hello blog! i'm finally home! home....hmm....ya...i consider this my home. ok. msg him too. din wanna drag it any longer n keep thinkin if he'll reply or not. gladly, he did. but we only toked for a short while last night before we slept. toked a bit today too. sms. but i noticed one thing different. he has changed. his attitude towards me has changed. though he replied, he is still cold towards me. lyk he dun really care much. i admit, he did ask me sum qns but he hardly comments on them n doesn't sound as cheerful as he did the last time. sigh. it's really saddening n heart-breaking. sigh. i wish things din have to turn out this way... i really wonder if i shld continue to put in the effort to maintain this friendship if he seems unwilling. i really need advice here!!

ok. reached home last night arnd 1230am. took a maxi home. first time i sat on it. it was a van type of taxi. 35dollars. it was a long n dark trip. tiring. slept at 2am. today, woke up to the noisy sound of construction. hate it. so got up at 11am plus n den msg him. sadly, he only replied lyk later. nvm abt tat. at least he replied. n he's still not feeling well. hopes he can get well soon quickly! aft waking up, immediately play piano. cos i got an audition for diploma coming thu. scared. dunno if i can prac in time for it. 2 pieces. prac hard today. actually, not tat hard but jus a bit. get familiarise n choose the pieces. sigh. jus hope i can scrap thru the audition. i really wanna take a dip course.

den the rest of the day past wid me playing games wid my sis's frens. pictionary again. den went swimming! nice weather to swim. think i got a bit of tan. learnt to sommersault in water!! nice! sigh. it's night time. the whole feeling of missing him comes back again. it's really heart-breaking n sad. man. i wish this will be over soon. i really must let go... lord, take it. this is yrs. help me Father.