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Wednesday, June 30, 2010 @ 4:43 pm [teaching vs coaching]
Today, I was forced by my mum to go do a relief for a trainer in an enrichment programme. At first, I don't want to go. But my only motivation was the money. It was quite a lot and I decided to just do it. It's a p6 class and only 28 pupils. So just bear with it and get through the 1.5hours of it. Wow. I was totally...Well, let's just say that my conclusion is that I really cannot teach in a classroom. I cannot control the class. No matter how fierce I look or how strict I am, I can't seem to get the students attention and respect. There isn't total silence for more than 2 mins. And I wonder if whatever I taught just now is drilled into the students' head. Sigh. I really so so so like to coach instead of teach. To give tuition or to tutor one-to-one or one-to-two instead of to a class. As I was teaching one particular boy after class, one-on-one cos he wasn't paying attention, the message was so clearly spelt across. The lesson was clearly taught. Boy! I certainly miss giving tuition! Ahh...I wanna give tuition again! :( [God-annoited meet-ups] These days, I've been meeting up with friends. And it's really nice. Haha. I think it can be clearly seen from here that I'm an extrovert--I gain my energy from meeting people. Haha. And before each meet-up, I always pray. Pray that there would be opportunity for God to speak to whoever through me, for a chance of prayer, a chance of catch-up, a chance of seeing how else I can be praying for that person in my own time. And God answers my prayer. I had a good meet-up with Le Jing. My dearest sister and had a chance to pray for her and her family. Also, shared with her lessons I've learned during the mission trip and from God Himself. Thank God that there was a chance to share, a chance to speak and those lessons that have touched me also encouraged her :) I'm really grateful to God for such an annoited time with her; such an open sharing--of joy, fears and frustrations.
Another good meet-up was with Wei Ling. This was totally nice and sweet and enjoyable. We just sat at Breeks at Causeway point and talk non-stop after dinner for 2 hours plus. Just hearing stories from Wei Ling about movements in msia, guys, church etc. And I get to share my stories too. It was nice. A really fun time and lots of talking. And at the end of everything, God answered my prayer by giving me a chance to pray for her. It's good. Especially when the others are not here. So I really get to pray for her without offending any non-christian friends that might be there.
Thank God for a time like this. Thank God for the special bonds that we have. Thank God for good, honest and open sharing. And thank God for giving us access to the throne of grace through our Lord Jesus Christ. Thank you, Jesus, for being the great high priest! :) --------------------------------- Friday, June 25, 2010 @ 4:37 pm 1 Samuel 2:1-10
Hannah's Prayer 1 Then Hannah prayed and said:
[abstract from a book I'm reading] From the first highlight, God is holy--an absence of evil. And also a presence of positive right. It is God at work doing what is positively right for us. It is the part of God's nature that keeps Him from doing anything in our lives that is not in our best interest. His love is a holy love, a pure love, committed to our best good. From the second highlight, the Lord is a God of knowledge. His perfect knowledge keeps Him from doing anything in our lives that is not perfectly right for us. God does not waste His strokes in our lives. God knows what is best for us. No trial and error. No foul balls or strikeouts. The Lord is a God of knowledge. That gives us confidence in His actions in our lives. From the third highlight, God has power. The Lord of Creation has all power. He can do whatever He wants to do. That fact, without the first two facts, might terrify us. But God tempers His power with His commitment to our welfare. He controls His power with His knowledge of what is best for us. God is not finite. God is not fallible. He not only wants what is best for us and knows with perfect knowledge what is best, He also has the power to make the best happen in our lives. God's holy commitment to us, God's knowledge of what is best for us and God's power to make the right things happen in our lives are all linked together for our good. This reminds me of Romans 8:28-29. I thank God for showing me this passage and this insight. So God, I commit all my fears, insecurities, concerns and worries to you. You know what is best for me, you know it with full knowledge. And in your mighty power, you will make my best interests come to pass. Trusting in your holy love, I know you will do it for the good of those who love you and are called according to your purpose. Every joy and tribulation. Every obstacles and trials. Every dilemma and crossroads. I thank you for each one that I've been through. And I have full assurance in you for each one to come. --------------------------------- Wednesday, June 23, 2010 @ 12:36 am Today
Wash me, Lord, in the beauty of your holiness
Laying down your rights, you took up the cross
I will be today, a follower of Jesus
Fill me Lord, with the power of your Spirit
--------------------------------- @ 12:15 am Words
Words are such powerful tools
I've personally been a receiver of it in both cases
What to say
Should all my thoughts be spilled out
I really am scared
To know what to say
--------------------------------- Tuesday, June 22, 2010 @ 1:26 am [trips]
Been travelling quite a fair bit recently. And will be doing one major trip in 4 weeks time! 4 weeks! So fast! Can't believe it's so fast. It's so scary. Honestly. Am scared. Don't know what to expect and having fears. Fears of being bullied. Afterall, it's a country whose laws and culture I'm unfamiliar with. And I'll be in a company where I'm the lowest of the lowest. God protect me. So yeah. Just came back from a trip in Batam, for a church camp, and a trip in The Philippines where I went for a mission trip. Both were great and wonderful! Thank God for the wonderful and peaceful encounters with Him! Meeting Him in both trips is really something that is awesome, beautiful and captivating! Thank God! =) God is gracious. That's one character trait that I learned from the recent mission trip. He has been gracious to the organisation there, the pastors who have been labouring for years, the ministry and to me personally. Thank God for His grace, mercy, faithfulness and perseverance. Through hearing (the other) Sharon's life stories (which are MANY), I picked out points and learned from her many things! And finally it struck me what God has been telling me, in increasing frequency, these days. Looking at my diaries (yes, there were more than one), I realised that it has been an on-going process. Among the many things that God teaches me, He has been emphasising that point time and again. And God has been gracious to me, speaking to me gently and not using a harsh rod on me. Thank you God. I will heed and listen to what you have to say. And because of who you are, God, I will trust you in this upcoming china trip. Lord, you know how I feel. You know how scared I am. You know my fears, insecurities and thoughts. You make me inside out and you know my every thought. So, Father, address them. Bit by bit. Revealing yourself to me too. And in who you are, I will be assured. Amen. --------------------------------- Tuesday, June 08, 2010 @ 4:50 pm [update]
Okay. Before I start doing anything, I promised Marcus a few weeks back that I'll blog. So here I am! Blogging. I wonder why I don't have much inspiration these few weeks. Hmm. Maybe cos I'm just consumed by the other things that need to be done. Yes. I've been pretty busy. Emailing back and forth still. For all the accomodation. And making phone calls to discuss issues etc. But I thank God for this week of rest as I prepare myself for the mission trip starting this Saturday. Pray for safety and protection against harm and danger k? :) The past few days have been good. Had a good session of K with my friends! Really awesome! Though missed a few people like Yichen and Jue Xuan! Especially JX. Not just our photographer, but the hype of our clique and I wanted to catch up and chat with her too. Oh well. But still, it was nice just being with my other friends and singing together. Wow. Wanting can do harmonising really well! And QY is really funny when he's high on singing. Never seen him like that before! Lol. And another funny thing is that we end up singing alot of English songs instead of Chinese songs. Really. I would dare say that out of the many songs we sing within 4 hours, there are only about 5 songs that are chinese. The rest are English ones. Lol. I met up with my flatmates too. Hui Min and Ken and Owen. It was nice meeting them finally. Couldn't recognise Hui Min and Ken until they came forward to greet me. Ha. And had a really good and long and nice chat with Ken, just sitting at the steps at City Hall stn. 1 hour. Just sitting there and getting to know him better :) Talked about his recent vietnam trip too! We had lunch together as a group thereafter and discussed about the apartment and the items to buy over. I'm glad we all can clique relatively well so far. Except for the shopping part. Ken and I were very sporting. He would enter the girls shop tgt with me and linger a while there, and I would enter the guys shop when he's shopping for his clothes. It was nice shopping with him too. But Hui Min seems bored and left both shops quickly. Hmm. I wonder if I would hold her up next time when we go shopping together. She says she does more online shopping. I guess that explains why. But, I'll certainly miss shopping with Wanting and Bethia whom I met later that evening! Yeah. Had a good time of shopping and dinner too! Cheap and good dinner! =) Good lobang right? :) So shopped for quite a fair bit and surprisingly, I was the first one to surrender and say "tired". Haha. But well, it was a good ladies night-out! Miss ya Bethia! =) [communication] Changing topic, this one has been stuck in my head for quite a while now. I was just looking at the various communication means present now. Phone call, video call, msn, sms, fb and skype. It brought to my mind how little I call people to chat now and rely heavily on sms. Fb is 2nd and email is 3rd. And I really miss those days when I would chat non-stop on the phone. My favourite phone partner is Yi Xian. And it's no wonder he was very nostalgic at my bday party, recalling the good old days. Yeah. We would talk on the phone non-stop just about everything and that's how we became the best of friends. Khalis too. That was after we graduate from our sec school. Sigh. Now, talking on the phone is really not easy. For some people, like Wanting, we can chat on the phone easily but just that we don't call often. While for others, it's really just talking business. Or still others, just a bit hard to get them to chat comfortably with me on the phone. There seems to be this apprehension or fear. I don't know. All I can say is that I miss talking on the phone and miss this form of easy & clear communication. I wonder if the advance in technology is doing us good. It seems to stifle our communication and inter-personal skills. With sms or email or fb, it's easy to mis-interpret the other party's tone, feelings and thoughts. It becomes like talking to a cyber-someone that when we really meet face-to-face, we are stumped for words. Haha. I was discussing this with Marcus and he was telling me that there are good and bad to all forms of communication. Perhaps, then, there isn't a one best means of communication, but which is the most relevant one. But still, I can't help thinking that phone calls are better than sms. Haha. [recall] I was reading the previous entries on my blog. And I read the one where I wrote some reflections and words of encouragement that I've received. And I really feel ashamed that I've forgotten them and that I haven't been writing much about it recently. And not thinking about it. Boy. I'm so distracted. I really gotta concentrate and keep my focus on Him! Come on, Sharon. You can do this! --------------------------------- |
