After this whole period, I really see just how many genuine and caring friends I have around me. Through their encouragements, their tags, their words of "jia you" both on my blog and fb, I am really touched. People who are in the same uni as me, people who are my ctss friends, my primary school friend, my teacher and even my previous tuition mate!

Fb really connects everyone! And it really touches my heart that they would take time to say something sweet, say something encouraging, say something that makes me laugh and smile. Totally. Esp the guys who jokes with me and just say some lame stuffs on my fb.

And now, I appreciate much more the privilege of laughing and smiling. Every word heard from my "lame" friends is really a privilege and an honour. Every lame joke that makes me wanna whack them but I still laugh and smile is really something that I thank God for *reminds me of alvin at jtc and lester*

Through the past weeks, most conversations I had with him was one that is tough. One that is differing. And one that makes me sad and depressed. I had to exercise alot of self-control. And I just don't feel secure and assured whenever we differ. Differences can be good but not when I hear it so consistently and regularly. It does get quite depressing for the soul. Feels like I'm wrong. Makes me question. Makes me wonder. Makes me upset. Through that time, I hardly smile. I hardly laugh. My heart is seldom glad or leaping with joy. There was little said that made me smile.

So now, right now, I really treasure every moment that I can laugh and smile. Everything seen or read or heard. And I thank my friends for making me laugh. I thank God for them.

And, as much as I have to repeat, I thank God for their care for me! Sadly, he isn't among them. I had to drop like super big hints. And sometimes, I would just get so fed-up at the passiveness that I would just say it out straight-forwardly. I guess, because of his lack of care, I suddenly felt that no one cares for me. But no. I was proven so wrong when I see the many responses and well-wishes. I know that someone hears. Someone listens. Someone acknowledges my existence. Thank you. Thank you, my friends! I really am grateful for the cares you've shown to me this past week when I was going through a tough time.

And finally, thank you God for teaching me and showing me much through this trial. Though this trial is painful and hard for me to bear, I still give thanks in this circumstance. Indeed, you've taught me who you are: a God that cares and a God that provides--who knows my inner needs. And I thank you God that He has taught me valuable lessons. To treasure every moment that I smile and laugh. Thank you God for friends, once again! =) Love you Jesus!