On right! This is my 370th published post! =) Yay. Sure come a long way uh?

And I must say that it is amazing how my previous entry actually had quite a number of response. Was I that emo? Haha. Those weren't the worst emo entries but they are certainly true and heart-felt.

Haven't blogged for a long time and i haven't been online for a long time either. These few days, to be exact, 2 nights, I haven't even switched on my laptop while i was in hall! Amazing! What was I doing? STUDYING! Okay. sounds like a nerd but i really needed to study and read my physics textbook. I can't read with music in the background and I'm not good at physics. And so reading the textbook is one of the better ways for me to learn this subject to the best. And thank God that it had been smooth. Read 2 chapters and i understood what was written. Gained a better understanding. Better than when the lecturer speaks. Ha. Thank God! =))

Well, wanna say thanks to Khalis too for bringing me out to eat nasi lemak and spent some time talking to me. Thanks and sorry about the other day!

Counselling course quiz 1! It was good. Haha. Scored 9/10 =)) Yay. Thank God! Because the questions weren't that easy--rather tricky though. And I studied and read my readings at the last minute. So it was a bit scary. But thank God it was smooth! And I was told that it's the hardest quiz. So the next few ones will be easier (: still, the readings were good, informative and an eye-opener. Never learnt things such as these...

Well, recently I borrowed a book on Esther from my pastor and it was great. It talks alot about the issues then and applicable to now, the characters of Esther and what we can learn. Quite cool! But cos of that, I also got a bit stressed up on how to handle the 2 books. Oh well. Will discuss with Shu Hui. Nonetheless, I hope that the book will help me and I'll look more on myself rather than what I can deliver.

[a smile]

This entry has always been on my mind. So let me pen it down. Recently, I started thinking about smiles. What's in a smile? What does a smile represent? What does it signal? When should one smile and not smile? Will it give mixed signals or even unnecessary signals?

What's in a smile?
A sign of friendliness
A touch of warmth
Or even a silent "hello"

A radiance of joy
A sunshine of happiness
Or a mask to cover up sorrow

Why do you smile?
To acknowledge the other person
To greet
Or to burst forth with joy within

To give a lasting final impression
To reciprocate a gesture
Or even an obligation

How does it feel to receive a smile?
A sense of warmth
A feeling of cheerfulness
Or even to feel "You brighten up my day"

A sense of joy
That you remember me
Or even to think "Oh! You missed me!"

When should you smile?
"Hello bus driver!"
"Hello sunshine!"
"Hello you!"

Perhaps when you see a face in the crowd
Or when the crowd faces you
Or even at night
When the moonlight shadows the trees

What signal does a smile give?
I miss you
I love you
Or even I'm interested in you

To say, "Boy! You look smart!"
To show that you caught my attention
Or that you look somewhat familiar in my memory

So when then do you smile or not smile?
How do I know my limits when greeting a stranger?
As the saying goes, "A smile brightens a person's day"
Yet, is it right to smile at a stranger?

You never know when someone else
Takes the signal wrongly
Then you'll land yourself in trouble
Or unnecessary harrassing

So then, the questions still remain
When do you smile and when do you not?
Should you be gracious and couteous?
And show the white teeth?

When do you smile and when do you not?