okay..i better not miss this date to blog! 07-07-07!! yea..let's tok abt something tat jus happen. written all i wanted to say in my hp ytday. first, the phys paper. the paper 2 was horrible. after i was stuck in the 1st qn, i was demoralised for the rest of the paper. n then, i gave up halfway through the paper. gave up. jus lyk tat. i can't believe it. but i practically skip all the qns i dunno how to do n jus skim thru all. i din give my best for each qn. i know it frm within. i tried to stop but can't. i dunno but i kept repeating to myself tat i'm jus not cut-out for phys. but well, in the nxt 4-5mths, gonna i'm gonna try n try harder. dun think it's right to have that give up attitude...

well, tat paper affected my rev for geog the nxt day. craps. n the geog paper wasn't hard! if only i'd studied n prepared n memorised. wid the little n inadequate preparation i made, i simply dun even have the knowledge to answer some of the essay qns n i jus lose 9marks like tat. stupid.

oh well, aft thurs, as mum was sick, i had to celebrate alone. it's not wad i usually do. i rmb in sec sch, yw n i wld always go out shopping. in sec 4 it's wid sh. yea. it was fun. wad i want. but this time round, i had to spend it alone. it bothered me a week b4 tat. but i'd to accept the fact. well, it din turn out as bad as i thought it wld be. i naturally planned it out. not goin to walk arnd aimlessly. went home n cook my own lunch. then went lib to spend some time wid God preparing my Cell Group leading the following night n the Bible Study material :) at JE lib. found a seat widout table. nice. sit on tat nice couch alone n undisturbed. it was great. then went shopping at This Fashion alone. first time again! at first, i was uncomfortable. but as i continued shopping, i was okay n began to enjoy it. i felt more adult n mature. haha. self-fulfilling prophesy? oh well. got a really nice shirt. not my typical style but it looks nice! update a photo for u nxt time round.

so yes. mum fell sick after eating durians at nite b4 she slept. she's slightly better now. but the past few days she was really in a bad shape. then, tat nite, i taught reuben log. finally he got it. see. it ain't hard. n i hope the concepts retained in his mind. well, i dunno why i wrote this on my HP abt overcaring n whether i was. i forgot the context. ha. but i think one impt thing tat struck my mind is tat it's not abt the actions but the intentions n motives of the heart when u care tat matters. let it be clear n not for selfish reasons *shrugs* whatever the context is, i hope it'll ring back nxt time when i look at this post again or for all u readers out there...

okay. here's one impt para i muz write down. i was reflecting after the block tests on thursday. n i realised tat i learnt a lot more non-academic lessons this time round than academic stuffs..let me list them down:

1. plannin helps. it really does. i planned for 2mths ahead. n tried to stay as close as possible. n i revise my plan along the way. 3 drafts! n u know wad? the result was tat i had time to prac prelim papers n all the topics as a whole abt 1 day b4 my very first chem n phys paper! it's the first time i din do last min work n achieved my goal! yea. thank God. n thank victor too. i rmb his words last yr abt plannin ahead :) sigh. wun deny it but i miss him. oh well. it's past. time to let go...
2. time management during the paper helps too. din rush through madly for all my papers n even had time to check! even the MCQ papers! woohoo. yay. finally learnt my lesson frm the maths paper that i rushed last yr..forgot which paper was tat..bt or promo...
3. dun give up. whether it's b4 or after the paper. DON'T. u've already lost the paper if u give up. n there's hope. there's always hope. more so when we are Christians. hope in God's character. tat He'll lead us through, give us the strength we nid, assure us tat He's sovereign n in control! yeah.
4. dun be affected by the paper tat has jus been done if u have to prepare for another paper. not worth it! lyk tat geog paper aft the phys paper!!! so the phys paper was a blessing in disguise eh? taught me this lesson 3 n 4 :)
5. always be prepared for a paper. n wid wadever u prepared, u enter n wack the paper. dun let the paper get u. u get the paper. haha. quoted from khalis :)
6. be disciplined :)
7. keep God in mind always! =)

yea man. i hope i'll keep this 7 lessons in mind always.

so there was durian feast ytday at uncle clarence's house aft cell group! yay! nice. but i had a hard time eating the sweet ones. the bitter ones are the one i lyk. oh. i skipped sch tat day. at first, wid the intentions of doing so. but then, i really fell sick tat morning wid flu. boo. then told alison. n i was worried i wun be well enough to lead cell tat nite. i even took 3 different types of medicine! haha. but thank God tat aft a shower, i got better :) better enough to eat durians too! n i took extra care to drink lotz of water b4 i slp so tat i cld go out wid Khalis n Quin today!

yup! we went out today. i wanted to reach there on time! planned to leave 45mins b4 the time of mtg. left the hse only 5 mins late but then, the stupid bus took so long to come! made me wait for 15mins! then, i was pretty late but not late for the movie definitely! yay. watched transformers! it's really nice! haha. but on the way home when i was looking at all the cars, i tot they are robots n goin to transform. the movie was good. can draw some parallel to the spiritual warfare we're fighting out there. n abt how in the end, jus as the bad guy is destroyed, satan will also fall into tat pit of fire. n when they did that intro abt it was a gd world until there was a betrayal? reminded me of lucifer, tat fallen angel. but the difference is tis: we are supposed to be involved in the warfare, cos we are made by God n created in His own image. so naturally, the attacker attacks the enemy's beloved. yup.

okay. well. khalis back was aching during the show. cld see him bend forward time-to-time during the show though he was 2 seats away. i know how it feels. i ever suffer tat b4. n it really hurts if i sit too long. i so wanna reach out across n hold his arm n ask him to bear it till the end of the show but i think it wld be rude to quin who's sitting nxt to me. so i din. really hope he will be okay man. really hope he'll recover. i do so want him to. so tat he can carry on wid his activities n pass out as a officer. dun want him to be transferred out either. then again, if u do, dun take it too hard k? there's a bigger plan out there for u...u never know...n it may be better! anyway, dun think so far eh? n i believe jus get yr back well n up n working n "runnin"..

so, ate a filling lunch at long john's. then went shopping at OP wid quin. yup. rumaging thru the clothes to look for bottoms until i lost track of time n was late! grr. 2 late-comings in a day! super angry at myself. all the way there, i was terribly upset n scolding myself non-stop. why can't i do somethin abt my late coming! grr. when i reached church, they were playing the last song! i was 30mins late. stupid. really sorry to aunty daisy n i hope i can serve well tml. i mean, i only had one prac. n tat particular song, i think it's change chord on the 4th beat but uncle henry says it's on the 2nd beat. n it was pretty hard for me to get it right. i'm gonna listen to the music on the cd tonight. must.

okay. missed the fireworks today. i hope to catch it nxt week wid my family or a fren (if the former can't make it). a pity khalis can't make it. haha. he got a party to attend. hey. jus go n enjoy yrself k? n luckily wei hao sms me n asked if i'd watched the fireworks arnd 830pm. now, i know the fireworks is at 830pm. i tot it was at 10pm! imagine how disappointed i wld be if i went to the rooftop at 10pm. haha.

okay. so i guess tat's abt it. jeremy will be back one n a half weeks later! for good! yay! finally can tok to him. but i wonder how things will be lyk btw us. n i hope we wun take this close proximity for granted n slack in our frenship cos we treid so hard to keep in contact when he's in UK. yea. still wanna keep in contact wid him... n this weekend is Earth Day or something of the like. yea! support it! glad they're doing action. but i think this can receive critic. lyk, wid all the performances goin on, the stage lights n power supply needed, aren't we burning more fuels? isn't tat contradictary to the msg tat it wants to convey?? jus think abt it. haha. oh well. hope more ppl will turn yr attention to the issues concerning it. esp the politicans :) jus realised this is a very long post. haha. thanks for stayin till the end! =) take care!