An excerpt from my journal:

I've been struggling. Ever since last week. Battling with why I'm here in SH. It's really tough. Communication is hard. And I feel horrible. It makes me want to cry. I was so close to tears. I really felt like going back. Even talking to Owen about it makes me feel sad and quiet. I simply looked down.

But I looked up just now and saw the keychain that XQ and Julian gave me. "God Loves Sharon". I remember Julian's explanation. They hope that this will always remind me that no matter what happens, God loves me and will always be there for me. Then, it reminded me of what Marcus shared about God's love being the basis of Christianity. There's nothing more to rely on than His love. If this is missing, then Christianity, this relationship with God, is nothing.

Then, it all fell into place. That God loves me so much that putting me here in SH is by no mistake or chance. There's a purpose. He couldn't have simply missed out this detail of my life or make a mistake. He shows His great love for me even by putting me in this place. Despite my weaknesses and inadequacies which result in this struggle, God puts me here still. And His love will see me through.

It reminded me of His characters reflected in Hannah's prayer (1 Sam 2). Of His holiness, His knowledge and His power. This God is a great God that I serve. Believe it, Sharon! You can overcome your difficulties and struggles! Through Christ who gives you strength! Philippians 4:13.