Yes!! finally can blog. after chem paper toady, jus feel lyk a big burden is off my chest. i'm glad there's this break!! really nid this break man. feel so...ah...good! watch LOST too. stupidly skipped one episode. haha. dunno if i wanna watch back or not. haha. nvm. will see how. at least this time my boy wun scold me already for taking up too much memory space in the dvd recorder :P tml he got matrix test!! all the best!! dun think he'll see this b4 his test tho. but jus went to see him n saw him doin matrix hw. haha. i hope he'll be able to revise by tonight n understand the topic. muz score k? it's very simple wan!!

last nite germany lost to italy. i know. though i din watch n not exactly a really huge fan of world cup. but still sad tat germany lost. sigh. heard kuan wei toking to the guys abt it this morning...hmm...he said tat germany was good, conserve their energy till the 2nd half or sumthing. ya.

anyway, din see him the whole day. kkz. exaggerating. only glance at him early in the morning. but din even get to tok to him face-to-face. sigh. upset. dun lyk. din tok to him much today on phone calls either. hope to tok to him later. missing him already. aww :P sigh. wished...jus wish... but tml i doubt i'll see him unless he stays back or maybe i go sch early! see him for lunch! den fri not goin to sch. a day off for us cos it's college day. aw man. tat's totally awful!! grr...

hmm. dunno why these days jus get distracted during qt. not cos of him. definitely. but dunno leh. sit down. then reflect on the day. think abt stuffs. den i guess all these jus leads me away frm the real purpose of why i'm down there; why i purposely leave the hse to go downstairs. n sumtimes, i'll jus stare at the ppl in the swimmin pool n observe them n everything arnd me except for the words in the Bible. bad. i wonder if the prob lies wid my heart or the environment. should i change my environment?? i dunno. but jus dun lyk it. den it'll drag till very late n den it jus gets very dark. dun think God is pleased either

tml's my A level chinese oral!!! argh!!! okay....haven't prac much. goin to prac later!!! muz prac. i'd better pass my chinese or at least fail by only 5 marks :P

today, was such a slacker. after the paper, jus wanted to go out n have a breather. so hang arnd xiao wei n jannah n waited for jannah to settle the oral stuffs n the fingerprint stuffs. den meet yong hui n ruth to eat lunch. xiao wei also joined us. toked a bit here n there but most of the time is yh n xw toking abt chinese oral. jus feels weird to hear frens speaking in chinese. jus reminds me soooo much abt ctss. sigh. miss those days. miss those days when i also communicate in chinese!!!

oh! btw, CTSS BAND CONCERT on the 19th August, Sat, 730pm!! peeps, ctss peeps, try to make it can? den can be lyk a gathering! hope can see many ppl there. haha. pay 10bucks to see ppl. lol. of course to hear the band. oh well. this year spent so much on concerts la. 20bucks for rapture, 5bucks for sajc band concert. oops. dun overspent sharon though u love arts!

okay. contiune the story. den after lunch, went to macs. tok a while to linda. glad to tok to her. found out she's frm dunearn n knows ian too! den went to get a seat n study maths for one hour. noisy though. the loud radio. dun lyk it. but at least i'd left wid one page more of notes to look thru b4 starting on the qns. can't wait to be challenged by the qns. hope i wun get piss.

den changed. mum called while i was in toilet. hmm. jus got this weird feeling of why she calls me n ask me abt my papers these days. i wonder wad's she doing. she never do tat to me b4. or at least i dun recall. dun think there's a motive rite? after all, she's a MOTHER. one tat loves her kids. i hope it's pure love. sigh. why am i thinking this way of my mother in the place? oh no! how come i'm becoming suspicious of my own family members? am i changing? wad happen? sigh. i guess i've been living in a world where i dun feel much parental love. n i kept telling myself n my frens abt it tat perhaps, it jus became so real n i jus acknowledge the fact. so when mum did this to me, it jus feels weird. man. dun want. dun want to be suspicious of even my own family. if i dun trust them, who else can i trust? besides, it's my parents whom i'll turn to eventually in tat BIG decision nxt time. change me!

went to TJC investiture. met VJC frens. hse com members. hear alot of stuffs. TJC's hse com is HUGE!!! they have 50 plus members! n the house com head is the vice-pres of the SC. n the captains of each hse are members of the SC. n they hand over by pinning the collar badge on the JC1s n hug them. so we got weird combis lyk 3-ppl hug n guy-gal hug n tall-short ppl hug. ya. funny. one of the 3-ppl hug hit the head. lol. anyway, had good toks at the reception wid the TJC ppl n the VJC ppl. got ideas for investiture but have to write report!!! grr. dun lyk. after tat, jus fell aslp on the train. wanted to start studying frm tb stn onwards but jus fell aslp all the way frm city hall to je. haha. good rest anyway. yay.