So half a day has gone by. Where am I now? At home. Had a Christmas service and lunch just now. Glad that Shu Hui and Kelvin came for service and stayed for lunch! =) It was nice to be able to bring them to church and for them to meet my frens like Jeremy. Christmas service was good. Had a lot of visitors. Thank God for Ken and aunty Pat for taking a step of faith and obedience in water baptism. It's nice to witness a baptism again. Reminds me of myself 7 years ago. Boy! 7 years ago! So long ago! At the same season, just that I was baptised on 26dec.

Hmm. Through these 7 years, I thank God. Though I had trying times, I learned much and grow in my faith and walk with God. I must admit that. Learning more about His Word and His plans and His character. Taking steps of obedience. And also falling down and picking myself up again. Learning to be sensitive to the Holy Spirit. Learning to trust Him and not to forget, serving Him in many areas in church.Thank you God!

Well, emo-ing again just now. Well, thinking about many things. Well, I'm 19 this year. Next year I'll be 20. I believe I must start to expect less for christmas. Especially expect to receive less gifts. Well, I really do love gifts. Every year, I always look forward to the gitst i'll receive. But as time passes, fewer and fewer gifts arrive in my hands. I guess it's a sign to accept reality, move past beyond gifts, accept that I'm aging and just be contended with whatever. Yeah.

I'm not feeling good again because of the same old issue. But a broader picture too. Just felt a sudden loss of company. Like no one to turn to. No one who's free that I can go to. That I can call out to meet up or chat about issues. More of going out too. Don't know why but suddenly, I'm giving more focus on going-outs. I guess holidays since JC1 have done me bad. Every hols since then was filled with appts and meet-ups. So, when suddenly, this year seems more empty than usual, I feel lost and emo. Argh. Get me out of this mess man! Must really remind myself that going-out isn't everything. Find joy and peace and enjoyment in doing things myself and spending time with myself--doing things that need to be attended to and things that I've always wanted to do...