Well, things changed uh? Yeah. I'm still shocked but I believe that after I sleep, things will turn better. Or at least I hope so. I will pull through this and will not wallow in self-pity anymore.

Well, had good chats with many online. It was good. Thanks all for sharing though I won't say I'm the best counsellor. Makes me anticipate the counselling course I'll be attending next year! Can't wait! Just today I was wondering if it'll help me and will come in handy. I do hope so! Don't want to let the skills and trainings and nights I spend travelling to go wasted!

Today was good. Spent the whole day at home. Read 2 BSF notes. Helped mum with a little cooking. Read the Love Language book. And complete most of the things I set out to do. Yay! Happy for that! And while reading the BSF notes, suddenly remember what John said over dinner this week. How he wanted to be more effective and systematic in studying the Bible. So wrote him a long email and let him know about BSF and encourage him too. Yeah. He said he'll consider. Hope he comes! But dinner with le jing still stays. But i wonder how to let him know. Oh well. when the time comes, we'll see! first, just pray that John comes!

okay. want to show a Bible passage that I read today.

"Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone"
Colossians 4:2-6

This passage speaks to me of several things.

1. Was shocked when the first words I saw was "pray". Reminds me on how God has been telling me and convicting me to pray pray and pray these few days.
2. Reminded me of the pointer I took note of it BYLC: to exchange my time for something valubale and in God's Will
3. That every speech that I say are to be full of grace and seasoned with salt. Grace--showing God's grace and passing His love on. Salt--preserving and morally right as mentioned in sermon on mount too.

So I pray that my speech will be so. Also made me repent of my sin in my carelessness of speech to many. And pray that I'll make use every opportunity to evangelise. To use my time wisely and for Him and not in self-pity. Build up on my prayer life.

Okay. Tat's all. I'm tired and sleepy now. Nitez!