First off,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!

May the new year be a meaningful one as gatherings and catch-ups take place! And going back to culture and roots...

As for me, I am spending my CNY in msia as usual. This time round, the long weekend break is a good and bad thing. Good because dad don't need to take leave. Bad because I have to bring my work to msia and force myself to study. Got much to catch up on.

Well, I left on sat early morning. Woke up at 4am and set off for msia. Unfortunately, we got caught in a jam!! At such an early time!! I literally saw sunrise at Tuas Checkpoint! Bleah. The jam was very bad. Was stuck in there for about 3 hours. After the cars passed the customs passport checking, alot of ladies started coming out of the cars and queued up for the toilet. There were very loooong queues. Even outside the gents, ladies are queueing up!! Haha.

So headed for KL. Dad didn't let me drive any part of the highway :( But arrived safely. Thank God. I heard too much of the scary tales from frens. Had a good time with my aunty, uncle and cousin from my mum's side. Staying over at their place through the nights. Especially my cousin Paul. Glad to have caught up with him and meet him again. He drove and brought me out for supper! (: Thanks cousin!

In the day, yesterday, thank God that I studied! Okay. I know this sounds very stupid, selfish and too studious, but hey, this is heartfelt and I am very glad that I can do work. Usually I can't because I'm away from home. But i managed to. Thank God! Though I was curbing with flu the whole time. Hee.

Talking about flu, my health these few days aren't good. Before I left, I already feel a sore throat coming. Not much cough. But have alot of phlegm. To make things worse, I've been having asthma every day since I've arrived in msia. Need to use the inhaler arnd twice :( Quite a bad n dangerous one. Lastly, I have a big ulcer on my gum :( So hope you all can pray for me? Thanks alot man!

So today is New Year's Eve. Had a good dinner time. Lots of food. Around 20 ppl were present. Many of my aunties and uncles are present. Had to set up 2 dining tables. Big uh? At first, I was quite sad and alone..like I couldn't clique with my cousins. Quite true considering that I'm from Singapore and dunno the education system well. Neither do I keep in much contact with most of them. Made me quite sad. Very hard to break the ice. And seeing my cousins being able to talk to one another easily always makes me jealous. Sigh. I wonder what can I do. And I wonder if we'll still be close when our parents passed on or when we have grown up...

But still, towards the end, it wasn't too bad. Cindy sat beside me so we talked for quite a bit. Then played card games with some of my other cousins. Not bad lah. Tomorrow i'll be seeing them again...

Oh well. On a side note, I really don't know what to think about. I often find myself wondering why and find myself getting a little jealous. Oh God! Please help me not to be so! Help me to love. To really love. And help me to trust you, God. That you have a plan for me as you said in Jeremiah 29:11 and the reminder you gave me on the bookmark. Help me to control my thoughts and feelings and to make them "captive...[and]...obedient to Christ". Amen.