Okay. The results are out. And I shall look for comfort in God and in my previous post.

I totally screw up this sem. It's my worst sem ever. And the results totally shocked and stunned me. Did I expect it? Kinda but not as bad as what reality now portrays. Am I worried? Nope. Not exactly worried but more of resignation and wondering if there is a glimpse of any hope (realistically).

I don't know. It's really very bad until I just am stunned. I didn't cry but I didn't know what to do either. I'm so scared of telling my mum know cos I'm afraid she'll start nagging at me for my increased commitments this sem. Well, it's no doubt that more commitments = more balancing of time. And if time is not well-managed, there are consequences to bear. This is one of them. Sigh.

I totally suck. Could have done so much more and did much better in managing time, resources and focus. Sigh.

Now, I just hope that there is still remaining sems to pull up my gpa and graduate with what I aim for or better.

Many asked me to check after my taiwan trip but actually I'm quite thankful that I checked it now. At least I have something else, something more wonderful, something other than studies, something that shows me God is still God, that can take my mind off the results.

Well, God, I will still say thank you cos at least I didn't fail any modules. But, help me to find more things to thank YOU about even through this stunning and saddening time.