Yeah. So it's Christmas day already! Boy! It sure is fast! What are my feelings about it? Mixed. Happy and sad. Well, the good things fist! I must say tat I'm really blessed this christmas! or rather, leading up to christmas. It's the first time i did much more than just buying and giving presents. I had many opportunities to share the gospel! My Hope party. Tat one, I was truly blessed and encouraged. The next one was the outing with Kelvin to talk and discuss about Jesus and the gospel. I must say it's cool! And it's divine! Thank God for opportunities such as these. Thinking about it now, I feel that it's just the right timing! Only after I'd grown and learned more about God and His Word then I could share the gospel to others and tell others more about Christianity. Yeah. Thank God for His divine plan!

Well, this week was quite hectic. Went out almost every night. First was meeting kelvin for dinner and watch an esp performance, li peng for dinner and movie, john for dinner then the other 3 for supper at starbucks (made a new fren call dennis). so only tonight free. oh. not to forget khalis for movie and "should i buy another ticket?" haha. okay. well, but i must say, amid all the busy meet-ups, i do feel a bit empty. the whole emo thing again. then, i have to remind myself that Christmas isn't about going out with ppl or having an elaborate christmas eve dinner or going out with the special someone to somewhere, anywhere. Christmas is about Jesus; about God and His redemptive plan.

I rmb Khalis mentioned this to me recently: you had alot of heart-breaks this year. And how true it is. Hmm. I went through alot this year. no wonder i have mixed feelings about this. Sigh. And as I see my good fren getting attached, it jus makes me think more of "what could have been". How I could have been with him and go out on Christmas eve. Making Christmas this year extra special. Spending more time, the time when i can't throw out during sch term. Christmas would be spent with more meaning as we reflect tgt... Do I regret? I don't know. I don't think so. But it does make my heart ache.

Well, but God has been faithful. reminded me time and again not to make relationship a "must-have" and an idol in my life. not to covet and to wait. to be patient and to pray. yeah. dun lose focus Sharon. trust in God. Don't emo anymore about this matter...

And just got alot of worries on my mind. time to lay them down at God's feet. As I was telling Charles just now, may i repeat it to myself. About 2000 years ago, God sent His Son Jesus to earth and to be borned. So that through His death, we can be reconciled to God and we can freely lay our worries down at His feet. So, let go of your worries and take the peace He gives.

Thank God for the Holy Spirit!

"But I tell you the truth: It is for your good that I am going away. Unless I go away, the Counselor will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you. When he comes, he will convict the world of guilt in regard to sin and righteousness and judgment: in regard to sin, because men do not believe in me; in regard to righteousness, because I am going to the Father, where you can see me no longer; and in regard to judgment, because the prince of this world now stands condemned...But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come. He will bring glory to me by taking from what is mine and making it known to you."
John 16:7-11, 13-14