[reflection]

"But God"

These 2 words are so ironical. How often do we say use these 2 words when God calls us to do something? How often do we list all our weakness, fears, inexperiences etc? Sometimes, we can end up telling God that we are not eloquent, that we fear the impression we give to others, that it may tarnish our reputation, the risks is too high, have a family to take care of etc. This is what the "but" refers to--all our fears and human logic. Where the telling of human wisdom just impresses on our heart so strong that we began to voice out in argument and rebellion.

Yet, look at the next word "God" which refers to the all-knowing, all-possible higher being! He can do everything and make the impossible possible. He protects us from harm and danger. He has plans that man cannot fathom. He loves us so much that He does the good for all who loves Him. Even if it means allowing some danger to get to us so as to teach us lesson(s). He has the whole world in His hands and is sovereign over all things. He is in control of everything. So doesn't that call for us to trust in Him? Doesn't that call for faith in God? Doesn't it emphasize that the word "but" is uncalled for? Haha. See the catch?

Well, I'm not saying that arguing with God is wrong. It is ok and right and honest to express to God our fears and weakness. But it's the response after voicing out your feelings that matters the most. Just look at Moses and how he argued with God that he is not eloquent in speech to lead God's people out of Israel. Yet, God uesd him mightily to fulfil His purpose. Then, let's look at Mary, the mother of Jesus, and how she feared God and trembled when she is called to a duty. But she walked in faith and trust in God to bear baby Jesus. What about Peter who had a failure in the past (the denial of Jesus) but Jesus still restored him and lead him in His divine purpose and plan? What about the turning of a persecutor Saul to a sower Paul? Despite of all the wrong and murderous things he had done, God still turned Paul's life around.

There are still many examples to be cited. But the point here is that no matter who we are previously, the failures we had, the bad experiences we received, the in-born weaknesses we have, the smallest in the eyes of the society...God can and will use us.

So, may our 2 words in response to God's calling forever be "I will".