today was so wasted. I slept in the aftnoon for 2 hrs while doing mindmap. I could have done alot of things lor. play piano, finish off the essay. man. shouldn't have slept on the bed. den later go gym n work out. surprisingly there wasn't anybody until sum time later. but it's ok. ran a bit too. aft running 2.4 I dun feel lyk running again. lazy. but today gz wasn't tat good. i stayed behind cos qin wen was teaching felicia...helping her out n pointing out her mistakes. well, as i'm not in part B, I jus sat one side n listen to her. den she was asking felicia to go thru one part wid yao zhi. den I told qin wen n felicia tat she muz play frm soft to loud. tat's wad coach has been emphaising on. but u noe wad qin wen said? aiyah, nvm la. as long as she can play. I argued back la, saying it was necessary, it's wad coach has always been saying. but qin wen still give me black face n dismiss wad I jus pointed out. i noe felicia heard wad i say.. but qin wen's attitude towards me? I dunno why she hold so much grudge against me. dun understand. i watched her speaked to felicia, i think it's worse than how i speak to the members lor. qin wen use alot of force in her words. she kept saying lyk, go n practice ar etc in a strong tone; like no mercy. i think she's contradicting herself la. there she was scolding me last time for being too snobish n forcing ppl but there she is using strong words n not at all that persuasive, more lyk force. dun understand why. well, at least it'll only be for another 2-3 weeks plus. aft syf is over, doubt i have more opportunity to tok to her. nvm. jus avoid her for the next few lessons n jus leave her alone when she's coaching the juniors. well, there's at least one thing tat i appreciate...her coaching to the juniors. been noticing tat. happy about it =) both eve n qin wen.