hi! feeling better already but it still gets lonely at night when i have no one to tok to. wonder where is yi xian cos i'd called him twice ytday. i tot he came back from genting already. anyway, my cousin from new zealand jus came over. staying at my place too. the bf also. not the first time i have a stranger staying at my place but jus have to accept. it's a rather uncomfortable feeling. he's name is Dustin. i'm surprised at the name cos i tot tat only my sch tat Dustin have that name. ha. he's a chinese, thankfully and i think he dyed his hair red. he's not bad. plays the drums but noe a bit of guitar.

I'd jus shown him sum songs and he had tried to play them while i sing. but i keep going off-pitch. ha. anyway, it's nice to spend sum time wid him in the room. if only reuben, my bro, is here den it'll be better.

ytday, aft church, the youth n i went for lunch together. jeremy, my bro n i went to buy back food from coffee shop while the rest ate in mac. den aft tat we play lan in clementi. it's really cool! from morning 10am-3pm they charge $1.60! cheaper than outside so i'm very willing to play n allow my bro to play. but we only play for one hour. no more than tat. dun want us to cultivate the habit of spending. but the ppl i meet there are really...ugh. they are quite gangster-ish. no wonder my mum dun allow me to play arcade. well, jus gotta control myself to not stare at them or talk to them. den nth will happen. i keep dying when i play CS. aiyo. the ppl are very pro la. dunno how they do it wan. i keep shooting at them, they shoot at me but in the end, i still die n they survive. i dun understand. maybe cos of the weapon? perhaps so.

aft lan, we went over to bernice's house. wun say it's exactly nice playing there but well, at least we have a time together. sum play monopoly while the others watch best bet till it ends. but it's a really crapy show la. so many dreams. waste time wan. stupid show. den play rounds of Big Two. yup. n uno stacko. tat was nice. me n le jing n my bro. so shaky. ha.

ok. tat's abt all. jus tat on the way home, we were very silent. me, my bro. jeremy, jessie, le jing n le ying. i dunno why but it's weird la. anyway, we had a good time together. good bonding.

jus hope he's okay. i haven't heard from him for so long. he seems to be avoiding me. i dunno. maybe i think too much but everytime i sent him a msg, he never replies. so i dunno why he's doing tat. i really hope he'll start talking to me again. hopefully b4 i leave for chiang mai b4 7th dec or aft i come back. i hope so!