Today I was talking to mum about it. I know it's far-fetched but she started on the topic! So I can talk about it! I was talking to her about my fears of going to China cos of the CHINESE reports I have to type, CHINESE presentations I have to do and even a CHINESE interview! Wah! I have little confidence I can do it!

So then, I started telling her that Wanting wants to go Europe and so I won't have any company either. Then suddenly mum ask me to follow her and go Europe also! I was shocked and surprised by it! It's so expensive but she's willing to fork it out for me! Wow!

Well, it would be good and nice to go Europe with Wanting. Can tour around with my best buddy and at least I would have company. And I know Hyflux has a link there in Swiss for research. Might consider if I wanna do research. But...actually, despite saying so much, the only thing that I can't let go is my family.

If I go overseas for that matter, I would really miss them alot. And time spent there is time lost with them. And I really dunno wad effect this would have on my relationships with my family. Esp my siblings. Can skype but there is a VAST difference (to me) between being physically present and not. And I really wanna be there for my siblings! I really do. Sigh. I don't know. I really don't know what to do.

Mum has always said that going overseas is good. Esp now when I don't have commitments or anything tying me down (like direct family). I don't know. It's rare that she's supportive. And even my sis asked me to go!

Sigh. Come to think of it, it will only happen in Year 2011. It's not even next year. So I have one entire year to build things up solid and good so that when I leave (if I do), it wouldn't be as I've written above. Sigh. But still....my heart beats to the heart of my home...