Was talking to Geok Lan just now and telling her that "a break ought to be a break". I was referring to my upcoming recess week where I'll spend 7 days and 6 nights in Malaysia. Out of which, 2 days and 1 night will be spent climbing a mountain. The rest of the time will be spending time with my cousins and relatives and Malaysia--shopping, eating and all.

Sounds really relaxing uh? To take a break, do things that I like and to read a book. I think it's good to read a book, a Christian Literature (especially since I have many books waiting for me at home)!

Yet, there is this nudging feeling inside of me that makes me think I'll lose out to my friends. Afterall, people's recess week is spent in Singapore and that means they have the notes accessible to them. Then they'll study and revise and do everything that studies require of them. Will I lose out then? It certainly makes me think that I'll lose out. When I don't have my notes with me or bring only a limited number of notes (surely you don't expect me to bring 1kg worth of notes to Msia or the 4 files that I have). Also, I tend not to have the discipline to study when I'm overseas. Making it even harder, uh?

Well, thankfully, I don't have any tests due the week after the break. Really thank God else I would definitely resent the trip. And, I've caught up with all my e-lectures except for 1 lecture from last week and 2 lectures of a module (which I've already intended to watch it much later for fluency of lessons). I'm sure I'm able to complete this 1 lecture and the upcoming ones from this week before I fly off. So, that would leave me pretty free for the recess week.

I know that not many really get to enjoy this. But hmm. I wonder if I should bring more notes than I should or spend more time at studies while I'm in Msia. Or simply enjoy God's presence, this break and the book that He had inspired people to write. Actually, I'm not really hard-pressed for the first half of this sem. Somehow. I guess it's because I have no more electives to take and that I have a 3-day week. So I'm really pretty relaxed and not too suffocated (except for the projects). Hmm. So is this break necessary for me?

Gees. Still, a concluding thought: I wish there is no such thing as "competition" among friends.