Evelyn often likes to ask us during the YA's Sunday School: Are you first a Christian then a worker? Or a worker first then a Christian? I am always intrigued by this question yet felt it very real. It's a really good question to ask as it makes me reflect on what are my priorities and where are my values based on? Work and achieving its end goal no matter what? Or on Christ, His principles and teachings?

Even though I haven't went full-fledge into work yet, but I do feel the very strong effects of work. It's really very tiring and that sometimes, I really do feel like cheating my way through work, stealing (not money but time) and just simply not doing my best or as what Jesus would do if He were in my place. The workplace is really a marketplace. It's either I make it or break it. It's either here or there. It's either a place where I can give a good testimony or a tempting ground full of traps for me to fall into sin.

Then, on the way back, I twisted the question a little for myself. Am I first a Christian then a Singaporean? Or a Singaporean first then a Christian? Sitting on the trains the past few days and taking the bus in the morning rush hour, I'm really quite piss off at the attitudes of the people on these public transport. How can I be a Christian in this ungracious and inconsiderate environment?!?! I really don't know how and don't know what to do. It really piss me off and really don't feel like apologising if my bag hit them. It is really the "serves you right for not moving in" kinda thinking. I really don't like these scenerios. BLEAH!

Sigh. Still emo-ing. Don't know why but having mood swings. At least I don't do it to my colleagues but gotta be more careful at home. Quick quick, hormones! Stop discharing and running all over my body system and making me "tipsy"! Hope you get flushed out soon! Like real soon. You're way overdue! But hmm..perhaps it's just my temperament. Gotta exercise self-control in what I think and do and say. Gotta grow up Sharon! And don't be so emo! And stand strong!