I can jus stand by the ledge and stay there just staring at the moon. And as I walk out in the open, my head will automatically look up and there! the moon wld be high above me. I just get mystically attracted to it. And everytime I look at the moon, it's like a reminder that God loves me. I guess it's a pact between him and I. That the moon is like a personal symbol of representation of His love for me. Whenever I'm down, when I see the moon, I'm lifted up as I'm reminded of His love (: Fourth, and the last, I just want to say that I miss Khalis and I'm sorry that I wasn't able to talk to you nor call you the past few days though you tried to contact me. I'm sorry! take care man and hope to talk to you soon! --------------------------------- Saturday, November 01, 2008 @ 4:59 pm [recount and reflections]
okay. so after many days of not blogging, I've decided to pop by here for a while. now, i'm in library. have been going to lib yesterday and today. 2 days of studying. yesterday was fun. studied with wan ting, peter, lester and john. quite a crowd. it was nice being able to have a study grp even if it's for jus one session. then, lester and peter left early. after that it's just john, wan ting and myself. got to know john better. then, wan ting came over to my hse. supposed to swim but we reached home too late. so let her tour arnd my condo (show her my resort condo), had dinner at my place and chatted with my mum. glad you came girl! sorry we can't swim. let's swim again nxt time k? (: promise! study yesterday was good. completed all i set out to do. thank God. had a bbq at night. glad we managed to finish all the food. nice to see joshua again. had an interesting conversation with leo. though i wld say it's a bit challenging, nonetheless, it was a rare one. the food was good. thanks leo and jeremy! so today, studied with kok siong for while. but we were both sleepy. din help that it rained early this morning and both of us had to pull ourselves outta bed to go lib in the morning. ha. so had a super long lunch where we walked arnd for a long time, trying to wake ourselves up. ha. well, in the end, study today wasn't as fantastic as yesterday. i kept slping. bad. and rushed thru my work lor. tonight, still got studying. so see how it goes. so far, i clocked in, 6 hrs minus 25mins = 5 hrs 35mins. okay! hope i wld be on schedule cos of my tests this monday! not tat i'm rigid. just want to say that thu was fun too! free buffet lunch, watched Mr Bean Holiday, skipped a maths lecture to continue watching and can exchange conversations with wan ting and others, cheer and jeer during the movie screening. nice. watched with peter, wan ting, jue xuan, lester, qiao yong and john. fun :) well, just want to say tat i'm super stressed up and confused. really scared and dunno wad to do :S trying to think rationally, but just can't come to a conclusion. alot of things are going through my mind. sigh. i jus hope to settle this fast, good, unregretful of whatever decision i make, and one that is a decision that God wants me to make... on the last note, just want to say that i learn this recently: I can hope for miracles from God but I can't expect them, even if it seems all in good will. --------------------------------- |
