Dead tired now. Plus it doesn't help when I woke up with both of shoulders aching. It's super horrible lah. Lasted all the way till now. Bleah.

Today was quite tiring. Went to church in the morning. To my aunt's church. Big but not as big as Paul's one. And they had some links/connection with CHC in Singapore. It's no wonder the songs they chose, the way they do their camera and even the message is quite like CHC. I guess that's why I didn't really enjoy it. I felt that the sermon was a bit skewed. Well, at least I got to meet Aunty Lily's two other sons. Especially the eldest one whom I've heard abt the last visit. Quite a good catch but a pity he's attached. ha. One year older than me but going to finish his degree in Australia! Wow! Fast eh? Amazingly fast. Partly cos he studied for his A's in 1 year! And I have to wait for abt 6 mths b4 I enter uni. That's why...

Well, nonetheless it was good to meet the 2 boys. I'm in btw the 2 of them. so the eldest is 1 year older than me while the 2nd boy is 1 year younger than me. Then, they asked me this question: Will you come to Sabah and stay? I was taken aback by this question. I didn't expect it and I don't know what to say. They are quite pro Sabah ppl. And to say no is like "insulting" to them. Yet, deep down in my heart, I've actually been searching for an answer to this question.

Having been driven around KK for the past few days, I quite like the scenery and landscape here. Buildings are not tall, the trees and mountains and hills are present! And the air is fresher. The pace of life is much slower and it's very different from Singapore. The roads are different. Less traffic lights, less congestion, risky and scary. There's no MRT here! So it's car, taxi, bus and foot. It's very very different. An escape. A relaxation. A rest. Not to forget, the beautiful tourist attractions...I really wonder if I would return.

A part of me wants to return while another says, "Hey man. Singapore is a good, reliable and capabale place to be in. Stay there". Well, for one, the education in Singapore is much better. So is the std of living. Sigh. I guess, for the sake of my kids' education in the future, I wld remain in spore. A better future. But if it's just for relaxation and retirement, Sabah wld be nice. Different. A thousand smiles on my face cos I simply love nature!

So, to continue the story, today I went to Sabah's largest shopping complex. What everybody has been talking abt and bragging abt (Mum's frens and aunty): 1 Borneo. But! It's not tat nice lor. They say until so nice like that. It's big but too big. It's too spacious in between isles. And it's not colourful. Can't be compared to Spore's shopping complexes like Marina Square, Vivocity and Suntec City. Ha. Perhaps it's their pride and honour. But hey man, look at what spore can offer b4 bragging!

Anyway, I went there and bought a working skirt for myself. And mum bought abt one or two clothes. But I got quite emo and irritated halfway through. My mum was simply insensitive to my needs and surroundings. Bleah. Don't like that! That's why I'm here blogging and ranting it out. To top it off, Coffee Bean was located at such a secluded place! I was so irritated lah! So far just to get my cup of mocha. Actually, I'm quite paiseh that Aunty and Uncle has to follow us arnd and wait for my mum & I while we try our clothes. Sorry man!

Sigh. I'm still so irritated actually. Emo perhaps? Argh. I wonder when I will ever get....grr...I'm so upset and irritated!! When man! Oh when!! Sigh. Patience, trust and growing. I think that's what I shld learn to do and do it!