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Saturday, October 31, 2009 @ 12:54 am [Crazy]
Today was quite a crazy and high day. Haha. First, I was super high and did up a video for Kok Siong's 22nd birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =) See below! I uploaded on youtube! =)
Nice? I did it in 45mins! Haha. Took the photos using my webcam on my laptop during the CS100 elective break. Then, did a quick and fast one. At least the chorus is 39 seconds. So it limits me on putting too many photos and messages. Haha. Sweet. Been quite a while since I last did a video =) I'm so proud of myself! The other videos I did was my very own 18th bday celebration, my parent's 20th wedding anniversary video, my Myanmar mission trip 2007 and Youth Overcomers events :) Glad I had these in my laptop and showed seow wei the mission trip one. Showed her wad my church does and in particular, that particular mission trip! =) Brings back alot of memory too! And an evangelism tool! Also, the kids tat responded to altar call..I pray that God will continue to watch over them and the orphans! Okay. Side-track a bit. Alright. Another crazy thing is getting "harrassed" by John and Wee Siang on FB chat. Haha. The 2 crazy guys. I went round in circles before realising that they are probably sitting side-by-side. Haha. They typed the same thing on my FB chat. And when I ask one of them a qn, there was a reply on the other chat window. Haha. What a joke! And it didn't stop then! It jus happened at night too! Haha. But it sure was fun! Haven't laughed so much for so long! Esp by the 2 guys! Haha. Sweet! Thank God for friends! Miss them! I miss all of them! Wish I can spend more time with them, even if it means being physically present though not talking to each other. Sigh. Hope next week will be good and I can spend more time with them! My MSE clique! And finally, I studied on a Friday night! This is super surprising! At least to me! I usually don't study wan. Haha. Usually play and chat with people online or do anything except for studying! Haha. But good good! I studied! =) Cheers! Thank God too! Okay. Tomorrow I'm going to the Parliament House! :) For a tour! Hope it'll be good! Cheers! --------------------------------- Friday, October 30, 2009 @ 1:47 am [refreshed]
Oh craps. One of the rare times I go online on msn. And so get too carried off talking to friends that now, I am too tired to write and elaborate much. Anyway, I just write wad I can. One word for crossroads this semester is REFRESHING. Indeed, crossroads have been a time of refreshment, a time of focus back to God, a time of pause amid the hectic schedule. It's a time of solitude with God and a time of feeding on His Word and being encouraged by it. Every Thurs I end class at 5pm. So having xroads at 6.30pm can sometimes be a bit rushed and tiring. But still I persevered on and I never regretted. Thank you God. Each time I go, I am refreshed Today was the last xroads for the sem. And I was really very encouraged through today's xroads. I learned much. And how God orchestrated everything--from the song I hear when I left my hse this morning, to the situation I'm facing and to what Nigel said on the bus. I thank God. I learned much from the message. I am very encouraged by the sharings of my brothers and sisters. And I enjoyed it thoroughly. The supper fellowship with my C4C grp (FOC grp) was great! Especially catching up with Roger. Sharing concern for him, hearing his stories and how he's doing. But also laughing along with him and Annabel and the others. Haha. Super funny. I've never laughed and talked so much before! Glad I was persuaded to join them for supper! :) At BB bus stop, I coincidentally saw Nigel, my primary sch fren! Wow! Haven't seen him for ages! Glad to talk to him and find out how he is! And also for his care, concern and encouragement. "If God is for us, who can be against us?" Amen! Ties in so well with the message today! =) Well, all in all, thank you God for the refreshing time!
--------------------------------- Sunday, October 25, 2009 @ 12:34 am [stress and screwed]
I wonder if it's me or time. I wonder if it's discipline or management. I wonder if it's ill-discipline or stress. But all I can say is that I feel the pressure. Super alot of pressure. Stress up again. And I'm really like biting my nails and feeling so scared. I'm afraid I can't finish revising in time. I'm afraid I'll go into exams half-hearted again. I'm afraid Y1S1 will repeat itself again. And I'll have to rush thru prac of my past-year papers. I think I can conclude that I'm distracted. This sem I was too distracted by unnecessary things. Commitments increased too. Those are definitely not distractions. But coping with it is another milestone. Adjusting to it was tough. Then, with the add-on of giving in to the distractions, I fail. I fail horribly and land myself in this state. Craps. I'm screwed. Help me get outta this mess. *** I'm reminded of the verse in Philippians 4:19 today. "And my God will meet all your needs acording to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus". Play your part and claim that verse, Sharon. --------------------------------- Monday, October 19, 2009 @ 1:06 am [sunday joys]
Great band prac! Though we started late and ended really late, I had fun! The band's great! Isaac, Ru Yi, Timothy and Daryl. Nice to play with them! Drummer's strong and good. Daryl has good inputs. I love Tim's electri guitar set and Ru Yi's teachable spirit! Awesome! I sure had a good time! Exploring the variations and just piecing together the tricky parts and meeting what Xiu Qian (the worship leader) has in mind. Yeah. My singers are great especially the harmonies! They harmonize really very well! I can never do that! And I finally got to see who Isaac is! Haha. Jamie's 6-year bf! Wow! So long already. And I got to talk to Jamie on the phone. I think she's very stunned. Sounded super shock on the phone. Haha. But I'm happy for them. 6 years and still going! God bless them and keep them in the center of His Will! After I came home, ate a quick western dinner that mum prepared and shower. After shower, I made konnyaku jelly! A jap jelly! An inspiration from Isaac's (BSF one) mum! Great! My first time making it all by myself! Usually I help mum out but this time round, I did it on my own! Yay!! =) Hope it will turn out good for BSF fellowship on monday night! I drove on my own today! Again! 2nd time! Haha. And I was teased at church by Eleena abt yesterday's driving to clementi. Lol. So embarrassing to hear from a seasoned driver. Ha. But I drove to BB to pick the band up. Drove to chr and then back to BB stn to drop some of them. It's nice to be able to bring convenience to my friends! And even better to take the car out on my own! Yay! Freedom!! Haha. Thanks dad! Finally! I've been waiting for this for a loooong time! Okay. I'm ending here with a smile yet a little anxiousness. I'm starting to feel a really bad sore throat coming. My throat hurts now :( And I fear it's coming. And usually, for me, once I get sore throat, I'll develop a fever. And I really can't afford to fall sick cos of CDOP this coming Tue! Playing in the band. If I really kena fever, it will be quite terrible for me. I'll really feel horrible. So Lord, please protect and sustain my health! Readers and friends, especially my brothers and sisters in Christ, please pray for me too! Really need prayers! Thanks! --------------------------------- Saturday, October 17, 2009 @ 5:46 pm [temptations insight]
Hmm. I wonder what it all means. I was doing prep for Luke BS and it was on the passage of Jesus' temptations. Then, while prep younger youth's study, it was about purity and temptations too! Hmm. Well, temptations are everywhere. From surfing internet (sites that shouldn't or too much time spent there), addiction, excessively watching TV, eating too much, bending the rules, wanting to gain power and control...It's everywhere. In thoughts, actions and circumstances. So here's a little something to get things more interactive! Please poll (honestly) and let's share wad our FIRST response wld be when faced with temptations! Quite a cool one right? Got it from Wanting. Thanks girl! Hopefully, it'll be more interactive and more of a discussion. Feel free to tag on my tagboard to share your tots on the question I asked for polls! Well, as for me, sad to say, prayer isn't on the top of my list. Neither is Bible reading. More often, I would try to stop it on my own before giving in. And after say 10 mins, I'll try to resist it on my own again. Only after it fails, then I'll start to pray and ask God for help. Ha. But you know, in all this, it really makes me think and set my heart to make prayer my first resort and not my last option. God should be the center of my life. Don't let temptation create a desire in me, which when enticed create sin and which gives birth to death. I definitely don't want that spiritual separation from God, much less grief the Holy Spirit. 1 Cor 10:13, "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it" I gotta take that way out. I gotta take that first step to step on the right path and take what God has provided. I am not alone in my temptations. And God is gracious to have given me a way. Let's take that first step away from temptations together and onto God's grace which He has given to us. A few other insights that I came across while reading on Jesus' temptations:
May we follow Jesus' example and walk in faithfulness and loyalty with God, trusting He will provide and will deliver us in all temptations. In thoughts and in deeds. Amen. --------------------------------- @ 12:22 am [update]
Hmm. What should I update about. Hmm. I'm starting to wonder what's entertaining on the internet. After checking my mails and surfing fb, I really wonder wad is there to do? My fb can be slow so sometimes I don't watch the videos except those videos that are posted many times by ppl. Then I know it's good and nice. Ha. Yar...I wonder why suddenly there is an influx of videos posted! Last time was quizzes and tests. Now it's videos. Haha. Well, I guess I'm looking for rest in the wrong places. Gotta kick out the addiction of internet. It's not everything. On another hand, I'm quite surprised by ppl who suddenly come and chat with me on msn and fb. my super old friends in ctss and pri sch days. Plus some unexpected ppl from my JC class. It's a good thing though surprising. Didn't expect them to still rmb me and bother to take the time to start a convo with me. Haha. But it's sweet. At least I know I'm remembered and cared for. People do notice my existence then and now. At first it's weird but after a while, just act cool and the convo will go fine. If it's guys, I always have a set of qns to ask: When ord, which vocation, tough or not, what you do there, know anyone called....blah blah blah. I think tat's why, after a while, I start forgetting which vocation ppl are in unless they are my really close guy frens. I just ask too many of them that i just got all of them mix up. Lol. But nonetheless, it's nice to catch up and chat with them! Find out how they are doing. And kindness received should be repaid. I gain from repaying this kindness too (: Oh well. Despite requiting the old friendships, I still feel there's much more I can do to my current friendships. Perhaps I should put in the effort that these old frens of mine has shown me. And I miss him. I honestly do. After the weeks past, I still miss him. Help me to let go Lord. And just accept whatever it is. And more importantly, to respond in the way You want me too. --------------------------------- Saturday, October 10, 2009 @ 12:15 am [smiles]
After this whole period, I really see just how many genuine and caring friends I have around me. Through their encouragements, their tags, their words of "jia you" both on my blog and fb, I am really touched. People who are in the same uni as me, people who are my ctss friends, my primary school friend, my teacher and even my previous tuition mate! Fb really connects everyone! And it really touches my heart that they would take time to say something sweet, say something encouraging, say something that makes me laugh and smile. Totally. Esp the guys who jokes with me and just say some lame stuffs on my fb. And now, I appreciate much more the privilege of laughing and smiling. Every word heard from my "lame" friends is really a privilege and an honour. Every lame joke that makes me wanna whack them but I still laugh and smile is really something that I thank God for *reminds me of alvin at jtc and lester* Through the past weeks, most conversations I had with him was one that is tough. One that is differing. And one that makes me sad and depressed. I had to exercise alot of self-control. And I just don't feel secure and assured whenever we differ. Differences can be good but not when I hear it so consistently and regularly. It does get quite depressing for the soul. Feels like I'm wrong. Makes me question. Makes me wonder. Makes me upset. Through that time, I hardly smile. I hardly laugh. My heart is seldom glad or leaping with joy. There was little said that made me smile. So now, right now, I really treasure every moment that I can laugh and smile. Everything seen or read or heard. And I thank my friends for making me laugh. I thank God for them. And, as much as I have to repeat, I thank God for their care for me! Sadly, he isn't among them. I had to drop like super big hints. And sometimes, I would just get so fed-up at the passiveness that I would just say it out straight-forwardly. I guess, because of his lack of care, I suddenly felt that no one cares for me. But no. I was proven so wrong when I see the many responses and well-wishes. I know that someone hears. Someone listens. Someone acknowledges my existence. Thank you. Thank you, my friends! I really am grateful for the cares you've shown to me this past week when I was going through a tough time. And finally, thank you God for teaching me and showing me much through this trial. Though this trial is painful and hard for me to bear, I still give thanks in this circumstance. Indeed, you've taught me who you are: a God that cares and a God that provides--who knows my inner needs. And I thank you God that He has taught me valuable lessons. To treasure every moment that I smile and laugh. Thank you God for friends, once again! =) Love you Jesus!
--------------------------------- Tuesday, October 06, 2009 @ 12:45 am [a forgotten promise]
As I was doing up a calendar for my dg, I pasted the verse of 1 Peter 5:7. And suddenly, it hit me and I was filled with so much gratitude to the Lord our God. 1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you" 2 things hit me! One is God cares! Wow! He cares! Can you believe it? The God above, the one who reigns and the one who is big and mighty would care for a little person like me! It really touches me! It touches me so much that He would look down from above and share concern for me! He will lovingly touch me and be here for me! Thank you God! Another thing that touches me is the command and call to cast all my anxieties on Him. To place all my burdens, my worries, my fears and my struggles onto Him! And He will carry it for me. He will take it in His hand. And I know that He will hear and listen. And I don't need to carry these baggages. I don't need to be all alone. I can safely put them at the foot of the cross. Thank you God once again! --------------------------------- Sunday, October 04, 2009 @ 5:25 pm [encouraged]
To my friends who tagged on my blog and shared concern with me: Thanks alot! You guys really helped alot! Your simple words and wishing me well really touch my heart. I feel very blessed to have you guys! That at least I know there are people who cared! (: Yeah. I'm feeling...slightly better. Accepting reality and learning to turn and put my eyes on God. To remember that He is here, will fulfil His promises and that I will pull through with Him by my side. Well, things are still like that. Still got work piled up. And I didn't manage to study much during this week. I'm just trying to cope. To spread out the work that needs alot of reading and time so I won't feel too pressurized. Yet, in doing so, I push back some of my other work. Ahh. I don't know. I'm jus trying. And above all, learning to cloth this with the cloak of "letting go" and "let God work". I pray that things will go okay. 3 tests next week. On 1-3-5: Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Quite unlike my peers who don't have friday's test. And I have alot more things due on Friday. Lab formal report, Material Strucutre assignment which I haven't even started (yikes!) and HRM stuffs to do...plus that test to study for! Sigh. Okay. I shall not worry! I shall not be anxious! Just keep praying!!
--------------------------------- Thursday, October 01, 2009 @ 10:32 pm HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!
Nope! I'm not too old to be a child! I was reminded of this as the day dawns... "How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!" 1 John 3:1a Thank you God that I'm your child! Help me to trust in you and your promises. Bring me out of this and give me strength and hope anew! --------------------------------- |
