Thank God for answering my prayer! Indeed, He's a faithful and loving and LISTENING God who hears my cries, knows my thoughts and my needs and answers them in His own time, by His own way...
On Monday, I felt a strong prompting from the Holy Spirit. And it was further confirmed after BSF that night. I was also sharing with John how I felt. I was struggling. Then, I felt I wasn't taking BSF seriously. Or rather, I wasn't learning and taking God's Word through BSF seriously. I still did my QTs but the qns were always answered half-heartedly. And everytime I see John answering them diligently and so full of enthusiasm, it really aches and pokes my heart that I should do the same too! I felt that I've lost the love and genuine passion for God's Word.
So I told God that night that I want to change. I asked Him to help me out and change me. Having the beautitudes in mind, I ask God to give me a longing for His Word and to re-ignite the passion for Him. And I also shared with my DG leader, Xiu Qian the next day. She prayed for me there and then too! Quite glad. Then, things started to change...
God answered my prayer! Everyday, I really looked forward to doing BSF qns, learning more about God through the readings and questions and also through my other materials. More importantly, I learned more about God and the Bible through the Holy Spirit within me! I began not just to pine for God's Word but also to spend time with God and to pray and to read and just be still. So much so that on Thursday, when I stayed back in main campus to study, I had this very strong urge to rush back to hall to read the Bible!
That day, I was in school studying with my friends. All the way till dinner. And usually, after dinner or around that time, I would read the bible before resuming my work. But tat day, I didn't bring my bible out. i left it in hall. and so after dinner, uncomfortably, i went back to the lib and studied with my frens. throughout the whole time, i was super restless. i couldn't concentrate alot. my mind and heart was just simply longing for my room and the bible. i stayed in school till 10pm before i finally gave in, stopped doing my work, found a fren and walked back to hall. i was super happy to be back in the room and at my table again! So much so that even after i'd finished settling down (showered, wash clothes etc) at midnight, i just grabbed the bible and read it. though it was late and my mind was saturated with studies, it gave me much peace and pleasure to read His Word and just be in His presence...
This wasn't the only incident. Yes, it was a highlight. Something I wouldn't forget and something tat stands out. But today, God showed me how faithful He had been througout the week. Indeed, throughout the whole time, I enjoyed every QT I had with God and moment spent with Him. I was touched by what He said and spend more time just reflecting and praying. And I thank God that He answered my prayer and touched me in a special way this week.
It is my prayer that this longing and passion and fire will fan into flames and not die out. I pray that I'll continue to be close to God and keep the fire going. For Him. For God alone. Amen.
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@ 9:13 pm
[OCS commissioning ball]
I went for Zhen Guang's commissioning ball last night! It was great! High class. Super. Held at Ritz Calton. Took a cab down. At first, we just lingered around at the top. Didn't know what to do. So after a while, we went downstairs. Met a few ppl. Alvin, my p6 friend, was the first one that i met. Then met ppl like Jordan, Samuel, Seng Loong, Edwin and his other friends...gave some of those guys i know a card. they were all shocked when they received it. but happy (:
We went downstairs, got our door gift, met his bed buddy who gave me a very hard hand shake *ouch* Anyway, went to take a few shots by the prof photographers. Quite fun. Glad dad trained me in it a bit. After that, I dragged zg out to the garden outside to take photos (cos i saw a girl posing there). But i chose a different spot. Went to a place with stairs. And I saw one of my fav flowers! Frangipani! Took it and put it on my ear! Haha. looks very hawaiian but i've always wanted to take this kinda shots. so i asked zg to help me take. after that, we explored the place a bit and went up the stairs to behind. took a few solo shots there and check out sepia (brown and white) and black-and-white photos. zg extremely loves speia photos! haha.
So after all the photos, we headed in to the ballroom which was extremely huge. took a while to find the table then sat down. emcee was not bad. i loved the entertainment esp by the music and drama saf company! They do a really good job. just a pity my back was facing the stage so i din get to see a lot of the performance :( and in the end, take photos, watch that little bit till i eat too slow. bleah. was quite sad to give up my food but had no choice. the others had already finished!!
The dining was super high class! There were 2 sets of cultery! I was shocked. Didn't know which set to use first. First was bread and butter. then the appetizer. which was extremely small like french crusine! Herb thing, veggie and a prawn which i didn't eat. then the soup with real clam! And mind you, the shell was still attached to it. being a girl, not wanting to embarrass myself in front of 3 other couples, i just had to give up that clams too. sad. main course was the last dish. chicken with stuffing. quite cool. last was strawberry cheesecake which was very rich yet authentic. well, quite sad tat it's only 4 course meal. i expected more though. haha. nonetheless, the food was great. it was something different and special and unique!
We took alot of photos. erm. more like i'm the camera man woman helping zg snap photos with his friends. i also had my own surprises of friends! Wei yan, danilah, min yi, elizabeth, christine, esther... oh! And i'm happy to finally be able to meet, see and talk to Edwin, aunty dorothy's son! like FINALLY. got a chance to sit down and talk to him since he was at my table..
After everything was over, zg and i hanged arnd nearby. went to esp rooftop. sat there and chatted for one hour! Just about things. quite glad and comforted to be able to spend time with him! It's not tat easy to be able to catch him and talk to him about stuffs. after tat, we just walked around under my persuasion tat i didn't want to go home so soon. haha. i dunno why. but i had been looking forward to this day for the entire week. and i've been studying very hard during that week to justify this night out. and i believe, because i studied so hard, i really needed a break. something inside my body was crying out to go out to town, city hall area and just walk esp or marina square or suntec. yeah. so was asking zg to spend that time with me. which i'm thankful he did! more importantly, it was the time spent and the company he's given that i'm really grateful for!
Yeah. I'm glad I dressed up that day. I did up my hair! spent the money for it. my first time doing it. did temporary curls then pin it up! it made me look very different n pretty. gotta thank my sis too for helping me "wear" my dress else alot of my hair will be messed up! And yar, it was good choice of zg to ask me to wear the dark red dress. well, i'm glad he liked my dressing that day! I mean, i always have this thinking that i wanna dress up, look good and make-up not just for myself, not just for my self-confidence, not just so i'll look good, but more for the guy. to want that guy to feel proud of walking beside me (: what's more for a ball where i'll be meeting so many of his peers!
thankfully, quite a number of ladies wore other colours besides black. there's white, blue, pink and red! yay. so i'm not the only one. and there's one, our nick-named lady: greek goddess. Haha. but her dressing was quite good lah. elaborate but good. indeed, this ball really opens up my eye. I really saw alot of different dressing. there are some that are really short and tight. there are others tat literally sweep the carpet. both zg and i were stunned. and there were those blue ones, the unique foldings and colours on the dress. but zg was very nice and gentlemanly. though i keep commenting that other ladies' dresses were pretty, he would always say tat i look good and that my dress is nice too. haha. thanks man! it helps alot! =)
All in all, i had a good break, a good dinner and a good time at the ball!More importantly, i had a wonderful company and a meaning spending of time with Zhen Guang! yeah. to me, nothing beats spending time with people and doing things together. And I'm glad I had this honour to be his date at this occasion and celebrate together with him! =) Congrats once again! and just want to say thanks for that night! =D My pri 6 classmate cum CTSS school mate cum same birthday kaki! *Don't ever forget the last one! It's rare to find k? So you muz rmb me!* :P
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Wednesday, March 25, 2009 @ 10:16 pm
[reflecting, dilemma]
There are always 2 sides to looking at the situation. Either optismitically or pessimistically. And now, I'm presented with 2 sides that I can take--either wallow in self-pity, pondering over things and just shaking my head away. Or be thankful still for what is still present and just be contented with what I have. Which should I take?
I don't know if it's the person that changed or the situation that made me see it this way. From my point of view, things seems to have changed alot on a spiral down. Things just don't used to be the same as before. Saying this, am I hoping and expecting for things to be the same? I don't know. Perhaps so. Or maybe expecting things to be better or just be the same. Or maybe, not such a drastic change. But in reality, it seems to me to be a drastic one. In a really short time. With changes in situations, I really wonder if it's the situation or the person that changed.
On the other hand, to make myself happier or even comforted, I just keep telling myself that things aren't that bad. And remind myself of all the things that is still being done right now though not what I hoped for. But, still, the art of gratefulness is one to be gasped and held on to so as to make life more cheerful.
Sigh. Saying this is a risk. But I really wanna get it off my chest. I really don't know what to do. This is one person whose relationship I don't want to take lightly. I just don't want things to turn bad, sour or ugly. I just want it to be the best for us both. I just hope I can handle this maturely. I want to.
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Friday, March 20, 2009 @ 8:22 pm
[updates, thanksgivings]
Haha. Looking at Khalis' blog makes me wanna smile and laugh. Not that it's hilarious but that it's sweet and interesting! I thought it was Khalis who FINALLY blogged but it turned out to be Lina. Haha. Sweet! It was still nice. At least give some life to the blog. Not like someone hor... haha. I guessed she'd touched down today. So hope she had a safe journey back and be able to meet Khalis soon! (: Lina, if you are reading, I'm looking fwd to hearing your tales and stories of your HK trip! =))
The week in hall didn't turn out that bad. Partly cos I went back home to slp on Monday night. It was a comfort to go back there. Mm. But the week itself wasn't tat good. I caught the flu bug!! It started on Monday during lab and thereafter! I had this wonderful lab session of drawing (and I really mean wonderfully good) except that it started to get too cold plus the pouring rain outside makes it worse.
After that, I went on with my lectures as usual. Didn't take any med or go back to hall to rest. Went for BSF at night and boom! I felt really unwell and ill. So I called home asking mum to pick me up and send me home to medicate and rest and slp.
The nxt day, Tuesday, was the worst hit. I almost caught a fever! I had to take panadol and slp till dinner after all my lectures and lessons ended (and yes, I still insisted on going for my lessons. ha). But tat was a good rest and managed to study pretty well that night. Also, that night, zg asked me not to go for his parade tml. So sad :(
Well, so it was on and off. My flu comes and flows. I think I caught a cold instead cos my body aches. I learned it from Le Jing who said flu is running nose. But cold is when you have running nose and the body aches. Haha. I literally almost used my whole tissue box that I had jus brought to hall! Boy! was blowing my nose away at nights. And I also had a bit of asthma. Bad. Once I entered the air con room, there goes my lungs and trechea and nose. But I'm safe. Thank God.
Now, my nose seems better. But I think it had turned to cough and alot of phlegm is still stuck in my throat. At least I didn't lose my voice. But I hope to recover soon before the ball nxt week! I wanna enjoy the good food! And don't want to be wheezing away or coughing away there and then. Hopefully, with ample rest and good medication, I will recover fast. Also, exams are round the corner! not good to be sick! *I miss those days when I can eat chocolate, drink mocha and eat whatever I can*
So exams are in 3 weeks time! One week has just passed. Have I started revising? I guess you can count it so. Cos I'm revising those topics that are going to be covered in the up-coming tests. So I'm taking those revisions as studying for exams. I've also started planning already. For the entire coming 3 weeks and also during the exam weeks itself. Quite a tight schedule such that I have to keep rubbing off my initial plans and add topics on certain days. Quite stretched and scary.
I'm just cautioning myself against unrealistic expectations and goals. I've learned over the years to be realistic and in doing so, reduce stress and disappointment. I guess this is the best I can do thus far. Could be done better if I'd started revision earlier. But if so, does that call for a 5 or 6-week preparation for the exams? A bit too early, don't you think? Well, I'll see how this sem goes. If revision is really too tight and unrealistic, then I guess I really have to prepare 6 weeks in advance. If that is the demand of uni studies on me, then it shall be! No matter how stupid I may look. Okay. On another note, the plan is tentative. May I have a heart-mind attitude that is willing to accept changes that God brings about!
Well, I must say that I've made quite a number of significant and good changes. And before I start to list them down, I must give God the glory, honour and thanks for giving me the discipline, patience, motivation, strength, perseverance and hope! So here is the list. Dedicated to God.
Reading that day's lecture notes (revising what was taught that day. It helps me to retain info in my head and I'm more prepared when I attend the next lecture which most often is a continuation of the prev one. It's a more consistent revision so I know what I'm studying and not so stress up now when I'm reading my notes again
Reading of Physic textbook. Thank God for understanding of the text. And mind you, it's PHYSICS textbook--the subject that I'm not really good at. And I'm glad I read it consistently, trying to keep up with the pace of the lecture. I read EVERY single chapter that was taught! Yay! Except for relativity onwards. Cos the txtbook talks alot but not the lecture. So I don't know which sections to read and which sections not to. I must say txtbook helps me alot in understanding concepts in GOOD, PROPER, LAY-MAN'S TERMS English. And I get to make and jot down alot of notes on my lecture notes that are additional but good information (: Not to forget, the solution manual that has the complete worked solution! =))
Planning. This time I did planning much better. And try to have more time to prac on past year papers. I hope it worked. Or better than what I had planned!
Completing my tutorials on time. Yea. Nothing beats practising and I'm glad I didn't rush alot to complete them!
Overall, I do feel more prepared now as I'm preparing for my exams. It's like I know sniplets of the lectures in my head already. So it isn't that hard to revise and look at them again. Not that foreign!
Well, another thing to thank God for was my 2 A+ results I received today! First was my lab! Did a drawing lab. And the teacher commented that my sofa and window was well-drawn! So he gave me 90--A+! Yay! Quite happy for that! And I hope that it'll pull up my lab marks again. And I sure hope (and slightly confident) that if the formal lab report didn't go wrong, I would score well (like A- to A+) for lab again! Then, it'll pull my GPA higher! =) Yes! Hope. But whether or not I really get that result, thank you God! Below are the pics of that lab. I'm also planning to create a facebook album for my drawing pics! The progress you know. Not easy leh. Haha. Check it out soon!
The 2nd A+ result was my effective comm project! Thank God and thank you Wanting, Jue Xuan, Yuan Zhe and Yu Zhu! Thanks all for your help and contribution and sticking around during the crisis! It was really a crisis! Just 2 days before submission and I was told that we did our project wrongly! How bad can it get! So in just 2 days, we rush out a write up which earned an A+! Yay! And the brochure earned an A+ too! It was a very beautiful and well-done brochure! Thanks to Jue Xuan who did up most of it! With her powerful skills in powerpoint! Super power lah! Can go ask her to help me out nxt time! I bet she had explored all the effects and functions already lah..in the new M. 2007! Thanks all once again! I'm sure it'll pull up our grades and marks! Especially for me when I know I didn't score well for my assignment 1 which was a B+.
On another note, I spent alot of time preparing for the Esther bible study today. Really alot. I started my QT and all at 7pm and then headed on to read the book and prepare for BS till 930pm! That's how long! I read 2 chapters. And after reading, had to take down pointers, look at the material I had and the qns and think of how to link them and what to say and what I can skip...boy! It sure is alot of preparation work. I learned alot in the process but what struck me more is this question "So, this is the amount of effort you should be putting in for EVERY Bible study lesson. Not just in your BS with Shuhui but also to your future DG if you take up the SM role. This is the amount of commitment and time and sacrifice demanded of you. Are you willing to do so? Are you willing to put in that much effort? Are you willing to take up that challenge and answer that calling to prepare lessons and lead?" Till now, I have not given a firm answer. But I've got a chance to see the real amount of effort needed. So, am I ready and willing?
Well, all in all, I had a good, fulfilling, enriching, meaningful, God-filled Bible Study session with Shuhui today! After stopping for so many weeks! Finally there's a chance and time! (: And thanks for the sharing too! Will be praying for you!
Well, weekends are here! Got a study plan to carry out! But also feel like relaxing tonight. Just can't. But I so wanna catch the jacky chan movie tat's coming out on 2april! maybe I'll watch with jeremy if he's free. one of the friday nights when he booked out with the pair of cheap tix he's gotten. else, I'll jus go catch it alone. can't possibly be having others be obliged to watch with me when it's near the exams. if i wanna have a break and put my studies at a little risk, let it be me only. don't implicate others. tat's my rationale and the comfort i tell myself when i watch movies alone. ha. okay! to end off my post with an insighful poem:
I am only one,
But still I am one
I cannot do everything,
But still I can do something;
And because I cannot do everything,
I will not refuse to do something that I can do.
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Monday, March 16, 2009 @ 12:59 am
[frustrated]
Well, after my slightly emo post on Khalis, which I wonder if he'd read it, he popped by on Sunday evening! Yay! That was great and unexpected! And he brought a surprise guest too! His gf (: I'm glad that I finally met Lina. And him of course. I don't know why but i did feel like I'm not myself when I was talking to them. A bit scared and I think I haven't warmed up to Lina alot yet.
The 2 of them jus sat on the bike while I just stood arnd and talked to them. ha. well, had a good chat i would say. Catch up a bit though I dun know much or extra stuffs about Khalis. Just the usual. Oh well. And I hope Lina will have a safe and enjoyable trip to HK tml! So nice hor? Gets to go with her fren to HK! For a vacation! I wonder if I'll ever have this chance to travel with my friend(s). Definitely, I would prefer a small grp so it's easier to make decisions and to accomodate/give in to each other's preferences. I hope there will come one day! (= Backpack!
Okay. So down here, I wanna say thanks to Khalis, my bestie, for dropping by my house! And for letting me share abit on myself...
Sigh. Now, somehow I still don't feel good. Somehow, I'm jus not looking forward to going back to hall. I wonder what it'll be like. Will I be able to sleep? Will I be able to get the ample rest I need? Will the lack of rest affect my conduct and mindset towards my frens? I'm starting to see a link between the both of them. But, my greatest factor that's making me sad and not that enthusiastic in going back is whether I'll be able to sleep in hall...
I could just picture my roomie studying till late at night, with the lights on or going to her fren's room to study (which I'll feel very guilty of). Then, somehow, when she's away, my body refuses to slp! It seems like it wanna wait for her to come back and quite afraid that she'll come back. argh. i dunno wad's wrong with me. still, home is the best. maybe i'll shift out of hall soon? Even though it's 4 weeks till end of semester but I really don't want anything to affect my studies.
Sigh. and my roomie keeps talking to me about her probs. I'm okay with listening but not when it keeps repeating and repeating; the same stuffs over and over again; the same sentences...argh. sometimes, it gets really irritating and it seems like she's saying for herself to hear and not for me to understand. and wad can i say? She doesn't even seem ready to listen to any advice that I wanna give neither does she look like she'll heed them!! grr. Okay. I'm not bad-mouthing my roomie here. I'll find a chance to tell her wad i feel...everything that I've said in this paragraph above. I just need a let-out of the frustrations and undue stress that I have now!
Another thing that makes me sad and frustrated now is that Zhiwen didn't reply my msg! I merely asked a question on whether he is holding on to one of my books and he didn't even give me a single reply! I bet he read that message already! I've no idea why he doesn't reply?!?! I'm so annoyed! Cos that book is my favourite! Not only is it closest to my heart, but I learned alot from it and it's given by my friend! A friend whom I treasure alot! And it has a message from her written in the book! I really want that book back. I really want to have it by my side again! It's the thought that I wanna hold on to, the feeling that the lessons I've learned is close to me physically and a reminder for me. I just want to know if the book is with him. So I can arrange something. If it isn't, then I'll rack my brains harder to find out who I lend it to or search my house more thoroughly. Zhiwen, if you are reading this, please reply my question!
Okay. This post has alot of bitter feelings and frustrations. hope I'll feel better after talking it out here and to God (later). Goodnight.
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Thursday, March 12, 2009 @ 10:32 am
[taking time off]
Now, it's computing tut! Haha. Okay. Don't worry. It hasn't started yet so I can blog. I'm quite excited. Today I'll be serving with Crystal at the SM Appreciation Day! Playing keyboard. Had a prac with her. Learned new songs (: Also listened to them on youtube. Quite happy. Youtube is quite cool! Can find many songs online! With great multimedia ppt by ppl! Well done guys! They are very touching indeed!
Okay. Typing this paragraph at the end of computing tut and I just died in it again. Sigh. Part 2 of computing sure isn't easy!
FULL MOON these few days!! =) did you see it? It's beautiful! As always! A symbol of God's love to me! =)) Thank you God!
Finally, miss you Khalis! Been a long time since we last had a good long chat and even meet up! I miss those times when we had fun going out, riding, heading to the parks and just talking by the beach, taking photos, watching movies and snooker! Sigh. Things changed I guess. I wonder if it's possible to re-live those times. But I guess, I shld accept changes and just be contented with what I have!
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Sunday, March 08, 2009 @ 12:18 am
[hmm]
Hmm. I wonder what to post. I've been wanting to blog for a long time. But dunno what to say. I feel like writing something spiritual for encouragement. But someone said that the past few posts have been spiritual and different :P Haha. Okay. Not aiming at *you*. Don't be offended k, friend? Well, but it did get me thinking: What should I post? Well, maybe I'll post something non-spiritual to get the guilty conscience off my chest then I can post something spiritual again without feeling guilty. Haha. I guess, it's time to let ppl know what's happening in my life too!
Well, school resumed for one week! Glad and happy for it! Met Dennis and Ian coincidentally at canteen B! Quite happy! And I'm even happier to see my friends! Wanting, John, Peter, Lester, Jue Xuan, Eugene, Wee Siang, Yi Chen, Terence...Then, suddenly, I feel that I'm really blessed. Well, it's not the first time I'm feeling this, so don't worry. I'm always and have been grateful to God for friends like them from the start! They are really great and God is better! Thank God for giving me and blessing me with friends! And I'm glad that through the recess week and the effective comm proj, I got closer to Jue Xuan--can talk more comfortably with her (: yay! Cheers to friendships!
Crusade was good too. That's why there's the video at the bottom. Makes me think of using youtube more often in my Bible Study. Can be impactful and a good starter! (=
Well, other than that, 3 tests went good. MCQs for chem. Phys, for the first time, I can get all correct except for one qn tat's wrong! ha. Well, partly cos it's open-book. Ha. But at least I know my concepts and studied for it that I can do the paper! Computing quiz was alright though I almost forgot my maths formula. And there's no "while" or "for" loop! So tat's not too bad. The nxt test coming up is Maths! nxt Friday! Hope I'll prepare in time for it!
Effective comm project..thank God it went well! =) and jue xuan did a fantastic job! She can use ppt 2007 super well lah! It totally rocks! Nxt time I know where to go if I need help! and she can use the effects that is installed to the max potential! Ha. Thanked her alot for her effort! =)
Okay. There's nothing much to say already. That's about all for updates. Just wanna say that I'm saddened over the 2 suicide cases in NTU. Didn't expect that and gives me a reason to keep a look-out for my friends or acquaintances who are stressed or depressed. Hope ppl alike can talk it out and go for counselling. Going for counselling isn't a sign of weakness.
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Thursday, March 05, 2009 @ 11:05 pm
[wonderful video!]
What if I give all by Ray Boltz
What if I give all
He heard the preacher say
"A single dime could feed
A hungry boy or girl with
Nothing to eat"
So he pulled a dollar
From the pocket of his jeans
He asked his Mama,
"How many will this feed?"
She just smiled
When she told him ten
He reached back in again
"What if I give all I have
What will that gift do?"
"My child a gift like that could change the world
It could feed a multitude!"
He didn't close his eyes or turn away
I can see him standing tall
He saw the need and I can hear him say
"What if I give all?"
Three birthday dollars
Could have bought a special toy
But he reminds me of
A another little boy
Who gave to Jesus
A gift of fish and bread
I wonder if he said,
"What if I give all I have
What will that gift do?"
"My child a gift like that could change the world
It could feed a multitude!"
He didn't close his eyes or turn away
I can see him standing tall
He saw the need and I can hear him say
"What if I give all?"
Long ago
A Father and His Son
Saw the children lost in sin
Can you see the tears in Father's eyes
As Jesus says to him
"What if I give all I have
What will that gift do?"
"My son that gift will change the world
It will feed the multitude"
"So what if I give all I have
What will that gift do?
My child a gift like that could change the world
It could feed a multitude
We cannot close our eyes and turn away
When we hear His Spirit call
We see the need, now let Him hear us say,
"What if I give all?
What if I give all?"
Amen! That video and song is good right? The movie behind it too! I love it! I was super touched by it and almost teared. It touches my heart so deep to see how the young little boy responses to God and give his all to God! Missions and encouraging his friend. I think tat's a very lovely act!
Ultimately, this video also tells me and challenges me to give it all to God. It's a good one and linked very closely to the message that Cynthia was sharing today at Crusade! It's a good and impactful conclusion.
Learnt that giving my best to God invloves 2 Hs--heart and hands. A heart to trust in His goodness and a pair of hands to act in continual obedience to God. It impacts me once again to have God at the centre of my heart and to give my all to Him! For His glory and worship! He deserves it! And Jesus is my grace! And my way to thanking Him is to give my best to God! For Him!
Yes Lord, you alone deserves all praises and all effort from me. You alone is the reason and motivation for my being and my moving. May you always find the best in me and not mediocrity. There are things I need to change, areas you reveal to me to improve. May I change and be conformed to the likeness of Jesus. For you God. To give my best for you. Amen.
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Wednesday, March 04, 2009 @ 1:30 am
"God blesses you": Who and How?
"Finally, all of you, have unity of mind, sympathy, brotherly love,a tender heart, and a humble mind. Do not repay evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary, bless, for to this you were called, that you may obtain a blessing. For "Whoever desires to love life and see good days, let him keep his tongue from evil and his lips from speaking deceit; let him turn away from evil and do good; let him seek peace and pursue it. For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are open to their prayer. But the face of the Lord is against those who do evil." Now who is there to harm you if you are zealous for what is good? But even if you should suffer for righteousness’ sake, you will be blessed. Have no fear of them, nor be troubled, but in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect, having a good conscience, so that, when you are slandered, those who revile your good behavior in Christ may be put to shame. For it is better to suffer for doing good, if that should be God’s will, than for doing evil. For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, that he might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh but made alive in the spirit..." 1 Peter 3:8-18(EVS)
We often say and hear the words, "God bless you", but what do we really mean? The Scriptures give us several pictures of those whom God blesses. The Psalmist describes the blessed man as someone "who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers; but (whose) delight is in the law of the LORD (on which) he meditates day and night" (Ps 1:1-2). The prophet Jeremiah teaches that the blessed man is one "who trusts in the LORD" (Jer 17:7)
The Lord Jesus gives the divine perspective of blessedness in His preface to the Sermon on the Mount with such "beatitudes" as humility, holiness, harmony and hope (Matt 5:1-12)
In today's passage, the apostle Peter echoes his Master in describing those whom God blesses, and who bless others. He was writing to Christians in Asia Minor (present-day Turkey) who faced severe trials and persecution in the first century.
Those whom God blesses are first, those who receive and reflect the Christ-like graces of humility, compassion, sympathy and harmony in attitudes, behaviour and character (1 Peter 3:8)
Second, God's favour is on those who return blessing when evil is done to them (1 Peter 3:9-14). It has been said that when we return good for good, or evil for evil, we are being human; when we return evil for good, we are being devilish; when we return good for evil, we are being Christ-like. Peter himself earlier wrote of Christ's own example, "When he was reviled, he did not revile in return; when he suffered, he did not threaten, but continued entrusting himself to him who judges justly." (1 Peter 2:23)
Third, God's blessing is on those who reverence Christ as Lord in their hearts and their witness (1 Peter 3:15). Only when He takes first place in our hearts and minds can we experience blessing upon blessing, especially in the midst of trials nad tribulations. This is because He enables us, in such circumstances, to experience the fruits of His Sacrifice and the fellowship of His suffereings (1 Peter 3:18, 4:1-2, 12-16).
Finally, God's blessings flow through His children who respond graciously to those who question them about thir hope and faith, while keeping a good conscience, and showing genuine concern for others (1 Peter 3:16-17).
~Taken from "Take up your cross devotion 2009".
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Sunday, March 29, 2009 @ 9:52 pm
[answered prayer]
Thank God for answering my prayer! Indeed, He's a faithful and loving and LISTENING God who hears my cries, knows my thoughts and my needs and answers them in His own time, by His own way...
On Monday, I felt a strong prompting from the Holy Spirit. And it was further confirmed after BSF that night. I was also sharing with John how I felt. I was struggling. Then, I felt I wasn't taking BSF seriously. Or rather, I wasn't learning and taking God's Word through BSF seriously. I still did my QTs but the qns were always answered half-heartedly. And everytime I see John answering them diligently and so full of enthusiasm, it really aches and pokes my heart that I should do the same too! I felt that I've lost the love and genuine passion for God's Word.
So I told God that night that I want to change. I asked Him to help me out and change me. Having the beautitudes in mind, I ask God to give me a longing for His Word and to re-ignite the passion for Him. And I also shared with my DG leader, Xiu Qian the next day. She prayed for me there and then too! Quite glad. Then, things started to change...
God answered my prayer! Everyday, I really looked forward to doing BSF qns, learning more about God through the readings and questions and also through my other materials. More importantly, I learned more about God and the Bible through the Holy Spirit within me! I began not just to pine for God's Word but also to spend time with God and to pray and to read and just be still. So much so that on Thursday, when I stayed back in main campus to study, I had this very strong urge to rush back to hall to read the Bible!
That day, I was in school studying with my friends. All the way till dinner. And usually, after dinner or around that time, I would read the bible before resuming my work. But tat day, I didn't bring my bible out. i left it in hall. and so after dinner, uncomfortably, i went back to the lib and studied with my frens. throughout the whole time, i was super restless. i couldn't concentrate alot. my mind and heart was just simply longing for my room and the bible. i stayed in school till 10pm before i finally gave in, stopped doing my work, found a fren and walked back to hall. i was super happy to be back in the room and at my table again! So much so that even after i'd finished settling down (showered, wash clothes etc) at midnight, i just grabbed the bible and read it. though it was late and my mind was saturated with studies, it gave me much peace and pleasure to read His Word and just be in His presence...
This wasn't the only incident. Yes, it was a highlight. Something I wouldn't forget and something tat stands out. But today, God showed me how faithful He had been througout the week. Indeed, throughout the whole time, I enjoyed every QT I had with God and moment spent with Him. I was touched by what He said and spend more time just reflecting and praying. And I thank God that He answered my prayer and touched me in a special way this week.
It is my prayer that this longing and passion and fire will fan into flames and not die out. I pray that I'll continue to be close to God and keep the fire going. For Him. For God alone. Amen.
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@ 9:13 pm
[OCS commissioning ball]
I went for Zhen Guang's commissioning ball last night! It was great! High class. Super. Held at Ritz Calton. Took a cab down. At first, we just lingered around at the top. Didn't know what to do. So after a while, we went downstairs. Met a few ppl. Alvin, my p6 friend, was the first one that i met. Then met ppl like Jordan, Samuel, Seng Loong, Edwin and his other friends...gave some of those guys i know a card. they were all shocked when they received it. but happy (:
We went downstairs, got our door gift, met his bed buddy who gave me a very hard hand shake *ouch* Anyway, went to take a few shots by the prof photographers. Quite fun. Glad dad trained me in it a bit. After that, I dragged zg out to the garden outside to take photos (cos i saw a girl posing there). But i chose a different spot. Went to a place with stairs. And I saw one of my fav flowers! Frangipani! Took it and put it on my ear! Haha. looks very hawaiian but i've always wanted to take this kinda shots. so i asked zg to help me take. after that, we explored the place a bit and went up the stairs to behind. took a few solo shots there and check out sepia (brown and white) and black-and-white photos. zg extremely loves speia photos! haha.
So after all the photos, we headed in to the ballroom which was extremely huge. took a while to find the table then sat down. emcee was not bad. i loved the entertainment esp by the music and drama saf company! They do a really good job. just a pity my back was facing the stage so i din get to see a lot of the performance :( and in the end, take photos, watch that little bit till i eat too slow. bleah. was quite sad to give up my food but had no choice. the others had already finished!!
The dining was super high class! There were 2 sets of cultery! I was shocked. Didn't know which set to use first. First was bread and butter. then the appetizer. which was extremely small like french crusine! Herb thing, veggie and a prawn which i didn't eat. then the soup with real clam! And mind you, the shell was still attached to it. being a girl, not wanting to embarrass myself in front of 3 other couples, i just had to give up that clams too. sad. main course was the last dish. chicken with stuffing. quite cool. last was strawberry cheesecake which was very rich yet authentic. well, quite sad tat it's only 4 course meal. i expected more though. haha. nonetheless, the food was great. it was something different and special and unique!
We took alot of photos. erm. more like i'm the camera man woman helping zg snap photos with his friends. i also had my own surprises of friends! Wei yan, danilah, min yi, elizabeth, christine, esther... oh! And i'm happy to finally be able to meet, see and talk to Edwin, aunty dorothy's son! like FINALLY. got a chance to sit down and talk to him since he was at my table..
After everything was over, zg and i hanged arnd nearby. went to esp rooftop. sat there and chatted for one hour! Just about things. quite glad and comforted to be able to spend time with him! It's not tat easy to be able to catch him and talk to him about stuffs. after tat, we just walked around under my persuasion tat i didn't want to go home so soon. haha. i dunno why. but i had been looking forward to this day for the entire week. and i've been studying very hard during that week to justify this night out. and i believe, because i studied so hard, i really needed a break. something inside my body was crying out to go out to town, city hall area and just walk esp or marina square or suntec. yeah. so was asking zg to spend that time with me. which i'm thankful he did! more importantly, it was the time spent and the company he's given that i'm really grateful for!
Yeah. I'm glad I dressed up that day. I did up my hair! spent the money for it. my first time doing it. did temporary curls then pin it up! it made me look very different n pretty. gotta thank my sis too for helping me "wear" my dress else alot of my hair will be messed up! And yar, it was good choice of zg to ask me to wear the dark red dress. well, i'm glad he liked my dressing that day! I mean, i always have this thinking that i wanna dress up, look good and make-up not just for myself, not just for my self-confidence, not just so i'll look good, but more for the guy. to want that guy to feel proud of walking beside me (: what's more for a ball where i'll be meeting so many of his peers!
thankfully, quite a number of ladies wore other colours besides black. there's white, blue, pink and red! yay. so i'm not the only one. and there's one, our nick-named lady: greek goddess. Haha. but her dressing was quite good lah. elaborate but good. indeed, this ball really opens up my eye. I really saw alot of different dressing. there are some that are really short and tight. there are others tat literally sweep the carpet. both zg and i were stunned. and there were those blue ones, the unique foldings and colours on the dress. but zg was very nice and gentlemanly. though i keep commenting that other ladies' dresses were pretty, he would always say tat i look good and that my dress is nice too. haha. thanks man! it helps alot! =)
All in all, i had a good break, a good dinner and a good time at the ball!More importantly, i had a wonderful company and a meaning spending of time with Zhen Guang! yeah. to me, nothing beats spending time with people and doing things together. And I'm glad I had this honour to be his date at this occasion and celebrate together with him! =) Congrats once again! and just want to say thanks for that night! =D My pri 6 classmate cum CTSS school mate cum same birthday kaki! *Don't ever forget the last one! It's rare to find k? So you muz rmb me!* :P
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Wednesday, March 25, 2009 @ 10:16 pm
[reflecting, dilemma]
There are always 2 sides to looking at the situation. Either optismitically or pessimistically. And now, I'm presented with 2 sides that I can take--either wallow in self-pity, pondering over things and just shaking my head away. Or be thankful still for what is still present and just be contented with what I have. Which should I take?
I don't know if it's the person that changed or the situation that made me see it this way. From my point of view, things seems to have changed alot on a spiral down. Things just don't used to be the same as before. Saying this, am I hoping and expecting for things to be the same? I don't know. Perhaps so. Or maybe expecting things to be better or just be the same. Or maybe, not such a drastic change. But in reality, it seems to me to be a drastic one. In a really short time. With changes in situations, I really wonder if it's the situation or the person that changed.
On the other hand, to make myself happier or even comforted, I just keep telling myself that things aren't that bad. And remind myself of all the things that is still being done right now though not what I hoped for. But, still, the art of gratefulness is one to be gasped and held on to so as to make life more cheerful.
Sigh. Saying this is a risk. But I really wanna get it off my chest. I really don't know what to do. This is one person whose relationship I don't want to take lightly. I just don't want things to turn bad, sour or ugly. I just want it to be the best for us both. I just hope I can handle this maturely. I want to.
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Friday, March 20, 2009 @ 8:22 pm
[updates, thanksgivings]
Haha. Looking at Khalis' blog makes me wanna smile and laugh. Not that it's hilarious but that it's sweet and interesting! I thought it was Khalis who FINALLY blogged but it turned out to be Lina. Haha. Sweet! It was still nice. At least give some life to the blog. Not like someone hor... haha. I guessed she'd touched down today. So hope she had a safe journey back and be able to meet Khalis soon! (: Lina, if you are reading, I'm looking fwd to hearing your tales and stories of your HK trip! =))
The week in hall didn't turn out that bad. Partly cos I went back home to slp on Monday night. It was a comfort to go back there. Mm. But the week itself wasn't tat good. I caught the flu bug!! It started on Monday during lab and thereafter! I had this wonderful lab session of drawing (and I really mean wonderfully good) except that it started to get too cold plus the pouring rain outside makes it worse.
After that, I went on with my lectures as usual. Didn't take any med or go back to hall to rest. Went for BSF at night and boom! I felt really unwell and ill. So I called home asking mum to pick me up and send me home to medicate and rest and slp.
The nxt day, Tuesday, was the worst hit. I almost caught a fever! I had to take panadol and slp till dinner after all my lectures and lessons ended (and yes, I still insisted on going for my lessons. ha). But tat was a good rest and managed to study pretty well that night. Also, that night, zg asked me not to go for his parade tml. So sad :(
Well, so it was on and off. My flu comes and flows. I think I caught a cold instead cos my body aches. I learned it from Le Jing who said flu is running nose. But cold is when you have running nose and the body aches. Haha. I literally almost used my whole tissue box that I had jus brought to hall! Boy! was blowing my nose away at nights. And I also had a bit of asthma. Bad. Once I entered the air con room, there goes my lungs and trechea and nose. But I'm safe. Thank God.
Now, my nose seems better. But I think it had turned to cough and alot of phlegm is still stuck in my throat. At least I didn't lose my voice. But I hope to recover soon before the ball nxt week! I wanna enjoy the good food! And don't want to be wheezing away or coughing away there and then. Hopefully, with ample rest and good medication, I will recover fast. Also, exams are round the corner! not good to be sick! *I miss those days when I can eat chocolate, drink mocha and eat whatever I can*
So exams are in 3 weeks time! One week has just passed. Have I started revising? I guess you can count it so. Cos I'm revising those topics that are going to be covered in the up-coming tests. So I'm taking those revisions as studying for exams. I've also started planning already. For the entire coming 3 weeks and also during the exam weeks itself. Quite a tight schedule such that I have to keep rubbing off my initial plans and add topics on certain days. Quite stretched and scary.
I'm just cautioning myself against unrealistic expectations and goals. I've learned over the years to be realistic and in doing so, reduce stress and disappointment. I guess this is the best I can do thus far. Could be done better if I'd started revision earlier. But if so, does that call for a 5 or 6-week preparation for the exams? A bit too early, don't you think? Well, I'll see how this sem goes. If revision is really too tight and unrealistic, then I guess I really have to prepare 6 weeks in advance. If that is the demand of uni studies on me, then it shall be! No matter how stupid I may look. Okay. On another note, the plan is tentative. May I have a heart-mind attitude that is willing to accept changes that God brings about!
Well, I must say that I've made quite a number of significant and good changes. And before I start to list them down, I must give God the glory, honour and thanks for giving me the discipline, patience, motivation, strength, perseverance and hope! So here is the list. Dedicated to God.
Reading that day's lecture notes (revising what was taught that day. It helps me to retain info in my head and I'm more prepared when I attend the next lecture which most often is a continuation of the prev one. It's a more consistent revision so I know what I'm studying and not so stress up now when I'm reading my notes again
Reading of Physic textbook. Thank God for understanding of the text. And mind you, it's PHYSICS textbook--the subject that I'm not really good at. And I'm glad I read it consistently, trying to keep up with the pace of the lecture. I read EVERY single chapter that was taught! Yay! Except for relativity onwards. Cos the txtbook talks alot but not the lecture. So I don't know which sections to read and which sections not to. I must say txtbook helps me alot in understanding concepts in GOOD, PROPER, LAY-MAN'S TERMS English. And I get to make and jot down alot of notes on my lecture notes that are additional but good information (: Not to forget, the solution manual that has the complete worked solution! =))
Planning. This time I did planning much better. And try to have more time to prac on past year papers. I hope it worked. Or better than what I had planned!
Completing my tutorials on time. Yea. Nothing beats practising and I'm glad I didn't rush alot to complete them!
Overall, I do feel more prepared now as I'm preparing for my exams. It's like I know sniplets of the lectures in my head already. So it isn't that hard to revise and look at them again. Not that foreign!
Well, another thing to thank God for was my 2 A+ results I received today! First was my lab! Did a drawing lab. And the teacher commented that my sofa and window was well-drawn! So he gave me 90--A+! Yay! Quite happy for that! And I hope that it'll pull up my lab marks again. And I sure hope (and slightly confident) that if the formal lab report didn't go wrong, I would score well (like A- to A+) for lab again! Then, it'll pull my GPA higher! =) Yes! Hope. But whether or not I really get that result, thank you God! Below are the pics of that lab. I'm also planning to create a facebook album for my drawing pics! The progress you know. Not easy leh. Haha. Check it out soon!
The 2nd A+ result was my effective comm project! Thank God and thank you Wanting, Jue Xuan, Yuan Zhe and Yu Zhu! Thanks all for your help and contribution and sticking around during the crisis! It was really a crisis! Just 2 days before submission and I was told that we did our project wrongly! How bad can it get! So in just 2 days, we rush out a write up which earned an A+! Yay! And the brochure earned an A+ too! It was a very beautiful and well-done brochure! Thanks to Jue Xuan who did up most of it! With her powerful skills in powerpoint! Super power lah! Can go ask her to help me out nxt time! I bet she had explored all the effects and functions already lah..in the new M. 2007! Thanks all once again! I'm sure it'll pull up our grades and marks! Especially for me when I know I didn't score well for my assignment 1 which was a B+.
On another note, I spent alot of time preparing for the Esther bible study today. Really alot. I started my QT and all at 7pm and then headed on to read the book and prepare for BS till 930pm! That's how long! I read 2 chapters. And after reading, had to take down pointers, look at the material I had and the qns and think of how to link them and what to say and what I can skip...boy! It sure is alot of preparation work. I learned alot in the process but what struck me more is this question "So, this is the amount of effort you should be putting in for EVERY Bible study lesson. Not just in your BS with Shuhui but also to your future DG if you take up the SM role. This is the amount of commitment and time and sacrifice demanded of you. Are you willing to do so? Are you willing to put in that much effort? Are you willing to take up that challenge and answer that calling to prepare lessons and lead?" Till now, I have not given a firm answer. But I've got a chance to see the real amount of effort needed. So, am I ready and willing?
Well, all in all, I had a good, fulfilling, enriching, meaningful, God-filled Bible Study session with Shuhui today! After stopping for so many weeks! Finally there's a chance and time! (: And thanks for the sharing too! Will be praying for you!
Well, weekends are here! Got a study plan to carry out! But also feel like relaxing tonight. Just can't. But I so wanna catch the jacky chan movie tat's coming out on 2april! maybe I'll watch with jeremy if he's free. one of the friday nights when he booked out with the pair of cheap tix he's gotten. else, I'll jus go catch it alone. can't possibly be having others be obliged to watch with me when it's near the exams. if i wanna have a break and put my studies at a little risk, let it be me only. don't implicate others. tat's my rationale and the comfort i tell myself when i watch movies alone. ha. okay! to end off my post with an insighful poem:
I am only one,
But still I am one
I cannot do everything,
But still I can do something;
And because I cannot do everything,
I will not refuse to do something that I can do.
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Monday, March 16, 2009 @ 12:59 am
[frustrated]
Well, after my slightly emo post on Khalis, which I wonder if he'd read it, he popped by on Sunday evening! Yay! That was great and unexpected! And he brought a surprise guest too! His gf (: I'm glad that I finally met Lina. And him of course. I don't know why but i did feel like I'm not myself when I was talking to them. A bit scared and I think I haven't warmed up to Lina alot yet.
The 2 of them jus sat on the bike while I just stood arnd and talked to them. ha. well, had a good chat i would say. Catch up a bit though I dun know much or extra stuffs about Khalis. Just the usual. Oh well. And I hope Lina will have a safe and enjoyable trip to HK tml! So nice hor? Gets to go with her fren to HK! For a vacation! I wonder if I'll ever have this chance to travel with my friend(s). Definitely, I would prefer a small grp so it's easier to make decisions and to accomodate/give in to each other's preferences. I hope there will come one day! (= Backpack!
Okay. So down here, I wanna say thanks to Khalis, my bestie, for dropping by my house! And for letting me share abit on myself...
Sigh. Now, somehow I still don't feel good. Somehow, I'm jus not looking forward to going back to hall. I wonder what it'll be like. Will I be able to sleep? Will I be able to get the ample rest I need? Will the lack of rest affect my conduct and mindset towards my frens? I'm starting to see a link between the both of them. But, my greatest factor that's making me sad and not that enthusiastic in going back is whether I'll be able to sleep in hall...
I could just picture my roomie studying till late at night, with the lights on or going to her fren's room to study (which I'll feel very guilty of). Then, somehow, when she's away, my body refuses to slp! It seems like it wanna wait for her to come back and quite afraid that she'll come back. argh. i dunno wad's wrong with me. still, home is the best. maybe i'll shift out of hall soon? Even though it's 4 weeks till end of semester but I really don't want anything to affect my studies.
Sigh. and my roomie keeps talking to me about her probs. I'm okay with listening but not when it keeps repeating and repeating; the same stuffs over and over again; the same sentences...argh. sometimes, it gets really irritating and it seems like she's saying for herself to hear and not for me to understand. and wad can i say? She doesn't even seem ready to listen to any advice that I wanna give neither does she look like she'll heed them!! grr. Okay. I'm not bad-mouthing my roomie here. I'll find a chance to tell her wad i feel...everything that I've said in this paragraph above. I just need a let-out of the frustrations and undue stress that I have now!
Another thing that makes me sad and frustrated now is that Zhiwen didn't reply my msg! I merely asked a question on whether he is holding on to one of my books and he didn't even give me a single reply! I bet he read that message already! I've no idea why he doesn't reply?!?! I'm so annoyed! Cos that book is my favourite! Not only is it closest to my heart, but I learned alot from it and it's given by my friend! A friend whom I treasure alot! And it has a message from her written in the book! I really want that book back. I really want to have it by my side again! It's the thought that I wanna hold on to, the feeling that the lessons I've learned is close to me physically and a reminder for me. I just want to know if the book is with him. So I can arrange something. If it isn't, then I'll rack my brains harder to find out who I lend it to or search my house more thoroughly. Zhiwen, if you are reading this, please reply my question!
Okay. This post has alot of bitter feelings and frustrations. hope I'll feel better after talking it out here and to God (later). Goodnight.
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Thursday, March 12, 2009 @ 10:32 am
[taking time off]
Now, it's computing tut! Haha. Okay. Don't worry. It hasn't started yet so I can blog. I'm quite excited. Today I'll be serving with Crystal at the SM Appreciation Day! Playing keyboard. Had a prac with her. Learned new songs (: Also listened to them on youtube. Quite happy. Youtube is quite cool! Can find many songs online! With great multimedia ppt by ppl! Well done guys! They are very touching indeed!
Okay. Typing this paragraph at the end of computing tut and I just died in it again. Sigh. Part 2 of computing sure isn't easy!
FULL MOON these few days!! =) did you see it? It's beautiful! As always! A symbol of God's love to me! =)) Thank you God!
Finally, miss you Khalis! Been a long time since we last had a good long chat and even meet up! I miss those times when we had fun going out, riding, heading to the parks and just talking by the beach, taking photos, watching movies and snooker! Sigh. Things changed I guess. I wonder if it's possible to re-live those times. But I guess, I shld accept changes and just be contented with what I have!
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Sunday, March 08, 2009 @ 12:18 am
[hmm]
Hmm. I wonder what to post. I've been wanting to blog for a long time. But dunno what to say. I feel like writing something spiritual for encouragement. But someone said that the past few posts have been spiritual and different :P Haha. Okay. Not aiming at *you*. Don't be offended k, friend? Well, but it did get me thinking: What should I post? Well, maybe I'll post something non-spiritual to get the guilty conscience off my chest then I can post something spiritual again without feeling guilty. Haha. I guess, it's time to let ppl know what's happening in my life too!
Well, school resumed for one week! Glad and happy for it! Met Dennis and Ian coincidentally at canteen B! Quite happy! And I'm even happier to see my friends! Wanting, John, Peter, Lester, Jue Xuan, Eugene, Wee Siang, Yi Chen, Terence...Then, suddenly, I feel that I'm really blessed. Well, it's not the first time I'm feeling this, so don't worry. I'm always and have been grateful to God for friends like them from the start! They are really great and God is better! Thank God for giving me and blessing me with friends! And I'm glad that through the recess week and the effective comm proj, I got closer to Jue Xuan--can talk more comfortably with her (: yay! Cheers to friendships!
Crusade was good too. That's why there's the video at the bottom. Makes me think of using youtube more often in my Bible Study. Can be impactful and a good starter! (=
Well, other than that, 3 tests went good. MCQs for chem. Phys, for the first time, I can get all correct except for one qn tat's wrong! ha. Well, partly cos it's open-book. Ha. But at least I know my concepts and studied for it that I can do the paper! Computing quiz was alright though I almost forgot my maths formula. And there's no "while" or "for" loop! So tat's not too bad. The nxt test coming up is Maths! nxt Friday! Hope I'll prepare in time for it!
Effective comm project..thank God it went well! =) and jue xuan did a fantastic job! She can use ppt 2007 super well lah! It totally rocks! Nxt time I know where to go if I need help! and she can use the effects that is installed to the max potential! Ha. Thanked her alot for her effort! =)
Okay. There's nothing much to say already. That's about all for updates. Just wanna say that I'm saddened over the 2 suicide cases in NTU. Didn't expect that and gives me a reason to keep a look-out for my friends or acquaintances who are stressed or depressed. Hope ppl alike can talk it out and go for counselling. Going for counselling isn't a sign of weakness.
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Thursday, March 05, 2009 @ 11:05 pm
[wonderful video!]
What if I give all by Ray Boltz
What if I give all
He heard the preacher say
"A single dime could feed
A hungry boy or girl with
Nothing to eat"
So he pulled a dollar
From the pocket of his jeans
He asked his Mama,
"How many will this feed?"
She just smiled
When she told him ten
He reached back in again
"What if I give all I have
What will that gift do?"
"My child a gift like that could change the world
It could feed a multitude!"
He didn't close his eyes or turn away
I can see him standing tall
He saw the need and I can hear him say
"What if I give all?"
Three birthday dollars
Could have bought a special toy
But he reminds me of
A another little boy
Who gave to Jesus
A gift of fish and bread
I wonder if he said,
"What if I give all I have
What will that gift do?"
"My child a gift like that could change the world
It could feed a multitude!"
He didn't close his eyes or turn away
I can see him standing tall
He saw the need and I can hear him say
"What if I give all?"
Long ago
A Father and His Son
Saw the children lost in sin
Can you see the tears in Father's eyes
As Jesus says to him
"What if I give all I have
What will that gift do?"
"My son that gift will change the world
It will feed the multitude"
"So what if I give all I have
What will that gift do?
My child a gift like that could change the world
It could feed a multitude
We cannot close our eyes and turn away
When we hear His Spirit call
We see the need, now let Him hear us say,
"What if I give all?
What if I give all?"
Amen! That video and song is good right? The movie behind it too! I love it! I was super touched by it and almost teared. It touches my heart so deep to see how the young little boy responses to God and give his all to God! Missions and encouraging his friend. I think tat's a very lovely act!
Ultimately, this video also tells me and challenges me to give it all to God. It's a good one and linked very closely to the message that Cynthia was sharing today at Crusade! It's a good and impactful conclusion.
Learnt that giving my best to God invloves 2 Hs--heart and hands. A heart to trust in His goodness and a pair of hands to act in continual obedience to God. It impacts me once again to have God at the centre of my heart and to give my all to Him! For His glory and worship! He deserves it! And Jesus is my grace! And my way to thanking Him is to give my best to God! For Him!
Yes Lord, you alone deserves all praises and all effort from me. You alone is the reason and motivation for my being and my moving. May you always find the best in me and not mediocrity. There are things I need to change, areas you reveal to me to improve. May I change and be conformed to the likeness of Jesus. For you God. To give my best for you. Amen.
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Wednesday, March 04, 2009 @ 1:30 am
"God blesses you": Who and How?
"Finally, all of you, have unity of mind, sympathy, brotherly love,a tender heart, and a humble mind. Do not repay evil for evil or reviling for reviling, but on the contrary, bless, for to this you were called, that you may obtain a blessing. For "Whoever desires to love life and see good days, let him keep his tongue from evil and his lips from speaking deceit; let him turn away from evil and do good; let him seek peace and pursue it. For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are open to their prayer. But the face of the Lord is against those who do evil." Now who is there to harm you if you are zealous for what is good? But even if you should suffer for righteousness’ sake, you will be blessed. Have no fear of them, nor be troubled, but in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect, having a good conscience, so that, when you are slandered, those who revile your good behavior in Christ may be put to shame. For it is better to suffer for doing good, if that should be God’s will, than for doing evil. For Christ also suffered once for sins, the righteous for the unrighteous, that he might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh but made alive in the spirit..." 1 Peter 3:8-18(EVS)
We often say and hear the words, "God bless you", but what do we really mean? The Scriptures give us several pictures of those whom God blesses. The Psalmist describes the blessed man as someone "who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers; but (whose) delight is in the law of the LORD (on which) he meditates day and night" (Ps 1:1-2). The prophet Jeremiah teaches that the blessed man is one "who trusts in the LORD" (Jer 17:7)
The Lord Jesus gives the divine perspective of blessedness in His preface to the Sermon on the Mount with such "beatitudes" as humility, holiness, harmony and hope (Matt 5:1-12)
In today's passage, the apostle Peter echoes his Master in describing those whom God blesses, and who bless others. He was writing to Christians in Asia Minor (present-day Turkey) who faced severe trials and persecution in the first century.
Those whom God blesses are first, those who receive and reflect the Christ-like graces of humility, compassion, sympathy and harmony in attitudes, behaviour and character (1 Peter 3:8)
Second, God's favour is on those who return blessing when evil is done to them (1 Peter 3:9-14). It has been said that when we return good for good, or evil for evil, we are being human; when we return evil for good, we are being devilish; when we return good for evil, we are being Christ-like. Peter himself earlier wrote of Christ's own example, "When he was reviled, he did not revile in return; when he suffered, he did not threaten, but continued entrusting himself to him who judges justly." (1 Peter 2:23)
Third, God's blessing is on those who reverence Christ as Lord in their hearts and their witness (1 Peter 3:15). Only when He takes first place in our hearts and minds can we experience blessing upon blessing, especially in the midst of trials nad tribulations. This is because He enables us, in such circumstances, to experience the fruits of His Sacrifice and the fellowship of His suffereings (1 Peter 3:18, 4:1-2, 12-16).
Finally, God's blessings flow through His children who respond graciously to those who question them about thir hope and faith, while keeping a good conscience, and showing genuine concern for others (1 Peter 3:16-17).
Sharon
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1 May 1989...Labour Day!
Abundant Life Baptist Church
Pei Hwa Presbyterian Pri Sch (PHPPS),
Clementi Town Sec Sch (CTSS),
St Andrews Junior College (SAJC),
Nanyang Technological University (NTU)
Loves: God
Bible
Family (dad, mum, reuben, sarah, po-po)
Friends
Band: Hillsong, Don Moen, Corrine May
Food: jus can't take spice, crab n prawns :(
Music: Christian n comtemporary/love songs
Movies: Cinderella Story, Matrix, I Robot, Lord of the Rings, Princess Dairy Series, The Island, Gattaca, Crash, Stardust...