Okay. Blogger does look weird now. Like what JX was saying on her blog. No wonder she can't upload pics! Haha. There's simply nothing to click on. Ha.

Anyway, I think I had better post another entry here lest people think I'm still stress up and all. Well, I'm much better now. Thanks to all of your (friends) encouragements. I really felt your warmth and concern. Your advice and you being there really helped. Thanks lots man. Every bit counts. Special mention: Wanting, Peter, John, Andrew, Jonathan, Evelyn, Jason, Dennis...yar. If I've missed you out. Sorry!

After going through that period of time, i really wonder what happened. How come I sank so deep and almost hit breaking point. I wonder. Hmm.

But through it all, I learned that support from friends (esp Christian ones) are important. And that God is the one I can count on ultimately. And it's cos of this truth that I never really got upset with one of my closer friends when s/he didn't give me the support i needed that day and made me upset still. Oh well. A sign of growing up and learning? I wonder. Anyway, I thank God for this period of time. It's through trials that one learns and grows. I hope I learned and grew.

But I fell sick! Yes. Literally ill and sick. quite a bad one. I got a sore throat before SMC but I still insisted on going to the camp. After that, I fell sick more when I had a headache (I hardly get it so it's really something when I do), and think I'd a fever and caught a flu at the end of the 2nd day. So I called mum and said that I may be going home. And I really needed to go home eventually. Couldn't risk sleeping in the air-con room and getting asthma and not enough rest. And wow. Mum sms and said that she'll come to the church to fetch me home!

I was totally surprised! I really didn't expect it! I didn't expect dad to drive all the way to Bedok to fetch me! I tot it wld be late and all but I'm glad they came. This is the 2nd action that dad has touched me with. A silent act of his when he expresses his concern for me. And mum was asking me to take this and tat and chase me to slp too.

Ha. Okay. So here I am now. I rested that night and slept all the way till noon! Never had such long slp before! But I still didn't feel better. Occasional fever but I still went for band prac with John. Ha.

Well, I still can't believe what Andrew said came true! If only I'd spoken to him about this earlier then I'll get his reminder of it earlier! And perhaps, try to avoid this! Haha. But I had it coming. All the late-nights and waking up early. Sure fall sick wan. And this is the big kinda sickness. The terrible and bad one. The one that can make me bed-ridden for a few days. But quite sad there are obligations to fulfil. So I still have to go out for meetings and pracs etc.

I just pray that I'll get well soon. Esp before the camps start!

Right now, it's really on self-control. I really gotta control myself not to do it. It's been on my mind for several days now and everytime I just have to say no to myself as much as I want to say yes. I guess no is a better answer and would be what He wants. Perhaps, putting the whole thought out of my mind is the answer, the solution. Not to dwell on it. Just let it go...