hi. today i got back my results. if u wanna noe den ask me k? dun think i'll put it here. a bit disappointed cos i expected slightly better. sigh. oh well. jus hope i can go ACJC if it's the Lord's will. den met yw n sh today for lunch. glad the proj is all over. finally. all are done. mr chia is satisfied wid the test tube. n so is mrs leow n ms tan. glad they came down to see us. thanks 06S11 for yr help!! it wouldn't have been a success widout u guys! thank Lord too!

again, it's seeing him. a bit scared la. but luckily i had the guts to approach him in pjc so it isn't tat bad now. toked to him a while when asking abt the results. he did really well!! 8 pts! i couldn't believe it! shocked la. but i still congrat him. i was kinda expecting a good result frm him. it's pretty amazing. an A1 for eng n humanities. pretty amazing. i'm glad he sent over a msg on msn jus now. but aft a while, he stopped toking to me altogether. i think tat will be the last time we'll be toking unless i see him in ACJC. tat is if i get into it. i'm sure he can get into it. sigh. i dun mind seeing him but i jus hope he'll treat me better n not so cold, or so it seems to me. but nevertheless, am glad he toked a bit to me. when i asked him an impt qn, he din reply. sigh. i think i'll never get a reply. these few days, i had been in a dilemna esp since v-day is jus round the corner. often, i wonder if i had done the right thing. cos seeing he n i so awkward n seeing him so hurt. it really hurts me alot alot. dear, do u know tat? sigh. too used to calling u dear. sorry. *ahem* do u know tat? it hurts me alot esp seeing u so hurt. sigh. lord, please show me wad to do. give me help n advice lord. help me to be bold n frank to tell my "mentors" abt this matter. but there is one thing, i think he found sumone whom he liked. cos of his nick. tat's wad i think. i dare not ask him. i'm afraid i can't take the reality. give me time. i hope by then, i'll learn how to pick myself up n get on wid life. i wonder if he reads this blog. maybe he doesn't. but i hope he does. esp this. jus so he knows wad i'm thinking. sumtimes i jus wish so.

anyway, had a good time wid sh today after release of o lvl results. toked alot over dinner. rather, aft dinner. told me alot abt acjc so i can make a better choice. had a good time shoppin in bugis junction too! haven't been there for long. n showed her a new type of chain-necklace. n had a good time chatting abt other stuffs. jus she n i. haha. nice. n i'm glad i got a chance to tok to her abt God n Jesus. i'm glad i suggested the sinner's prayer etc. though she din say it on the spot wid me but at least i planted the seed. lord, i planted the seed. may tat seed fall on good soil jus lyk wad is written in the parable, tat it may grow n bear fruits abundantly. continue to use me to touch many lives n bring ppl to u. i pray father tat u grant me open n listening hearts the nxt time i tell it to any of my frens. i noe sh is looking at this now. lol. hello sh! any help, i'm always here! tat's one good thing tat happen today.

er. okay. ate in jap restaurant in clementi wid sh n yw. bring back memories. sigh. oh well. had a good lunch. n dinner too! ate in pasta mania! nice. okay. mixed feelings now. disappointment (over my results), upset (over him), happy (over goin out wid sh n proj n his gd score), pressure (many of my sa frens all score 8/9 :S), worried (tat ACJC will reject me again). oh well. we'll see how i am aft tonight! take care peeps. n choose yr sch wisely!

oh! Happy Birthday Mum!