hey blog. i noe i haven't been bloggin for lyk 1 week?? i'm not sure. been goin out n goin crazy. haha. went out frm mon-wed. mon go catch a movie wid victor? ya..shaggy dog den go n study together..but ended up toking. but glad for the time of sharing!! really appreciate tat moment.went out to eat dinner tat day. took a set dinner n got kinda cheated due to the picture. wanted to pay him back but he din wanna accept it. anyway, it was a good time spent. went kino-wadever bookshop n got stuffs.was telling him abt the moon on the rooftop. sweet memory. okay.

tue wanted to go out wid s11 wan. den when i was abt to leave the hse, alicia msg me n tell me it's cancelled. luckily, she msged me in time but was quite sad n disappointed. den went to meet victor to study again. n tis time, i made it a point to ensure he studies. i dun have much to study. jus ask him several maths qns n it's over! but for him, there's much to cover. plus, the day before, we din cover much. so i insisted tat we study. it was rather weird n i almost got a headache. had to control myself not to tok to him. tough. but had to. else he'll not be prepared for his BT. anyway, it was good time spent once again. er. went to watch him have his dinner too. while i jus sat there staring n toking. haha. my mum la. din let me go out n have dinner. hmph. she almost locked me outside too! grr. luckily i got key. so it's not possible for her to lock me out.

wed went out wid yw n sh. sigh. it was boring. we concluded it's because orchard itself is boring. so it made our spirits low. i wonder where to go nxt time...we have been out together so many times n to so many places. i really wonder where. suggested sh's hse. perhaps so can, sh? but also dunno why we din tok much. got alot of empty spaces in between. but ate in swensons. haha. owed yw money. bad me. yikes! tat reminds me i'm goin to be tight cash soon :S better start packing sandwiches for lunch in sch!! lol. okay. anyway, on the way back, toked a bit to yw. lyk can tok more leh. hmm. strange. i can also tok alot to sh. but why when 3 ppl are together, lyk can't tok much. but when toked to each one individually, i can tok more to them. hmm. in any case, i'm happy to meet them. yup. glad to see them b4 i leave for msia.

oh yes. went to church camp n jus came back ytday. victor was supposed to send me off wan. he said he wanted to but he overslept n his hp got prob n so i can't contact him. n yikes. tat made him real guilty n made him very distracted. i feel very guilty myself too. sigh. oh well. the church camp was good! by the beach again. so there's sea n waves n sunrise n sunset. the sun din set over the sea but i managed to do my qt while it was setting behind my back. my front was facing the sea. it was a quiet n enjoyable time spent. it's sumthing tat i wun experience in singapore. only can hear sound of swimming pool. haha.

woke up at 6.10am on the 3rd day! i'm so proud of it! being one who doesn't wake up early, when i managed to do it, i was super happy n proud of myself! so aunty daisy, aunty magdalene, le jing n i went out of our rooms n reacht he beach at arnd 6.40am. i was so afraid i can't go as eleena said i cannot go down alone so early in the morning. it wasn't safe. so glad that i got the adults for company. n so i watched how the shore gets brighten up. a new day. sat on the rocks. le jing n i. er. we're no les ar. din tok much, jus enjoy the scenery before us. but it was slightly cloudy. sigh. so can't see the sun in it's full n entire shape. anyway, can see it's "glory". no. i would rather say, see God's creation. the rays are lyk God's glory shinning down. n the scene in front of me seems to be lyk those scenery pictures i'd seen. it's pretty amazing tat i can see it for myself....

went canoeing on the 1st day. there were rough waves. bad. it was 3 plus but still there are rough waves. sigh. was so afraid i'll capsized. but when i had jus began to canoe, the first waves crashed. i was sitting in front n so got all wet! n when i went to shower aft canoeing, the shower room was so filled wid sand. ha. aft canoeing, lj n i sat down by the beach too. near the waves. as we were all wet, it doesn't matter if the waves that crash onto the sand sweep over us. but had to go off as i'd got some cuts while we were canoeing back to shore. we were canoeing aimlessly too. there are no islands nearby. but we toked alot. lj shared alot too. was real happy. it marks the beginnin of a non-superficial frenship. yup. i shared wid her too on our way back! i'm glad i finally had the courage to open up. thank you lord n thanks victor. it's cos of all the pressure tat he ask me to share tat i'm so willing to tok now. yup. n his wanting to grow closer to his cell members also encouraged me to grow closer to mine =)

anyway, the messages were nice. good. touching. inspiring. motivatin. encouraging. yup. pastor timothy phua. good speaker. heard him speak before. n he told us tat he'll only speak in one retreat in one year. so really thankful tat he chose to speak at our retreat. the messages had indeed touched many hearts esp eleena's. toked on david, jacob, nehemiah n moses. learnt much frm jacob n nehemiah. shared wid the campers too. n i led worship on one of the days. on the last day morning. been playing for every worship session. n no. i din play n lead worship, not at the stage lyk don moen. but kah hwee n eleena played. n the stupid mic din work. so had a hard time singing out loud n encouraging the ppl. u noe, those kinda words said in between songs. yup. anyway, it was a good experience. my 2nd time.

finally replied jeremy. he sent me an email on the day before i left for the trip. i wanted to send him an email tat day too. but din have time. sigh. oh well.

met victor ytday. aft his cell. wow! wad a surprise frm him! a flower n a gift. it's so wow! but made me feel guilty. sigh. i really wonder if it's cos my sms before i left tat made him feel guilty. plus, it had distracted him alot such tat he can't conc on his revision. plus, he sent quite a number of time n money on choosing n buying them. n it jus makes me feel so bad la. i dunno...grr...i noe he doesn't want me to feel tat way but i jus do. not used to ppl showering me wid so much concern n gifts. besides, i hardly receive these frm my family. wad's more frm a fren. so it's touching. !~THANK YOU VICTOR~!

he came over to my hse n have dinner. mum ask him so many qns again. hmph. n he did a treasure hunt wid me. haha. now he noe my room better than i do. lol. n played a song on the guitar wid the piano. nice. i sang too. n did much catch up. sent him off n he missed one bus. shared wid me stuff? yes? no? i've forgotten. too hungry to rmb now. he wanted to miss the nxt one but it was too late. yes. it was too late. so he left off. ya. but it was nice to see him again =) glad i cld see him but my mum again. dun let me eat dinner outside. stupid.

anyway, sch's starting tml. jus msg praveen abt my intention n asked for his help. also chat wid him n noe him better. din noe he's a dsa student in hockey. so he muz have known sylvia too! haven't ask him abt it. but i'm glad i tok to him n chat wid him. so know him better. better noe my partner class rep since i'll be working wid him. one interesting fact: he's a catholic! cool. okay. so lord, grant me faith, courage n wisdom for tomorrow! =)