Haha. Just want to get things off my chest. If you're one of my closer frens and also been an avid fan of FB, then you'll know that I'm super stress up these days and hitting a break-down point soon.

I'm super stress and tired. Mentally, physically and spiritually. What stresses me out? All the appointments, meet-ups and FOC preparations! Yes. The last one stress me out alot. Esp preparing for hall's Foc. I'm not complaining but that I didn't realise there's alot of work. Sigh. If only my leaders had told me the changes earlier. Then, I wouldn't need to do last min work and rush to meet my team before they are all unavailable.

Meet-ups arrangements are also making me tired. I'm not tired or sad to meet up with my frens but that I have to rmb when I'm free, who I'm meeting, where and what time. All these all stored in my head and my HP (which is super cramped up). And so it gets very tiring. Suddenly, as the sch is about to begin, everyone seems to be meeting up and making use of whatever chance is left. Ha.

And work hasn't been good. Boring, making feel like I really don't want to enter office. After each work day, I would feel very VERY drained. It just drains and saps all my energy. Totally. And I'm very tired. I still meet up after work and would put a font. I guess, it's because of this font that when I reach home, I'm totally beat :(

Sigh. Not just the activities but also the spiritual side of things. There is pressure. I have my BSF HW that I haven't been touching this week and haven't been into the momentum yet. Plus, I want and have to prepare myself mentally and spiritually for my upcoming 2 crusade camps! To calm myself down and set my heart right before the SMC and to prepare my heart to lead and serve along with Jason during my Crusade FOC. Ahh. There are things to pray for and my heart to prepare! Oh God! Help me out of this!

Not only this, but cos of my going-outs and eat outs outside, I've been spending little time with my family. I can be unavailable to talk to my sis for one whole day! And just today, my mum said that I'm not at home most of the time. wah. When I heard it, I was quite upset and hurt. Why does she say that? It's not like I really want to. Ahh. I really want to spend time with my family. I miss them. It's an obligation too.

Sigh. So many things on my mind. I guess that's what making me stress. So many things to prepare, so many things to follow up on, so many things that need so much time. All I can do is to pray and ask God for strength and grace to go through the reamining days plus my 3 consecutive camps for the 3 consecutive weeks...