Well, after my slightly emo post on Khalis, which I wonder if he'd read it, he popped by on Sunday evening! Yay! That was great and unexpected! And he brought a surprise guest too! His gf (: I'm glad that I finally met Lina. And him of course. I don't know why but i did feel like I'm not myself when I was talking to them. A bit scared and I think I haven't warmed up to Lina alot yet.

The 2 of them jus sat on the bike while I just stood arnd and talked to them. ha. well, had a good chat i would say. Catch up a bit though I dun know much or extra stuffs about Khalis. Just the usual. Oh well. And I hope Lina will have a safe and enjoyable trip to HK tml! So nice hor? Gets to go with her fren to HK! For a vacation! I wonder if I'll ever have this chance to travel with my friend(s). Definitely, I would prefer a small grp so it's easier to make decisions and to accomodate/give in to each other's preferences. I hope there will come one day! (= Backpack!

Okay. So down here, I wanna say thanks to Khalis, my bestie, for dropping by my house! And for letting me share abit on myself...

Sigh. Now, somehow I still don't feel good. Somehow, I'm jus not looking forward to going back to hall. I wonder what it'll be like. Will I be able to sleep? Will I be able to get the ample rest I need? Will the lack of rest affect my conduct and mindset towards my frens? I'm starting to see a link between the both of them. But, my greatest factor that's making me sad and not that enthusiastic in going back is whether I'll be able to sleep in hall...

I could just picture my roomie studying till late at night, with the lights on or going to her fren's room to study (which I'll feel very guilty of). Then, somehow, when she's away, my body refuses to slp! It seems like it wanna wait for her to come back and quite afraid that she'll come back. argh. i dunno wad's wrong with me. still, home is the best. maybe i'll shift out of hall soon? Even though it's 4 weeks till end of semester but I really don't want anything to affect my studies.

Sigh. and my roomie keeps talking to me about her probs. I'm okay with listening but not when it keeps repeating and repeating; the same stuffs over and over again; the same sentences...argh. sometimes, it gets really irritating and it seems like she's saying for herself to hear and not for me to understand. and wad can i say? She doesn't even seem ready to listen to any advice that I wanna give neither does she look like she'll heed them!! grr. Okay. I'm not bad-mouthing my roomie here. I'll find a chance to tell her wad i feel...everything that I've said in this paragraph above. I just need a let-out of the frustrations and undue stress that I have now!

Another thing that makes me sad and frustrated now is that Zhiwen didn't reply my msg! I merely asked a question on whether he is holding on to one of my books and he didn't even give me a single reply! I bet he read that message already! I've no idea why he doesn't reply?!?! I'm so annoyed! Cos that book is my favourite! Not only is it closest to my heart, but I learned alot from it and it's given by my friend! A friend whom I treasure alot! And it has a message from her written in the book! I really want that book back. I really want to have it by my side again! It's the thought that I wanna hold on to, the feeling that the lessons I've learned is close to me physically and a reminder for me. I just want to know if the book is with him. So I can arrange something. If it isn't, then I'll rack my brains harder to find out who I lend it to or search my house more thoroughly. Zhiwen, if you are reading this, please reply my question!

Okay. This post has alot of bitter feelings and frustrations. hope I'll feel better after talking it out here and to God (later). Goodnight.