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Wednesday, February 23, 2011 @ 12:34 am Ephesians 4:2 Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love
--------------------------------- Monday, February 21, 2011 @ 1:51 am [it's awesome]
It's awesome when you:
have the joy of being used by Him --------------------------------- Sunday, February 20, 2011 @ 12:58 am [sleep-over]
Must I sleep over a problem again? For the 2nd night? Should I really not say anything tonight? But I hate the feeling I get every morning when I wake up--the horrible feeling of something not resolved and not settled before the sun sets. --------------------------------- Tuesday, February 15, 2011 @ 12:13 pm [trip back to the 90s]
Saw this article on this person's blog. Check it out: http://jeremysng.wordpress.com/2010/05/08/some-things-i-remember-from-the-90s/ It sure brings back lots of memories and alot of laughter! Oh! Those days! [trip back to shanghai] Boy! I've been thinking about shanghai soooo much. So miss it. Especially whenever Adele msgs or emails me. I just feel like going back there in the next holiday I have. But when I return, he won't be there. And I wonder how I'll take it. Will it still be as pleasant and enjoyable? Or will I sulk and walk the streets that seem familiar yet unfamiliar at the same time? Sigh. The memories are just so vivid and wonderful. Just too many to count and too many to recall one-by-one. Wish it never had to end and wished things turned out for the better instead. Anyway, I can't believe that I went there and came back already. It seems so surreal that I actually stayed overseas for 6 months, away from Singapore and away from home. Can't believe that I actually took that step I thought I won't have the courage to take or to even survive it. Thank God for His grace! --------------------------------- Monday, February 14, 2011 @ 12:49 am [13 Feb, Sun into 14 Feb, Mon]
What an interesting day today! I went hiking up Bukit Timah Hill with my parents and sister and Uncle Weng Choh. What a hike! And what a trail! Haven't done such a trail for a long time! It sure was tough but just gotta keep pace and breathe through my nose! Haha. Steps and slopes and mud. That was what it was. But the interesting thing was that my sister kept talking non-stop! I've never seen her talk soooo much before! It felt like our genes were switched! I was totally silent and she was totally talking away! And can even sing song! Boy! Doesn't she get breathless? Lol! Well, the walk and hike was good. Had a good time with my family. I wished Reuben was here to join us. After that, had a good dinner at Bukit Timah Market! =)) Yays! Carbonara and the famous and good Fried Carrot Cake! Yums! Well, since it's past midnight, Happy Valentine's Day! But I must say that it's funny how reality hits me just a day before it. But just as well. I would rather know the truth than to keep guessing and hoping for something that will come to naught. And somehow I feel more at ease after a night's cry. Still, I know that the changes will be hard to swallow and stomach. Hope I can take it well. Especially when I wake up tomorrow and see people holding bouquets of beautiful flowers! Just pains my heart, since I'm someone so inclined towards flowers! On the other hand, I finally wrote CHINESE emails to my 2 friends in Shanghai that I missed so dearly! Hope it brings a smile on their faces and hope to hear from them soon! :) --------------------------------- Monday, February 07, 2011 @ 12:05 am [the past]
As I was looking through my profile pictures on fb, I saw the photo below. Yes, it was one of my profile pictures. And mind you, I don't change my profile pictures often and each one was carefully picked. I can still clearly remember when was it and why I put it up. It was my 21st birthday. And my friends were very sweet to gather together and gave me this surprise birthday celebration after my exam paper. They came. They sang. They smiled. And I was touched. I was totally touched till I cried. At that time, I felt very very blessed. Very blessed with such a great bunch of friends. And more importantly, her. I felt very delighted and very blessed and very thankful to God for her.
Yet, as 2011 dawns, I find us distancing. I'm afraid of going to school every Sunday night. Cos I'm afraid I'll have no company. I'm afraid I have no friends. I'm afraid she's not there. There is this load of pain and load of tears. Why do things have to change? Why change for the worse? I find us disagreeing more on things and spending less time with each other. I find us having to struggle to put our opinions on the table amicably and myself giving in so that she won't be unhappy. And I bet she doesn't read my blog at all now, or as often as she used to. Sometimes, I wish, I can be that girl in the photo below. That's the young me. So happy, smiling so cheerfully even though I popped out of a washing machine. The joy, the smile, the innocence.
Why do people grow up? Why do I have to grow up, know more, and be in such a tangle of complication? --------------------------------- Saturday, February 05, 2011 @ 12:10 am [here we go again]
And here we go again. Another one. Someone close to me too. I am happy yet I'm not truly happy. I'm still learning. Still a struggle in me. Sigh. I'm getting older, aren't I? 22 years old this year. 1.5 years left here. That's an old age and that's a short time. Sigh. What should I do? I just hope my vision isn't marred or blurred. I think that would be much worse. --------------------------------- Thursday, February 03, 2011 @ 4:00 am [a light-hearted movie]
Just finished watching a show called "The Perfect Man", as the poster above shows. It's not bad a show. Really. I was pleasantly surprised by it. There are quite a number of good quotes in it. Not bad...can learn from it too. Haha. And I know there is no perfect man here. Yet, it's such a pleasant and nice show that it makes me wonder about relationships too. The someone out there for me...the soul-mate...yeah. I guess, things can't match as perfectly as they depict in the show. I remember someone once told me that you can usually match /should compromise for only 70% of the qualities you wanna see in your partner. But I know there is one that God has planned. Just gotta trust and just gotta wait. --------------------------------- |
