I've set up another blog. For me to use during the office since blogger isn't accessible at office. So here it is: timeinoffice@wordpress.com

But don't bang on it too much. It's prob alot of complains and I'll usually write there when I really have a strong urge to write or that I wanna complain about work etc. Haha.

[beautiful messages]

The past few nights have been AWESOME! Every day since Monday, I managed to do my QT! I was wow! Okay! I've finally got to do it! Yay! To be honest, the past 5 weeks have been a struggle. I know that 5 weeks is long to adapt and get into a routine but seriously, it has been so! I can't have a fixed routine and without it, I need more discipline to do my QT. Well, I guess it's cos I sent my ODJ back to spore and now am relying on the devotional material on my Bible. And I wanted to keep on track with the schedule. So I follow it closely according to the days.

And it has been beautiful and wonderful! God has been speaking to me through each and every one of them! I was touched by it! Right from the beginning in Gen and picking on several stories. Today, I was touched again and God spoke to me. It is amazing how God spoke to me through the time I had with Him just now.

First, He gave me really quiet time. I had time alone in the room. Just myself and Him. It was nice. Then, I flipped through my journal randomly and chanced upon an entry that I wrote before I left for GIP. An entry way earlier, dating back to 12 March. In it, I was writing my fears that I have. And a verse that I chanced upon in Isaiah that encourages me to look to Him.

As I look through the fears, I realised that it is happening now. They are still my present fears and concerns. That was before I read the Genesis passage. After reading, God was teaching me through Sarai to not do things my way. To not take matters into my own hands. To wait patiently. For His perfect intention and perfect plan to unfold. It can save me lots of heartache. It was clear. These fears and concerns have to be given and committed to God. To not take things on my own and do things based on my own wisdom. But to really follow His plan and will. And to wait patiently.

Thank God for teaching me through His Word. And thank God for speaking to me.

Indeed, the rain just now was a blessing in disguise. Though I didn't go to cell group eventually, I got to spend good time with God, in quietness and in prayer. In intercession too as I pray for Sarah and Aunty Cas. Yeah. I was reminded of Aunty Cas and her new baby as I read the write-up :) Will definitely drop her a mail soon!

[family]

It was nice talking to Sarah just now, again. As always. I always enjoy my conversations with her. But it's just a pity that it's a short conversation. I don't get to talk to her for long. Mostly cos I always call late. Sad. But at least we can talk a bit. Please, Sarah, let's talk longer k? I was really touched when she told me that she put my picture as the wallpaper on her hp. It was really sweet of her. I wish I can also have a picture of her or the family in my wallet. Oh well. But it's okay. Seeing Reuben's photo also reminds me of the family.

And everytime I see Reuben's photo and read his message behind, I tear. I miss Reuben alot. I haven't talked to him for a long time. But somehow, everytime we are on the phone, we don't talk much. Sigh. What do I miss about him? I guess it's not the conversations that we have, the past fun that we shared or the driving arounds that we do. I believe it's simply because of who he is. Simply because he's my brother. Despite the little talk, I feel connected to him. I miss him. And because of the little talk, I miss him too. Talk more to me, k, boy? I really want to know what's happening on your side.

Alright. Homesickness is settling in. But it's normal I guess. I am somehow surpressing it through the phone calls that I make often. Oh well. I'll see how and what I can do.

Okay. I miss my other family too. My church. Miss the cell group that I'll miss too. Hope they'll grow together through the meet-ups. And, well, I miss serving in church too. It's really different going to another church. There is no familarity, no grounding, no belonging, very different. Now, I miss church. I really miss church. And will appreciate church more. Now, I understand what Jeremy meant when he talked about church going in the inital parts of his UK and US trips. Oh well. I hope I'll settle in soon, somewhere!