i saw those words on my good fren's msn nick jus now...makes me think: have i been treasuring and cherishing everything gratefully...and i mean EVERYTHING and GRATEFULLY? sigh. well, these few days ain't good for me. well, in terms of mentally, i'm tired and slightly drained. house com, minutes, academic studies, h3 maths, studies, expectations, admins, reading of daily work...it ain't easy. then everytime go for hse meeting, the calendar always come out n i'll see all the dates already marked down..rehearsals and deadlines. thank God tat i'm not one of the heads but it's tiring and painful to see them.

sigh. he's in camp now. can hardly tok to him. when i wanna share my stress and my burden, jus can't. den i'll turn to God. actually, i'm in the wrong. i shldn't turn to victor first b4 turning to God. it shld be the other way round. gonna change that.

well, i guess, hearing frm wad my fren wrote on the nick, i guess i'd better look at things in a different light and give thanks. well, some things are clear-cut: lyk my class n GP class, yong hui, ansley, danny, still can do daily rev, got thru for H3 maths selection test, mtgs.. yet, i guess, the real challenge is to give thanks admist all the difficulties and tough times that i'm goin thru.

this evenin when i was returning home, i was super stress. had lotz to do. i know. generated a list of 11 items during geog lesson and added another 2 more when i reached home. when i really sat down, b4 i start my work, i prayed for God's strength to see me thru even jus one nite. and yes He did! i sat down n slowly lay my 13 items carefully and see things clearly. and while i'm studying, i ain't very stressed and tired. jus took one step at a time n trusting in the Lord. thank God.

hmm..these few days God spoke to me abt trust too. esp on the day when i got the results for my H3. well, one may expect me to be happy. yes, i was. but only for a moment. the real set-back came when i told my mum and she ain't happy. it then started a whole chain of asking teachers for advice. then, it led to too many advices till i get frustrated, upset and stressed. yet, thank God for the 4 teachers, 2 seniors and 1 youth leader who helped me out, cared for me and shared this burden with me. esp my youth leader who said she'll pray for me. it's nice to know tat someone's praying for me...comforting. but, it's even nicer to hear assuring words frm God where he told me to trust him. thank you lord. stepping out in faith tml? i'm not sure when i shld tell my decision. tml or mon?? hmm...i guess i have to tok to mum one more time. blessing. blessin frm parents. sigh. it's nice to go with blessings frm them...yet are they willing to give? sometimes i wonder if it's them who's not listening to wad God has to say to them or is it really God telling them not to let me go for it...sigh...which one Lord? if it's really the former, then i pray tat u open their hearts and help them to see that u'll take care of me, tat i'll always be in yr arms, safe and sound n my parents need not be over-protective...